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Echo Rhayne Senior Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 1495Canyon Country, CA 
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Once upon a time, in a land so far away a little girl once lived, but her happiness did not stay. For only a month after her eigth birthday she was raped, oh the clouds turned grey. Not a word about this did this young girl speak she kept it all inside, but something started to leak. Like the twinkle in her eyes, that soon became weak. Some form of happiness, was what she tried to seek. She turned to the smoking, she turned to the beer she wanted to scream, but knew no one would hear. She wanted to cry, but nothing, not one tear... No one could help her, no one was near. A few years had past, she was nine months past ten she went out for a walk and it happened again. She thought she was over the last time and then it happene once more, so she vowed to hate men. She started to cut, she started to burn her self respect is all she wanted to earn. She tried to forget, her life she wanted to turn. Was this the life lesson she was supposed to learn? She blamed herself for thier actions, she blamed herself for her pain she blamed herself for the destruction, she says made her insane. And once again at age fourteen, she was waiting for a train someone grabbed, raped and stabbed her, no more could she sustain. She tried to run, she tried to hide, she tried to end her life. She tried to find and easy way to help her end the strife. Not caring who could love her, or even ask to be their wife. She took the cowards way out and hid behind the knife. Now it's been a year last weekend, nineteen-ninety-eight. Four times now to evaluate. She's still alive for that we can jubilate but now for the rest of her life she'll wait... 'Cause she will always live in fear it will happen once more and everything she's been through is locked behind her door. I've given you all a key and you're probably wondering what for it's to unlock all the secrets to see what she might pour! ~*~ Hell is not a place of fire and a devil with a tail and horns. But a place of torment because the light of God is gone. To escape this, accept the blood of Jesus Christ! ~*~ |
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far and away Junior Member
since 1999-12-17
Posts 20 |
Very sad poem. I hope that girl gets all the support and help she needs. |
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Poet deVine
Administrator
Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-26
Posts 22612Hurricane Alley |
The girl in your poem needs to get help. She is not to blame for any of this and counseling will help her understand. Sometimes the hardest thing in life is to stand up and shout "this is what happened to me"! In the poem, she seems to be of an age that can decide things for herself...she can decide to do nothing and live with the pain or to talk to someone...believe me that will be the best thing she could do. I wish her the best............. |
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Echo Rhayne Senior Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 1495Canyon Country, CA |
PdV...Well, she is me, and I can tell you now no therapy has helped. The only thing that has begun to help is my love and faith in Jesus, but sometimes like the past 2 weeks, I just lose the focus and slip away. The best therapy for me I have found is just writing! ~*~ Hell is not a place of fire and a devil with a tail and horns. But a place of torment because the light of God is gone. To escape this, accept the blood of Jesus Christ! ~*~ [This message has been edited by Echo Rhayne (edited 12-27-1999).] |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
Echo, Just write, write and rewrite, The answer is in your sight. Your poem is very good and You will be understood. Sy |
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Iloveit Senior Member
since 1999-09-02
Posts 1121NM |
echo, am glad you found here, am glad you found Jesus, and am glad you found writing...for me also, it has been my grip on sanity....big hugs |
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Betty Gravitt Member
since 1999-09-11
Posts 222Georgia United States |
Echo the poem is beautiful, but more important it is you that is beautiful. The inside you that you can write about. So write, and write, and keep writing. It helps. I know. I am here if you want a friend. Email me. B Gravitt |
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Echo Rhayne Senior Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 1495Canyon Country, CA |
Thanks to you all! It's been a HARD LONG road my 18 years of life, but slowly I am getting a bit back to reality and sanity. And many thanks go to all the wonderful poets/friends I have met and made here in Passions. From poems that have spoken to me that will always be remembered, to friends I talk to all the time. Iloveit...Thank you for the hugs, they are always needed =o) and Betty, friends are always a blessing, thank you! ~*~ Hell is not a place of fire and a devil with a tail and horns. But a place of torment because the light of God is gone. To escape this, accept the blood of Jesus Christ! ~*~ |
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Nan
Administrator
Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-20
Posts 21191Cape Cod Massachusetts USA |
Echo - It wasn't a short trip to arrive where you are today, and it's not a short trip back to personal health; but you can do it. You're healing a little bit every day. Sometimes bad things happen to good people - Only God knows why... If writing helps - then write, and write some more.... whatever it takes... They can take your pride - but they can't take your thoughts. Your mind is your own. Concentrate a bit each day on making it well again.... God Bless... |
