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Dear Father
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Dear Father |
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Blue Eyed Wanderer Member
since 1999-09-26
Posts 84Rhode Island, US |
Where have you been Throughout the years? You've never once seen me Shed a few tears. But little would you know, Every night I'd cry. Wishing you were there And wanting to die. How often do you think of me? Do you think of me at all? How much do I mean to you? Probably nothing; you never call. Where did you go? And why did you leave? I create my own answers And try to believe That you once did care About your little girl With her beautiful face And pretty curls. Night after night, I'd look up at the stars; Wishing that someday I'd be freed of my scars. My scars were not normal; They weren't on the skin. They are inside my heart Where they shouldn't have been. "I'll call you this week" That's what you'd always say. Then I'd wait by the phone Day after day. Sometimes I wonder How it would be If you ever came back Just to see me. Do I want you back? I'm not quite sure, Because I know in a second You'd be back out that door. Well, now I've accepted That you'll never be there That you'll never be back And that you never will care. So just answer me now, And answer me true; What on earth did I do To deserve this from you? ------------------ Anytime you try to win everything, you must be willing to lose everything. -Larry Csonka *~Jessica~* |
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Denise
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-08-22
Posts 22648 |
Very sad and beautifully written. ------------------ Denise |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
So sad, but beautifully done. We never expect our parents to let us down, and if they do, it's all the more unbelievable.. ------------------ What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny, compared to what lies within us. ~Isis~ (Daughter of Mystery) |
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Blue Eyed Wanderer Member
since 1999-09-26
Posts 84Rhode Island, US |
Writing this one helped me get out a lot of stuff about my father. Thanks you guys! |
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redwriter1 Member
since 1999-07-22
Posts 480Franklin, TN |
very nicely done. I'm right there with you.. someday soon I will post again my song.. "do you remember me".. we are so close in our thoughts... thank you for sharing.. |
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Marilyn Member Elite
since 1999-09-26
Posts 2621Ontario, Canada |
Always, always remember that is was nothing you did! It is hard for a child to believe but you are not to blame for his leaving. He was the one that could not handle what ever it was. The responiblity, the intimacy...what ever it was. A child is innocent and the adult is the one to blame. My children are in a similar situation and I try hard everyday to let them know that I love them and they did nothing to run their father away. You are beautiful and special. Always remember that! |
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Julie Senior Member
since 1999-08-20
Posts 739Houston, TX |
You did a great job on this. I too, have children and had to watch them suffer as they watched out the window waiting for their father that never showed. It use to break my heart. ------------------ Julie ------------------------- Thou who has given so much to me, give one thing more: a grateful heart. >George Herbert |
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Sally S. Senior Member
since 1999-06-07
Posts 847Ohio |
Such sadness in this yet, I'm glad to know that it was a healing process. I echo Marilyn in saying that you must always remember it was NOT your fault. |
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Pufalove Member
since 1999-08-18
Posts 119Houston, Tx. USA |
This is so well written. It has a such a nice flow and is filled with depth. Thank goodness we have 2 fathers. Even though we missed the one that should have been there, the main one has always been there. Take comfort in that! ------------------ O all ye powers that he implanted, Arise, keep silence no more; put forth the strength that he hath granted, your noblest work is to adore. |
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Blue Eyed Wanderer Member
since 1999-09-26
Posts 84Rhode Island, US |
Thanks everyone! Marilyn--it took me a while to realize that, but now I truly believe that he is to blame instead of me. I've been able to forgive him, but still it'll always leave it's mark in my heart. Thanks again everyone! |
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Justbleu Member Elite
since 1999-08-31
Posts 3329Oregon, Originally From Alaska :) |
This is deeply sad but, written ever sooo beautifully. Bridgette  |
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