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Astraea
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0 posted 2000-02-27 04:19 AM


Bittersweet longing spreading through
My veins, seeping into my heart, and holding me still
I would forever watch him, I knew this in a dream
But it hurt still to See
In my mind
   tugging me closer to his mind
       pulling me further from myself
            destroying
            the Me
       along the way until bits are left
       Nothing
   Nothing until I pull myself back
And cry alone at night in the arms of Despair
Cradeling my soul with pin-prick cushions
Whispering, my only company, breathing ice into my mind,
"There's no one else to hold you near.
Nothing but I, Despair, and the family you know yourself as
   Sorrow
   Loneliness
   Emptiness
No one else to know you so well as we."

In still arms I shook
   comforted
   horrified
   accepting all at once
Dawn ceasing inside beneath the battle of Night
Sinking deeper still into Despair's arm
A kitten seeking warmth from a warmth it knew was there
Unwilling to grow up
And open its eyes to see the world as it is
But I know not that comfort of your rocking
   cradle, embrace, warmth
And so my shudders are my own
My own, revolving, drawing Despair ever closer in my attempt
To draw it, anything, nearer
Knowing only that I couldn't find any of the flames
I had found back when I had lain
   Content
   Peaceful
   Warm
In the arms of Anteros

Where the birds seemed to sing louder
The wind, breathing smoother
And all the greyness gone from sight of vibrant colors
For those moments
Trouble was barred from my mind
Fear, frightened of Anteros' might
Sadness' power gone
And in their places: Love

In his arms everything was safe
Punishing those who dare hurt this heart he sought
To woo, win and love
Until I fell headlong into the only place left to run
Your arms
Which held me tenderly until I cried
And yet you soothed me still
So when your wings took you to another more worthy
All the warmth left
Leaving me nothing to keep me company, to hold me
But Despair

The Despair which you left when I was alone
A bundle of memories accumulated into an abyss
Enveloping me like walls of mirrors
Reminding me forever of the love I had before
In the arms of Anteros

~*~*~*~

Anteros: god of returned love, he punished those who scorned love, some say he is the brother of Eros/Cupid


"Sometimes stars can only be seen in darkness."

"Sorrow's crown of sorrow is remembering happier things."



[This message has been edited by Astraea (edited 02-27-2000).]

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peanogrl83
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since 1999-12-04
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1 posted 2000-02-27 09:12 AM


Wow! <jaw dropped in awe>  Stunning!  You seem to have mastered the English language far better than most in this forum! (you possess an unparalleled way with words  :.) )  I LOVE the allusion to Anteros! :.) Awesome work and I can't wait to see more!
                                         Vreni

Alwye
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In the space between moments
2 posted 2000-02-27 10:22 PM


Absolutly stunning, Astraea!  I absolutely loved the lines: "Dawn ceasing inside beneath the battle of Night"  and  "Whispering, my only company, breathing ice into my mind"

Phenomenal work, you continue to be one of my favorite poets here.  


 *Krista Knutson*

"Every moment marked with apparitions of your soul...." ~*Sarah McLachlan- Do What You Have To Do*~


poetry_kills
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since 1999-12-04
Posts 549
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3 posted 2000-02-29 12:29 PM


astraea: very good poem... i love the imagery and it flows well... i had a bit of trouble staying with you towards the end, due mainly to length, but that might have something to do with how tired i am *yawn* more than it does with your poem...

sincerely,
jerome the mysterious priest

 Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one who's left alone
--[billy corgan]--

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