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just_another_fe
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0 posted 2000-02-19 09:18 PM


This morning I layed in bed with my eyes closed
holding my pillow tight
and for a minute I thought it was you.
But when I opened my eyes
it was just a pillow
and then I cried.
I cried knowing that
I'll never be able to hold you like that.

When you call me "momma" or "baby"
and you say "i love you"
I get the biggest smile on my face
A feeling of happiness fills my body
and then I cry.
I cry knowing that
I will never hear you say them words to me
with all the meaning that I give them.

When I talk to you on the phone
I'm so happy.
I let your beautiful voice flow through my ears.
I study the way your words sound
and then I cry.
I cry knowing that
I'll never sit on the couch next to you to talk.
Because I'll never see the way your lips move
when you say the words I study through the
phone lines

I pretend I'm there
example *sits on your lap*
I imagine how it really feels to touch you
and then I cry.
I cry knowing that
I'll never be there!
I'll never sit on your lap!
You will never hold me!

When you talk about your family
I hope they are all doing well.
I smile at the accomplishments
your brothers have had.
I'm happy that your dad better now
and then I cry.
I cry knowing that
I will never meet them.
Because your family will never be mine.

When you talk about your boyz at school
or the guyz at Johns house
I laugh.
You guyz are so funny
and then I cry.
I cry knowing that
I'll never meet them.
I'll never hear them tell me stories about you.

When you get mad at me
and yell at me
I cry.
I'm not crying at the words your saying to me
even if they hurt.
I cry knowing that
I'll never be able to look you in the eyes
when you yell at me
and
I'll never be able to
give you a hug and a kiss when we make up.

When you tell me stories
I listen to them and I love them.
They make me so proud of you
and then I cry.
I cry knowing that
I'll never be that girl
in the stands waiting for the game to end.
I'll never be that girl
thats suppose to meet you by the gym doors.
I'll never be the girl
that you see in your smoke filled car.
I'll never be the girl
that lays next to you in your bed
and I'll never be able to hear you tell our kids
these same stories
that make you the man that you are.
The man that I am so proud of
and the man that I have grown to love
more then life.

THAT'S WHY I CRY!





[This message has been edited by just_another_fe (edited 02-20-2000).]

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tracie66
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since 2000-01-18
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1 posted 2000-02-19 10:50 PM


what a beautiful poem, so much coming straight from the heart....very touching   Tracie
just_another_fe
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2 posted 2000-02-20 01:42 AM


THANK YOU TRACIE   I WAS HOPIN SOMEONE WOULD READ IT I KNOW ITS LONG.
hoot_owl_rn
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3 posted 2000-02-20 08:56 AM


This is so very sad   the words are true and heartfelt  
just_another_fe
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4 posted 2000-02-20 12:13 PM


thanks hoot they come straight from the heart   but i dont think he cares
jascanvey
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since 1999-12-26
Posts 130
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5 posted 2000-02-20 01:44 PM


Angie, just when things started to look brighter, the sun goes in again. I'm devastated for you. You know where I am if you need to chat. ((HUGS))
Cerenity
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since 2000-02-16
Posts 2637
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6 posted 2000-02-20 01:54 PM


Hey there just-another-fe,

You have said many things in this wonderful poem that I"ve said to many times to myself and I hope that one day the tears stop because you appear to deserve more that he can ever handle.

Cerenity-1

CMGrimm
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since 2000-02-14
Posts 685
USA
7 posted 2000-02-20 10:57 PM


great piece here....wonderfully bittersweet.

Thanks for re-posting it here.

Chris

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16
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Kapolei, Hawaii, USA
8 posted 2000-03-01 07:52 AM


This was interesting to read.  I hope you are doing better now and find some happiness.  James
Lost Dreamer
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since 1999-06-20
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Somewhere near the Rainbow
9 posted 2000-03-01 08:03 AM


This is so sad, you expressed your feelings well in this, I could feel your pain as tears came to my eyes. Great writing and I hope things get better for you soon.
mete out
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since 2000-02-16
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england
10 posted 2000-03-02 05:48 AM


Hey.
I'm not sure of your exact circumstances that led to the writing of this poem, but it opened up alot of wounds for me.
An exellent, heart-wrencing poem.
Thankyou    


 I am not a preacher, I just speak the world as I see it.

just_another_fe
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11 posted 2000-03-02 10:51 PM


thanks julie *hug* hey some day everything will work out right?
THANX A LOT TO THE REST OF YOU. THINGS ARE SLOWLY GETTIN BETTER I THINK (VERY SLOWLY) THANX FOR READING  

just_another_fe
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12 posted 2000-03-25 04:27 PM


*reposting*
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