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Pepper Member Elite
since 1999-08-19
Posts 3079Southern Florida |
You've expressed yourself beautifully here Echo.....it breaks my heart to see the road on which you've had to travel......The relationship that you have formed with God should be of great comfort to you now.....and your writing is a blessing to you and to us....I'm sending you big hugs and admiration for how far you've come..... A soul that writes from the heart and shares it, truly gives a gift extraordinaire! Shannon |
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JOY 14 Senior Member
since 1999-09-22
Posts 1419Wisconsin USA |
God bless you. It's truly horrible what happened to you. Keep living, keep writing, keep up that strife! JOY |
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Elizabeth Santos Member Rara Avis
since 1999-11-08
Posts 9269Pennsylvania |
Echo, A great big warm hug and kisses from me Love ya, Liz |
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Local Rebel Member Ascendant
since 1999-12-21
Posts 5767Southern Abstentia |
Conventional therapy is innefective most of the time with post traumatic stress disorder -- which is what one suffers after a violent crime. A practitioner of EMDR -- Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing could do quite a bit of healing. A wonderfully crafted verse from a worthy heart! How much more grievous are the consequences of anger than the causes of it. -Marcus Aurelius |
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Beri Member
since 1999-11-25
Posts 149 |
Echo, within my 19 years I have heard and seen and experienced so much that nooone should ever have to, I can see that you have also. I know it has been a long road so far for you and I would never tell you that your hard journey is over because those would be false hopes that people have given to me in the past. But you seem to be a strong person. And a beautiful one in that. I know the feeling of slipping away at times...keep on writing, maybe for you that will help, I sure hope it does. You deserve to always be able to understand yourself. Bravo on your courage no matter how long it has taken you to build! If you ever need a friend, you know Passions is here...and so am I. Good luck. If you love something, set it free, if it comes back to you, its meant to be... |
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RainbowGirl Member Elite
since 1999-07-31
Posts 3023United Kingdom |
Echo: I knew as I was reading this that you were she, as probably did many others but sweetheart, love comes from within and yes, I do know a little of what you talk about but somehow against all the odds you're a nice person and a loving one, ok, so you may hate men and I can understand that but not all men are alike, some are kind and good just like the rest of the human race. Bless you sweetheart, the cost must have been great to you to write this but I'm glad you did because talking, is the key that opens doors to ourselves.. Big HUGS Don't ask me where I'm going, just listen when I'm gone and far away you'll hear me singing softly to the dawn. |
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Echo Rhayne Senior Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 1495Canyon Country, CA |
Thank you all for your touching replies. I do not have the time to give a proper response to them at the moment but will do so later. I just wanted to say this...R.G, I know not all men are like that, cause I have the most wonderful boyfriend right now, but it takes a lot for me to trust anyone, especially men! (more to come later) ~*~ Hell is not a place of fire and a devil with a tail and horns. But a place of torment because the light of God is gone. To escape this, accept the blood of Jesus Christ! ~*~ |
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Martie
Moderator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
I understand how you feel Echo. Keep writing. To be able to say is a beginning. In the dew of little things, the heart finds its morning and is refreshed. (ee cummings) |
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Nate Dogg Senior Member
since 1999-11-15
Posts 1658Georgia, Fulton |
Very sad poem Echo, it's sad that some people carry this much pain with them. And you're right, writing poetry is very therapeutic. I know that it has helped me release my anger and emotions. Nathan |
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Nate Dogg Senior Member
since 1999-11-15
Posts 1658Georgia, Fulton |
Very sad poem Echo, it's sad that some people carry this much pain with them. And you're right, writing poetry is very therapeutic. I know that it has helped me release my anger and emotions. And it's obviously helped you too. Nathan |
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Marge Tindal 
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
Echo - Wonderful venting of feelings. Lots said ... lots to be said. E-mail me if you need or want to talk further. I care. Love ~*Marge*~ noles1@totcon.com ~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~ noles1@totcon.com |
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WhtDove Member Rara Avis
since 1999-07-22
Posts 9245Illinois |
Hey ya Sweetie~ I'm really glad you vented this. You have come a very long way, even in the past months I've seen it! You're worth more than you could ever comprehend! I can only imagine how hard it has been. Dealing with one is tough enough let alone what you've gone through. I know you've had a rough couple of weeks here and I've been praying for you and you know that. You know I'm always here when you need me Hon! We all slip backwards in our faith, you know I'm here for that too...keep writing...keep fightin... Love ya.... ~hugs~ <*\\\>< Where there is faith, there is love. Where there is love, there is peace. Where there is peace, there is GOD. Where there is GOD, there is no need. Hallmark |
