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0 posted 1999-08-04 05:20 PM


you ask me what im affriad of,
when it comes to you,
so much pain youve brought me,
im scared, i thought you knew,

im scared that you dont need me,
the way that i need you,
that my love will never be enough,
to make your dreams come true.

im scared to trust a shadow,
that fades in and out,
that i will make you everything,
and still ill do without.

im scared to ask you questions,
becuase your answers always hurt me,
that there is so much about you,
that you wont allow me to see.

im scared to make memories,
becuase then you fade away,
and im left somewhere behind,
begging you could stay.

im scared to let you hold me,
because its false security,
nothing lasts forever,
my love thats what you told me.

im scared that im not beautiful,
enough to make you stay,
and i cant change who i am,
although youde love me more that way.

im scared of my emotions,
they run to deep for you,
i miss you so much now,
but do you miss me too?

im scared that dreams will fade,
if they are only onesided,
all the happy endings,
you never have provided.

im scared of your voice,
so sweet, but painful somehow,
everything youve promised me,
i worry over now.

im scared that im not strong enough,
to let you prove its real,
if you still intend on needing me,
please understand how i feel.

im scared of myself,
of you, my past,
that everything i love,
is destined not to last,

that you cant prove me wrong,
in all my insecurities,
are you leading me on,
or do you honestly need me.

i dont mean to doubt you,
but im so affriad inside,
and everything that hurts me,
becomes to hard to hide.

im affriad of losing you,
becuase you promised me i wouldnt,
i have a hard time believing,
and i know you say i shouldnt.

but where are you now,
today when i need you,
your promises and smiles,
to pull me through.

i sayed i would trust you,
and my love, i do,
but im scared of being vulnerable,
even to you.


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