the quest to find a succubus

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bsquirrel

Member Rara Avis

since 2000-01-03

Posts 7855

0 posted 2000-08-06 02:53 AM

If you're the type of person who reads too much into things, you'd better not read this.

Mike

-the quest to find a succubus-
Moonlight falls like prolonged lightning through my window.
The pane has an angry mouth -- a hole someone made with a rock.
That person was me. The rock was a gift from an exgirlfriend.
You should have seen it -- rose quartz with fingers of crystal.
Now it's broke in pieces, several colored, useless chunks.

(line break)

Lust falls like prolonged yearning through my ugly body.
Ha! Be kind, be gentle? Never again.
Do you know what it feels like to draw a knife across your chest?
The blood doesn't sting, but the angry mouth is too big.

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Chilled, fogged brown bottles in the fridge.
I slopped their acrid mix all over my carpet.
Oops. Bad boy all bloody and knifey and angry and lonely.
Oops. Bad boy. He wanted to shoot god through His heart.

(line break)

The quest for a succubus is a journey
Requiring lots of false belief
That things will surely get better.
Things will surely matter when you're selling yourself cheap.

(line break)

My favorite orgy is the one with pills,
Where they all **** and suck in my bloodstream.
When I die, when the moonlight hurts to look, to see myself
Naked in shadows and seeping sheets.

(line break)

I called that ***** just last week.
I asked her, what's it like to get a phone call from your abortion?
I asked her, what's it like to be willfully raped?
She said
"Great. Just great."

(line break)

Ha. I can crack a smile like a pottery barn.
Ha. I can make love like a dead thing buried.
Ha. I can break myself in two like a rock on a hill.
Ha. I can die. But it's for me -- never you.

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Ha. I can listen to music that bursts my capillaries.
Ha. I can drink drugs until I'm sexily unawake.
Ha. I can pray that when god is finished with my bones
He'll save my penis in a jar for rape.

(line break)

The quest for the succubus ended when I looked in the mirror last night, today.

[This message has been edited by bsquirrel (edited 08-06-2000).]

serenity blaze
Member Empyrean

since 2000-02-02

Posts 27738

1 posted 2000-08-06 02:58 AM

Blown away.

bsquirrel

Member Rara Avis

since 2000-01-03

Posts 7855

2 posted 2000-08-06 03:03 AM

Hi, S'en, I'll be on icq again soon -- just not tonight (I'm talking with Lori tonight

). Anyway -- yeah, the poem pretty much blew me away, too. I had a semi-okay/semi-not-okay day, and talk about a venting of feelings I didn't even know I still held onto. Being a writer is great.

Mike

Janet Marie
Member Laureate

since 2000-01-22

Posts 18554

3 posted 2000-08-06 03:19 AM

>>"If you're the type of person who reads too much into things, you'd better not read this"<<

why do I get the feeling your talking to me??????????
I can read it if I want..I'll be good

going to read now....be back

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My favorite orgy is the one with pills,
Where they all **** and suck in my bloodstream.
When I die, when the moonlight hurts to look, to see myself
Naked in shadows and seeping sheets.

(line break)

I called that ***** just last week.
I asked her, what's it like to get a phone call from your abortion?
I asked her, what's it like to be willfully raped?
She said
"Great. Just great."

(line break)

Ha. I can crack a smile like a pottery barn.
Ha. I can make love like a dead thing buried.
Ha. I can break myself in two like a rock on a hill.
Ha. I can die. But it's for me -- never you.

(line break)

Ha. I can listen to music that bursts my capillaries.
Ha. I can drink drugs until I'm sexily unawake.
Ha. I can pray that when god is finished with my bones
He'll save my penis in a jar for rape.

(line break)

The quest for the succubus ended when I looked in the mirror last night, today.

=======================
you rock...
your write em... I read em...
( see i was good)...
later
me

AVANTI
Senior Member

since 2000-02-02

Posts 664
INDIA/MAHARASHTRA/PUNE

4 posted 2000-08-06 05:14 AM

powerful...
So well written!

If all was light...then I would have never learnt the dark...from which such truth evolves
from which evolves the light...
Avanti Rao

ethome
Member Patricius

since 2000-05-14

Posts 11858
New Brunswick Canada

5 posted 2000-08-06 05:36 AM

Thanks for the introductory warning...I would have been a guilty party.
After reading the replies I can feel the venting of feelings.....but you know, it proves that you are one hell of a good writer.

brian madden
Member Elite

since 2000-05-06

Posts 4374
ireland

6 posted 2000-08-06 06:51 AM

I felt like I have been dragged through a river of bile with this poem but after reading the disclaimer it actually tastes more like chocolate. A very interesting poem, this sent many shivers down my spine.

"I am melancholy, flower cutting through stone"
manic street preachers

bsquirrel

Member Rara Avis

since 2000-01-03

Posts 7855

7 posted 2000-08-06 08:08 PM

Glad you all enjoyed, and yes Janet Marie, I was talking especially to you!

And Brian, you must have only ever eaten bitter chocolate if you think that disclaimer did anything at all.

Mike

SEA

Moderator

Member Seraphic

since 2000-01-18

Posts 22676
with you

8 posted 2000-08-07 11:34 AM

Mike~ this confused the heck out of me.....

I have no idea what this was about.....I liked it any way.

-SEA

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