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Denise
Moderator
Member Seraphic
since 1999-08-22
Posts 22648 |
I'm sorry that you have had to endure this, Echo. Very sorry. Once would have been too much. Keep writing, keep venting, keep seeking a closer walk with God. No matter the problem, the pain, the cross that we have to carry, He is the ultimate help. I will keep you in my prayers and you can certainly feel free to email me too if you just need to talk! Love ya! Denise |
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Echo Rhayne Senior Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 1495Canyon Country, CA |
Thank you Nan, and yes writing helps, as does drawing and singing. But sadly (to me) the thing that helps the most I can't do. Pepper...yes the relationship that I have formed with God has been a great comfort...but a lot of the times it just doesnt seem to be enough! Thank you for your hugs! Thanks Joy Thanks Liz, I appreciate it greatly! L.R....Worthy heart? Mine?? I don't know! Beri...I have experience many of those false hopes as well. Doesn't make things any better, just worse. As for being strong?? Physically maybe, emotionally hardly. Thank you for your kind words though! R.G...I pretty much stated the gyst of what I would say earlier! Martie...yeah a beginning, but a beginning to what?? More hurt, more memories, more pain etc.?? N.D...Yes, a litte, I wish it helped more though Thanks Marge, that means a lot! Rebecca...Yes, I know you have been praying, and I really do appreciate it! I appreciate all that you have done for me. I couldn't haev asked for a greater friend then you have been! Thank you!!!! Denise...Thank you denise, I appreciate the prayers and the invite to send emails! Thank you all! ~*~ Hell is not a place of fire and a devil with a tail and horns. But a place of torment because the light of God is gone. To escape this, accept the blood of Jesus Christ! ~*~ |
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First__Knight Senior Member
since 1999-11-08
Posts 678 |
Hard to believe that this has been here this long as I have missed it until now  My heart truly weeps at this poem...I feel so sad and feel so angry for not being able to do anything and knowing that it all happend. I know it happened to you some of it long ago...and for me it just happened as I read it. May you life find greener pastures and a calm streams in the Lord. The Father does not promise to remove all our troubles in this life but he does say that he will be there for you during and after...and I know he walks with you...GOD BLESS you Echo. You have great courage in writing this I have learned that the pain of a lost love will fade, But the memory of having loved will last forever. |
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Sven
since 1999-11-23
Posts 14937East Lansing, MI USA |
Echo, your poem has touched my heart. . . you have indeed suffered much, my friend. . . but know now that you have found a home here with us and shelter in the arms of God. . . Let it all out Echo, write. . . let your voice pour out for in this way, your heart will find peace. . .and our angels. . .and His angels. . . will guide your steps and heal your soul. . . Peace, my friend. . . That which gives light must endure burning --Victor Frankl |
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whiskey
since 1999-12-28
Posts 1278Australia |
Life is so unfair sometimes, I feel so sad for you and what you have been through is so terrible , your poem made me cry as I read it. I too know how you feel. Carry on the road that takes you to where you have to be. Julie |
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Lost Dreamer Member Elite
since 1999-06-20
Posts 2464Somewhere near the Rainbow |
Echo, Let the strength of the Lord carry you, let him shelter you from pain, give to him your heart and soul and with him walk in the shadows of his love. Give unto him your past pain and arise each day knowing you are a gift of beauty with a purpose on this earth, then give to God your hand for him to guide you safely through each day. |
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hoot_owl_rn Member Patricius
since 1999-07-05
Posts 10750Glen Hope, PA USA |
Echo...one great big hug for you, I know how hard life can be sometimes...I applaud you for your courage and determination. It's hard enough to deal with these things, but to write about them and share them with others takes true courage...God bless you. Hugs  Ruth |
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Echo Rhayne Senior Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 1495Canyon Country, CA |
First__Knight...Thank you for your kind words, and I know that God is with me and walks with me through all of this, and that is another reason I am still alive today! Sven...Yes, I know that I have found a home here with Passions and shelter in the arms of God. Thank you for your kind and caring words! whiskey...Yes, I know that life is unfair (most the time it is then it isnt though...for me at least). But I will continue to try to carry on this road (but no promises)! Thank you! Lost Dreamer...Thank you, and I have tried to do this, but it is easier said then done! Thank you for the words of wisdom! Ruth...Thank you for the hugs! Yes, writing and sharing stuff like this has been VERY hard for me, because as I said, I hide everything inside of me, and that is where I have made many of the mistakes! Thank you all! You words and hugs and care means so very much! ~*~ Hell is not a place of fire and a devil with a tail and horns. But a place of torment because the light of God is gone. To escape this, accept the blood of Jesus Christ! ~*~ |
