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Iloveit
Senior Member

since 1999-09-02

Posts 1121
NM

0 posted 1999-10-19 11:10 AM

I couldn't say for certain when
but I would guess it at least four years
since my heart and soul
left you.

the part of me
that needs to be loved
and needs friends that care
and a normal life,
she goes to work
everyday and lives her real life.
and so it is no wonder to me
when you come into my room
in the dark
and my ears hear
that you miss me.

This body that you call your possession,
that you kept from leaving you.
she now comes dutifully home
come five o clock,
and at your house each weekend,
she waits for monday.

how long has it been
you ask,
that I found this bit of insanity?
I call it a victory in the war of survival
and wearing a tarnished medal band,
I can wake each day and find a smile.

just what time was it when I,
tired fighting your strangling control
your ever alive suspicions,
and your anger,
just stopped?

I couldn't say for certain when
but it seems an eternity,

and I miss me too.

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©1999 Iloveit

RainbowGirl
Member Elite

since 1999-07-31

Posts 3023
United Kingdom

1 posted 1999-10-19 11:28 AM

ILoveit: That's why I kept wanting my freedom, couldn't settle for less and when I do sometimes think that less is better this little voice reminds me of the difference between 'love' and 'making do'

But then I am what you call a persistent little wench..*g* (no need to agree...ooops)

HUSG

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You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give.

Iloveit
Senior Member

since 1999-09-02

Posts 1121
NM

2 posted 1999-10-19 11:36 AM

well, thanks for the smile, and yes you are persistant lolol, now can you just persistantly teach me not to settle for less too? *g*

Martie

Moderator

Member Empyrean

since 1999-09-21

Posts 28049
California

3 posted 1999-10-19 11:41 AM

Iloveit, this was so good. You expressed the feeling so well and I could feel the emptiness of your loss.

suthern

Member Seraphic

since 1999-07-29

Posts 20723
Louisiana

4 posted 1999-10-19 11:50 AM

Lovey: Keep finding those smiles...

And yup... RG's a little wench! *G*

Iloveit
Senior Member

since 1999-09-02

Posts 1121
NM

5 posted 1999-10-19 11:55 AM

see how nice I was to concentrate on the persisitant part and NOT mention wench? and here comes suthern and brings it up for everyone lolol
thanks guys with friends like you how could I NOT smile?

martie, thanks, yes I have lost, and am working on getting it back, got some great friends that help a lot, but its gotta be *me* that makes the final move

RainbowGirl
Member Elite

since 1999-07-31

Posts 3023
United Kingdom

6 posted 1999-10-19 12:10 PM

ILoveit: Sure thing, when do you want to start the "learning to be a wench" lesson and pretty soon after you'll be wanting the "learning how NOT to be a wench" lesson?..ROFL....persistent, aren't I?..*g*

HUSG

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You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give.

Iloveit
Senior Member

since 1999-09-02

Posts 1121
NM

7 posted 1999-10-19 12:16 PM

well if the end result means I get to have giggles and smiles like you are having today, I will learn to be a wench starting imediately.....*sheesh....did I really just say that?* ROFGMAO

passing shadows
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since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

8 posted 2004-05-04 04:28 AM

you are missed here...come back

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