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Corazon
Senior Member

since 2000-02-02

Posts 1209

0 posted 2000-02-25 12:50 PM

Today, this very moment
as the screams
in my head
from my mouth
echo and resound
in the frustration
of unreason
I look at you and I wish
I could kill you
not with a gun
or a knife
with my bare hands
I want to strangle the life
out of you
like you have done me...
but in your death
I would be kinder
and quicker
than you have been
dragging it out
out for years
and
years

just more stuff coming out...I am actually getting better, well better than this poem sounds...sighs and hugs

[This message has been edited by Corazon (edited 02-25-2000).]

suthern

Member Seraphic

since 1999-07-29

Posts 20723
Louisiana

1 posted 2000-02-25 02:14 PM

I'm glad you put that disclaimer... I was lacing up my steel-toed boots... I don't need to remind you why, do I? *G*

Gritty and full of grief... and oh yeah... good! *S*

Corazon
Senior Member

since 2000-02-02

Posts 1209

2 posted 2000-02-25 02:25 PM

yep, lol, you can unlace those boots, this was from the other day...just thought it should be documented...it is a turning point...and I want to remember it...not file it away with my other nonmemories...sighs...and thanks

Parker
Member Elite

since 2000-01-06

Posts 3129
ON

3 posted 2000-02-26 10:47 AM

Corazon, this was way too real for me. My only thought about this very powerful poem, is get rid of this problem.... Then smile and write something sweet.

Parker

bsquirrel

Member Rara Avis

since 2000-01-03

Posts 7855

4 posted 2000-02-27 03:47 AM

If only we could simply "get rid of the problem."

I enjoyed, Corazon. And was frightened.

Mike

hoot_owl_rn
Member Patricius

since 1999-07-05

Posts 10750
Glen Hope, PA USA

5 posted 2000-02-27 04:05 AM

Oh hon...this one brings tears to my eyes...I know how this feels oh too well. I remember in one moment of desperation oh so many years ago handing him a loaded handgun and telling him to shoot me and put me out of my misery rather than kill me slowly like he was doing. I'm glad that didn't happen, but there are times when the hurt is so strong, the need to get out overwhelming that we become desperate and can't think. Please know I am here for you whenever you need to talk. E-mail me or send a message and we can meet on Yahoo messanger. Until then, hold strong and here's a big hug.
((((((((((((HUG))))))))))))
Ruth

JTF
Member

since 1999-08-09

Posts 319
France

6 posted 2000-02-29 04:02 AM

Very powerful Corazon !! ... it's good to hear that you're getting better ... HUSG ..

Auntie, you switched from bat to steel-toed boots ?? ... whose head did you break your bat on ? ..

paulsm
Junior Member

since 2000-02-26

Posts 48

7 posted 2000-02-29 05:54 AM

Powerful but scary, Not sure about this one

Paul

Slow Down, stop to smell the roses and stroll through the garden of life, it will be a more pleasurable experience.

Balladeer

Administrator

Member Empyrean

since 1999-06-05

Posts 25505
Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA

8 posted 2000-02-29 08:38 AM

I can feel the strength that you draw from getting these feelings down on paper. The release of it can feel good and can be very good for you......a great way to rid the system of unwanted viruses. Keep it up, Corazon, and get through it. Better days are coming, I'm sure

Denise

Moderator

Member Seraphic

since 1999-08-22

Posts 22648

9 posted 2000-02-29 09:32 AM

I could have written these very words a few years back. They hit the nail right on the head. I am glad that you are getting this out of your system. Brighter days are definitely ahead! HUGS

Denise

Corazon
Senior Member

since 2000-02-02

Posts 1209

10 posted 2000-03-01 09:35 AM

thanks all, I sure hope so

mete out
Member

since 2000-02-16

Posts 270
england

11 posted 2000-03-02 11:06 AM

THis poem is incredible....so powerful and real.
I am so glad that you are finding your way out of your hurt.
Well Done....

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