Open Poetry #9 |
Blinded By Your Beauty & Heart In Hand...repost for a friend |
Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
~Blinded By Your Beauty~ < !signature-->How could I have missed it ... I was looking right at you and still I didn't see, I never saw it coming ... never saw you walking right out from under me. I know I never looked away ... and this aint about love making me blind ... its about wanting somebody so much that you completely lose your mind. God, it was just so amazing to be on the receiving end of you ... I could have just stayed here forever taking in the beauty of your view. There is still so much of you left here inside of me ... every place you touched me left a mark ... made a memory. For just a little while I thought I finally had contentment in sight ... but now all my dreams are replaying in slow motion, black and white. All I can taste are the things Im doing without ... I guess I thought if I held you close enough ... it would quiet all the doubt. I know we had no right in trying to hold on ... some things aren't meant to be, it's just that I got so used to you lying here next to me. Now I'm alone, yet it's like your still here in this bed ... how do I get you out of my heart, and out of my head. And I'm not sure but I think a person can die from this kind of ache, just how much can a heart bend before it finally breaks. How do you get over someone who has gotten under your skin, how do you let go when its something you've held so damn deep within. Some days I wake up and it feels just like I been kicked in the chest, yet there's no anger here ... under the circumstances we both did our best. Even now ... I'm still sitting here completely in awe of you ... and I know that from this point on ... there will always be a little part of you in everything I do. Janet Marie *************** ~Heart In Hand~ In the silence left behind, as you leave, apparently gone to stay ... as I search for the reasons of why ... all I can hear is the things you didn't say. I cant be mad or hurt by the promises you never made ... you never lied ... you never led ... what you did was just quietly fade. You begged me not to love you ... and I tried ... but I still fell anyway ... I promised you no expectations ... and Im sorry ... that was much harder to keep -- than it was to say. The things we had in common, were the things we were doing without, and for just a little while we helped each other quiet all those doubts. I guess the intensity made me blind ... but I really thought you knew me by now, If only you could have just trusted -- part of you-with-me, somehow. Im so sorry I held you too close... you wanted the pleasure but not the affection, Im realizing now ... my emotions are what sent you off in a different direction. I never saw you leaving, never saw your hand on the door ... Blinded by your beauty ... I missed all the signs ... although I've been here so many times before. I truly thought you understood my love would never chain you down ... I tried so hard to make you see ... I would never let you drown. I don't want us to be hurt by this, I cant stand to think your scared of me, I need you to believe ... I promised I would let you go -- no guilt, no misery. I take credit for the mistakes I made, I know Ive only myself to blame, I knew going in I could get burned ... But I was so damn drawn to your flame. The only thing Im guilty of is giving too much of me away ... I just wanted to please you... and to bring to you ... the same sweet contentment you brought to my day. Now it seems that too much of me ... is way too much for you ... and this hurts so damn bad that you wont even talk to me ... that I dont know what Im gonna do. All I want this to end right for us both ... without any pain or regret ... I am so much better for you touching me ... so please ... never forget -- If you ever change your mind -- and a little more of me you think you could stand ... you always know how to find me ... here where Ive always been ... wishing on a star ... looking out at you ... heart in hand. Janet Marie ******************* It's amazing How you make your face just like a wall How you take your heart and turn it off How I turn my head and you lose it all ... And it's unnerving How one move just puts me by myself There you go just trusting someone else Now I know I put us both through hell ... I'm not sayin That there was nothing wrong I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me And I'm not sayin We ever had the right to hold on I just didn't wanna let you get away from me. ~MB20~Leave **reposts from open 7...for a friend who knows this pain... quiet comfort my friend... it does get better and it is a fact... we are so much better for their touch... worth every tear we cry... take care gentle poet jm There are places inside our souls - that have never been touched. There are places inside our hearts - that need to be loved this much. ~jm~ [This message has been edited by Janet Marie (edited 08-03-2000).] |
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Sudhir Iyer Member Ascendant
since 2000-04-26
Posts 6943Mumbai, India : now in Belgium |
Janet, Fresh posts or reposts they are always brilliant when they come from you... regards, sudhir |
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poutprincess Senior Member
since 2000-07-06
Posts 735Perth, Western Australia, Australia |
looks like im following sudhir around! all these poems said so much...and meant even more! what a true and deep heart you have! |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
