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zorkon65 Junior Member
since 2000-04-22
Posts 27 |
What do you want of me? By charlie herring Deaths sweet song Calls to me again This world of hate would soon be gone Gone the pain Gone the fighting of friends and family Gone the injustice Gone the life from me It would be better never to have lived If I had died as just a little kid I would never have led this life Never have felt this pain Never have felt this love If I had died as a child What courses would there lives take Would they have gone on? Where they meant to be great Am I holding them back? I know I am a nusesnse An annoyance at best How I wish this life would end How I wish I could be with him With my father and my friend My god and my savior They would keep me from this pain They would not let my blood be spilt Love everlasting How I wish I had that Death tastes bitter But the fruit is sweet Would they forgive me? If I left Would they care? Should I fell regret? I know I bother them I know I am a burden This life I am not long for I want to go home To a loving family And the love of friends But I am not meant to die But am I meant to go on? Should I watch as a spectator? Or be a peacemaker Among my friends This hurts me inside the discion is not clear My God give me guidance send down your spirit Fill me with fire For life For love For you I need this life no more I give it up I turn it over Not my will But your will be done work like you don't need the money, dance like no one's watching, and love like you've never been hurt |
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Songbird Member Elite
since 1999-12-15
Posts 2184Missouri |
I hope you are feeling better after writing this, I have been at this low point also in my life, but good times always come around eventually. Like it says it the Bible, "and it came to pass..." |
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Alle'cram Senior Member
since 2000-02-28
Posts 1816Texas |
zorkon, Oh, your poem is strong, conveying emotions. Let me add, you did a superb job writting your feeling in poem. I wish I knew your age, for you reach out to God in such a way your seeking peace, within and around. God placed your spirit within your Mothers womb and you were given life. A precious life. When I have felt discouraged and alone, I have found being alone with Him, with no distractions and I find Him sometimes in songs of praise. Just me and my squeeky voice, singing songs of love to Jesus, pretty soon I am praying out loud and before I know it, He has enveloped me with His love, refreshing my heart- giving me a new heart. Not knowing your circumstances, may I suggest going humbly before Jesus in prayer, asking Him for a new heart. He gave me one this year. I was filled with bitterness and anger for a loved one who disappointed me so, I had to seek Him for help and zorkon, He supplied. Took the bitter our and filled my heart with love. It may not seem as though this is earth shaking to others, to my son and I, it was a miracle. God bless you and if you would like to email me, feel free. I am no counseler, but I do believe in prayer and I do love the Lord and I know where there are two gathered in prayer, He will be there too. Bless you my friend. marcy |
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ellie LeJeune Member Elite
since 2000-01-10
Posts 4156King of Prussia, PA USA |
Dear Zorkon; I too have been exactly where you are and felt that I was only a burden, not a blessing. It was all lies! Lies from you know who. I surrendered my life and will, just as you have and My whole life changed from within and from without. Trust in His Love for you and watch what happens. Ditto what Marcy said. E-mail me too if you want. Love, Ellie 02 |
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WhtDove Member Rara Avis
since 1999-07-22
Posts 9245Illinois |
I tell ya, I know this life can sure be very difficult to say the least at times. You know one day we had people from a church, (they were knocking on doors) and though I knew about Jesus and what He did for all, I never accepted that He did it for me, I knew He did it for others. I wasn't even aware of that until she asked me. So you know He did it, but do you know He did it for YOU? When I thought about that, I couldn't answer yes. A while after that the reality of that really hit me. When I realized how much Jesus loves us, it filled me, and that was it. People on earth, in the flesh, cannot love us in the true love we seek for, or be what we need or expect. They will constantly dissapoint us when we look to them to make us happy. When we give it all up to God, and that's not easy to do, then our site becomes spiritual and not so earthy. A saying so easy, but so difficult is..."Let go and let God!" It seems simple, but it isn't. Because we always tend to want to hang onto the problem. He don't work fast enough for us, so we take it back. In order for Him to fix it, we need to totally surrender to Him, knowing He can do better, and His PERFECT timing. May God bring you the peace you seek, for there's no other peace like His. May He direct your paths, for He loves you like no other! His love is totally unconditional! [This message has been edited by WhtDove (edited 06-07-2000).] |
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