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caroline Senior Member
since 1999-08-16
Posts 1218http://members.xoom.com/belladona123/index.htm |
Simply surviving all you have been through is evidence of your great strength and courage, my friend. Never doubt that you have either, for you've shown it, and there is no doubt in my mind that there is a reason you possess these attributes. Your words can help others to come through their hard times...so I thank you for sharing your soul and for being so generous with something so difficult. A magnificent job on the poem, Echo. It is brilliant. (((Hugs)))It's not the love you fear, but the fall from the height~Edwin McCain |
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Echo Rhayne Senior Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 1495Canyon Country, CA |
Thank you Caroline, that means a lot, and I kno wyou are right, but its just so hard sometimes! Thank you for the hugs too! ~*~ Hell is not a place of fire and a devil with a tail and horns. But a place of torment because the light of God is gone. To escape this, accept the blood of Jesus Christ! ~*~ |
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Tamera Member
since 1999-12-28
Posts 121 |
Echo, I wish you the best of luck in your journey. You have faced so much torment in the short 18 years of your life....if you ever need a friend, please email..keep writing, you are wonderful! firefly34@hotmail.com |
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Echo Rhayne Senior Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 1495Canyon Country, CA |
Thanks Tamera, and welcome to Passions ~*~ Hell is not a place of fire and a devil with a tail and horns. But a place of torment because the light of God is gone. To escape this, accept the blood of Jesus Christ! ~*~ |
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Julie Senior Member
since 1999-08-20
Posts 739Houston, TX |
Echo, What happened to you is truly a tragedy and since you know Christ you know He was with you through each tragedy. God's angels protected you those times for none of those men ended your life. And with that thought you can trust He will continue to look after you. Sometimes we have to look at what didn't happen to see God. Know that it is in his will to have you safe and happy for you are His child. Beautifully written and I admire your courage. |
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Georgia Junior Member
since 1999-12-22
Posts 32 |
echo...one peice of advice...never stop writing and above all never stop believing! |
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Echo Rhayne Senior Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 1495Canyon Country, CA |
Julie...I know Christ was with me through each and every thing I have been through. I know He protected me, but what I don't get is why it was allowed to happen (to me and everyone else too). Georgia...Thanks, and I wont don't worry! ~*~ Hell is not a place of fire and a devil with a tail and horns. But a place of torment because the light of God is gone. To escape this, accept the blood of Jesus Christ! ~*~ |
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PhaerieChild Senior Member
since 1999-08-30
Posts 1787Aloha, Oregon |
Echo...this was so hard to read because I knew that I was seeing a glimpse of hell that you managed to live thru and you have a found a way to vent all the hatred and pain thru your writing. Keep writing and writing and writing some more. You are a beautiful person and anytime you need to talk just email me. You are strong and courageous... lots of hugs ((((((((((hugs))))))))) Poetry~ Words falling on paper, painting a dream. Shawna R. Holder Boise, Idaho |
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Echo Rhayne Senior Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 1495Canyon Country, CA |
W.C.....Thank you, and you are right, it has been a hell... As much as I wish none of this had happened (plus many other things in my life) I think, actually I know, that it has helped make me who I am today. Whether I like that person or not, it is not for me to decide, God loves me and that is all that matters. I just wish that I could be happy, get over what has happened is too hard, and I probably never will, but I have forgiven each person, and although I will never forget what has happened because of the mental scars as well as the physical, I know that I can probably help someone else who has gone through similar situations. Maybe not jsut with rape, but with other things because God knows, I have been through far many other things. But first I know I am going to haev to find a way to live with it and get on with my life (that I have tried to end way too many times). I guess I should have learned by now that if I was meant to die I would have been already dead. I just wanted to thank everyone here in Passions for the love, strength, support, care, and everything else as well...because you all have helped me continue on, and I can never thank you all enough for that! ~*~ Hell is not a place of fire and a devil with a tail and horns. But a place of torment because the light of God is gone. To escape this, accept the blood of Jesus Christ! ~*~ |
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Michael
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-08-13
Posts 7666California |
well, I'm certainly glad your giving out the key - I would rather you pour it all out than keep it inside. I cannot take away any of the pain, this I know. But I can offer you a shoulder and an ear anytime you need one my friend. Please feel free to call on me any time. Michael |