Janet, My oh my that is some corpus delicite. Later gator. |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
You KNOW I love these Janet Marie---don't know if it was intended for me, but I'll take 'em!!! Hugs to you, m'twin...drop me an e if you're able...I'm such a moody wench! |
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Martie
Moderator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Love this poetry again, sweet Janet...Wonderful! |
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Michael G Senior Member
since 2000-06-25
Posts 579Nashville |
oh gentle poet in heart............... thankyou........ |
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Jenn E Senior Member
since 2000-08-02
Posts 589Kelowna, BC, Canada |
Blinded by your Beauty.............Has brought tears to my eyes..It is beautiful, and to me, theraputic. Thank You. |
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Mark Bohannan Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-21
Posts 7269In the winds of Cherokee song |
Your pain and your anguish show through very vividly in these. wishing on a star ... looking out at you ... heart in hand. This one line alone thrust itself into me and brought tears to these eyes. I know this feeling all so well and though I take comfort in knowing I am not alone in having felt like this; I am saddened to have the knowledge of someone going through this. smiles and hugs-----MC |
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brian madden Member Elite
since 2000-05-06
Posts 4374ireland |
Jan, what can I say to such honesty coming from an open heart. This is Poetry at its finest. "I am melancholy, flower cutting through stone" manic street preachers |
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Marina Member Elite
since 2000-02-10
Posts 2245Pickering, Ontario |
Your writing is too cool girl !!!! I love how you express emotions so easily at the brush of your pen. Marina It is a blessing to have wings for words, and passion in pen Marina Crossley |
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ethome Member Patricius
since 2000-05-14
Posts 11858New Brunswick Canada |
Janet Janet Janet when I read these I just was engulfed in them totally...dear girl I can't say enough about how you write.... It just does my heart good to feel the honesty of these special emotions.....I can only say the world needs more down to earth loving and caring poets like you. BRAVO! BRAVO! ENCORE! I demand it in the name of the restoration of renewed faith in humanity! Standing tough under stars and stripes we can tell this dream's in sight you got to admit it at this point in time that it's clear the future looks bright. on that train of graphite and glitter under sea by rail ninety minutes from New York to Paris well by 76 we'll A okay. What a beautiful world this will be what a glorious time to be free What a beautiful world this will be what a glorious time to be free. Get your ticket to that wheel in space while there's time the fix is in you'll be a witness to that game of chance in the sky you know we've got to win here at home we'll play in the city powered by the sun perfect weather for a streamlined world there'll be spandex jackets one for everyone What a beautiful world this will be what a glorious time to be free what a beautiful world this will be what a glorious time to be free. on that train of graphite and glitter under sea by rail ninety minutes from New York to Paris we'll be A okay A okay adjust machines and make big decisions program our fellows with compassion and vision we'll be clean when the work gets done we'll be eternally free and eternally young. what a beautiful world his will be waht a glorious time to be free.... Donald Fagan....The Nightfly |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
thank you ALL for such kind and encouraging replies... far too many of us know this pain.. all of us do at one time or another... Im always grateful to have my poetry to help work thru it ... and to be able to read others words as well. thank you to my poet friend for sharing your self with me... and dear sweet Ethome..darlin ya make me glow!! thank you for the lovely song MC..TY |
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Balladeer
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
the beauty of these poems is outshone only by the beauty in your heart, JM. Later, beautygator |
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Butterflies_dont_cry Member Elite
since 2000-03-06
Posts 3733Michigan |
Oh sister of my soul.......these touch me so much tonight.....just one of those nights I guess......ya you KNOW, these are two of my very favorites....yes I have many but these are on the "touch my heart" list. For you to share these with a fellow poet to show them that you understand......that's poetry in motion~ |
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shadow of poetry Member
since 2000-07-22
Posts 76midwest usa |
i am ever amazed at how you just do this how do you just lay these emotions out there like this, i dont know how to feel them more or less write them out to where they make sense gosh these just break my heart sis yet you show no anger or bitterness, which i never learned either as you know lil sis my sister is the poet I am but a shadow by the light of poetry I read then dream |
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