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Astraea Member
since 1999-11-09
Posts 378California! Yeah! Okay, I'm done now |
"I hate you, I hate you, I hate you! How could you have ever dared To even begin to think I lied About the things I meant? All you are now is a block of ice, Lacking everything but a warm heart, And I wonder what was it That you could have given me To make me love you then and now." The tirade stopped; my heart was beating fast So little time had passed and in them everything had exploded My insides were tight, cold and I felt empty How could you say such a thing, my spirit demanded I turned away, fearing to see the answer in his eyes Choking on the emotions clogging my breathing and senses My feet hadn't missed a built-in warning Telling me that if I didn't leave now I would surely break into shatters How could have I dared? To do what, I wonder, to dare what danger in our love? Blood boiling, I hadn't made it several steps Before collapsing to the ground in shuddering tears How could you have dared? To come back after so long and making remember all the pain When I had woke up alone, inside and out How could you have dared? Making me feel this way about you Until all I want to do is do anything to ensure your happiness, your joy How could you have dared? To doubt my love for you? I remember when we were younger When all I had in the world was you Finding no warmth in a home so cold I had begun to think I was the same mold of ice and snow Until you came and made me doubt that facet Of myself I felt was the truth I remember when we played And you offered to talk Should I ever need to hear a story of a princess He had found hidden in a castle she had built around herself That always made me feel lighter, listening to the echo of your voice Drifting through my dreams at night I remember when we grew older Your share of problems came into sight And you said I was your only true friend Who knew that despite all the darkness, there were stars to be found Then relaxed when I smiled and rushed to embrace you close Making sure you would always remember I'd be here "I'll never forget your love, It's a part of me so deep That to remove it would be destroying myself. If it hadn't been for you For the things you gave to me I wouldn't love you now." Dipping into despair like an abyss of burning ice It's amazing how quickly the pain is numbed from experience Of remembering this situation before I wasn't a little girl crying in a lonely park anymore Nor were you simply my friend in my heart I stayed there, crying without a sound Knowing that if I looked up You wouldn't be there Like before And my world would spin again Gentle fingers threaded through my hair Coaxing me slowly back to calm, cruel reality When I was forced to look up, straight into his eyes I could see that he was remembering too And saw some of the emptiness inside Before I froze over numbly Shutting out the world "I never would have made it this far," my heart wanted to say "Without your guidance by my side And I'll always remember the things you've given me Through all the years No matter the tears, pains or loneliness, Forgetting your place isn't a right I'll ever give up." But I couldn't tell him the things I wanted to say I would cry again Our memories were bittersweet, harsh, painful And always loving The light that shimmered inside my eyes must have been like stars For suddenly I was momentarily in his arms Drinking in the warmth clouding my soul The touch was brief, broken When I pulled away, stood, I ignored the empty throb inside And began walking away Faintly, behind, I heard a soft echo of the past: "I'll remember." And I knew that maybe we would never be the same again Not friends, not loves, but never again strangers Until then I'll just continue counting 'til the stars dim All the things I have now Because of you "Sometimes stars can only be seen in darkness." "Sorrow's crown of sorrow is remembering happier things." |
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SEA 
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
Astraea, You tugged at my heart, pulled the tears up, then let them spill over. This is amazing.-SEA |
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Denise
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-08-22
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Very strong emotional piece, Astraea. Well done. Captivating. Denise |
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bsquirrel
since 2000-01-03
Posts 7855 |
Truly, sadly, inspired. It's a small comfort to write -- and sometimes a great one. Thanks for sharing. Mike |
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