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Echo Rhayne Senior Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 1495Canyon Country, CA |
Thank you Michael...and although I have given out the key, beware, sometimes I may lock the chain...but even with the chain on, the door is not refrained from opening a little =o) You've been a great friend, thank you!! ~*~ Hell is not a place of fire and a devil with a tail and horns. But a place of torment because the light of God is gone. To escape this, accept the blood of Jesus Christ! ~*~ |
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HM3 Member
since 1999-07-15
Posts 169TX |
I can tell you from personal experience that you can only go so far on your own. If you do not get counseling, some event, later in life could have you on your knees. Do keep writing, it is very therapeutic and can help to heal the child within. That is where you should begin the journey because I'd guess that's where it hurts the most. I would ask if you have a source of "support", a family member or close friend with which to share the whispers and screams but, I can see that you have many. Remember to look up as you walk lifes path or you will miss the beauty that lies before you. God bless you. Work like money doesn't matter, love like you've never been hurt, dance like nobody's watching... |
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mirjam Member
since 1999-11-24
Posts 246Auckland, New Zealand |
oh sweetie...i don't know whether any words are adequate to describe the sorrow i felt reading this poem - you have been through so much and my heart goes out to you. You are truly a beautiful person and i know God has got plans for you, lean on him for the strength you need to go through each day, he will never let you down. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers...God bless you and definately keep writing!!! |
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Dark Angel Member Patricius
since 1999-08-04
Posts 10095 |
Echo, I am sorry you had to endure this, you have expressed yourself beautifully. Your poem is brilliant!! *hugs* to you my friend. What comes from the heart goes to the heart. Samuel Coleridge |
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Echo Rhayne Senior Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 1495Canyon Country, CA |
HM3...Well I have had the counseling but it has only made things worse I will however keep writing. Yes, I do have MANY'family' members and close friends (here at Passions) and I thank God for that! mirjam...Thank you, your words have meant so much!! Dark Angel...Brilliant?? I don't know about that, but an emotional release, yes =o) Thank you, like I have said before, hugs are always nice!! ~*~ Hell is not a place of fire and a devil with a tail and horns. But a place of torment because the light of God is gone. To escape this, accept the blood of Jesus Christ! ~*~ |
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Moonshine Member
since 1999-10-01
Posts 265Australia |
What did I do? What did I say? To make you hurt me in this way, You used the trust I had in you, To do the things you wanted to do, The confusion you caused is tearing me apart, The hurt you caused is breaking my heart, Why did you do what you did? YOU were authority, I was a kid, You pushed your desires inside of me, This was a time I wished to be free, Free of you and the things you did, Free to live and be a kid, Free to scream and free to cry, Free to look you in the eye, And make you see what you have done, See the pain in my heart, See my blood run. Echo, this poem is excellent but so very sad (((((((Hugg))))))) I can relate to a lot of what you have written and I am so, so sorry that you have had to endure such awful things. The path is not easy and I think that it is a very long one, I keep searching for the light at the end of the tunnel but it never seems to shine.......I know in time it will though I have no idea when. Sometimes it doesn't seem that way though - it often feels like everything is wrong. Sometimes it is good to talk to people who can understand where you're coming from, do you have someone that you can talk to? If you don't have someone like that please feel free to email me anytime OK. I have ICQ also, so feel free to ICQ me if you like. A word of advice.......be kind to yourself, do things that you like to do, don't set time limits and try to let your feelings out, by talking or writing or drawing or exercising ( whatever makes you feel good) when you can feel the pressure inside building up to exploding point DON'T bottle things up. Sorry this reply is so lengthy. Be kind to yourself. |
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Echo Rhayne Senior Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 1495Canyon Country, CA |
Thanks Moonshine, and I will reply in more detail to your reply in an email. ~*~ ^i^ ~*~ Love is such a lonely art, and death is but a taste. Minds are merely instruments that often go to waste! ~*~ ^i^ ~*~ |
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Moonshine Member
since 1999-10-01
Posts 265Australia |
OK Echo, I will wait for your email. Do you have my email address? I also have ICQ - if you have it and want my number just let me know OK. Be kind to yourself. |
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neitham Junior Member
since 1999-12-29
Posts 42India |
Time heals but the scar remains, oh it does! Echo, I am with you all the way, and I do believe that Jesus is the source for everything, for He is the shepherd, and He heals! Keep your faith steadfast, hang on and continue to pray, as we do for you. from India with love neitham |
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