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Sunshine

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0 posted 1999-09-14 10:12 AM

Oh My God

Oh my God, those terrifying, awful, gruesome fears
welling up in her eyes, spilling forth her tears
when she came running up to the front door
and said “Mom, he doesn’t love me anymore.”

With her babe in hand, and her belly with child
my mind went screaming, wailing ever wild
for the words came back to my ears as before
when I said “Mom, he doesn’t love me anymore.”

While my daughter sits there in denial and shock
the foundation for her husband begins to rock
I want to get in his face, with my eyes scream
“How could you ever be so rottenly mean?”

On their anniversary, with flowers in hand
he came to her with deceit oh so grand
“Happy anniversary, here’s flowers galore,
oh, by the way, I don’t love you any more.”

Oh my God, how this brings back the past
and within me I still feel the hideous blast
when my own husband whom I had adored
said to me “I don’t love you anymore.”

Now I sit in quandary deep, my daughter’s fate
outside of my direction, I can only relate
and suffer along with her, as I did before
when a beloved says curtly “I don’t love you anymore.”

Oh Lord, please now hear this fervent plea,
that my daughter discover from the strength of me;
to find a resolve that I know dwells in her deep,
help find a resolution so that she may sleep.

I will pray for her and keep it in my mind
That you have grand plans for her of some kind
But Lord, the pain she’s now going through
I’d rather you give it to me, and I’ll make do.

And Lord, while I’m praying, I’ll now ask
That you give me wisdom to handle this task.
Allow me to keep my sanity for all the children’s sake
allow then me strong decisions to help make.

Take the anger from me, help me be ever clear
so we make proper judgment, without hate, without fear.
Then one final prayer for my daughter, one more
never again let her hear the words “I don’t love you anymore.”

14 September, 1999
©KRJ

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Sunshine
Words will always express our feelings true. ~~~ KRJ
Look, then, into thine heart, and write ~~~ Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

hoot_owl_rn
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1 posted 1999-09-14 10:16 AM

Oh Sunshine...how touching. I think we all want that for our children.

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"This world is not conclusion.
A sequel stands beyond,
Invisable as music,
But positive as sound."
~Emily Dickinson

suthern

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since 1999-07-29

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2 posted 1999-09-14 10:17 AM

How we all wish we could take the pain of our loved ones and bear it ourselves to spare them... but we can only offer our love and support... which you're obviously doing. The pain screams from your poem, Sunshine... I hope you all find peace soon.

DreamEvil
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3 posted 1999-09-14 10:18 AM

Words without four letters seem to fail me somewhat after reading this. All directed at the BOSS. Backwards, that's double S.O.B., twice as bad.

I really hope this is not true, though i fear it is deadly real. If it is, your family has my sympathies and you have my admiration. If not, then you still have my admiration for writing such words.

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Pain is life, life is short, I will endure.
DreamEvil©

Seymour Tabin
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4 posted 1999-09-14 01:38 PM

Sunshine,
You touched me some where here inside.
A place where I dwell or hide?
I can only offer sympathy
Perhaps you'd call it empathy?
What ever, you wrote a wonderful poem.

WhtDove
Member Rara Avis

since 1999-07-22

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Illinois

5 posted 1999-09-14 02:00 PM

Sunshine this about made me cry! I went to get a short rest today and had an awful nightmare very simiular to this poem! Oh the devistation I felt. As I can imagine what she's feeling! May the good Lord guide her and give you the wisdom to help.

Iloveit
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since 1999-09-02

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6 posted 1999-09-14 02:57 PM

as a momma who helped her daughter through the same situation, I would have to say you captured it perfectly. Your pain I feel, your tears I have cried....beautiful job
hugs

Sunshine

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7 posted 1999-09-14 03:50 PM

To those of you who are checking back, thank you ever so much for allowing me to put "myself" out here. The pain is real, I cannot bear the thought of history repeating itself, but we will get through this mess. Believe it or not, after having posted this, it later helped me give some new words and new comfort to my daughter, especially after reading what you've written. Thank you again for your thoughts, and prayers.

Sunshine

[This message has been edited by Sunshine (edited 09-14-99).]

caroline
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8 posted 1999-09-14 07:25 PM

Sunshine, every daughter should have a mom like you. Hugs to you and yours.

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The only man worth your tears will never make you cry...

Balladeer

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9 posted 1999-09-14 07:28 PM

I agree with Caroline all the way. How special for your daughter to have someone like you.

Isis
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since 1999-09-06

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10 posted 1999-09-14 07:34 PM

Your daughter IS a lucky girl to have you for a Mom. How sad for her and any woman with children who faces that.
Beautifully done:

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Words that enlighten the soul are more precious than jewels.
~Isis~

Elizabeth

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11 posted 1999-09-14 07:56 PM

So very powerful.

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*Elizabeth*

"Dwelt a maid belov'd and cherish'd by high and low,
But with autumn leaf she perish'd, long time ago..."

Julie
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since 1999-08-20

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Houston, TX

12 posted 1999-09-14 08:09 PM

Sunshine:
Hold her close
and heal both your pain,
for in the end
you will both have gained.

"BIG HUGS"

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Julie
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Today a man discovered gold and fame,
Another flew the stormy seas;
Another set an unarmed world aflame,
One found the germ of a disease.
But what high fates my path attend;
For I-today-I found a friend.
>Helen Barker Parker

Denise

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13 posted 1999-09-14 08:44 PM

Sunshine, this brought tears to my eyes. The pain of this piece is excruciating. More so that it's real. I'm so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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Denise

Sunshine

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14 posted 1999-09-15 10:19 AM

Again, thank you all. What a helpful, compassionate, healing group we have.

Thank you again for allowing me to express what is real...and what is fiction.

{{{Hugs}}}Sunshine

Pepper
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since 1999-08-19

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15 posted 1999-09-15 12:17 PM

Sunshine dear, I agree with everyone here....my heart and prayers go out to you and your daughter.....

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May your days be filled with lots of sunshine and your nights lit up by golden moonbeams

Elizabeth

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16 posted 1999-09-15 05:45 PM

My prayers are with you too-and you know, I just read about an experience like this in the paper today, so you're not alone...but that doesn't make it hurt any less.

God Bless

Love,

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*Elizabeth*

"Dwelt a maid belov'd and cherish'd by high and low,
But with autumn leaf she perish'd, long time ago..."

Sunshine

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17 posted 1999-09-16 09:23 AM

There are not enough ways to express "thanks" for the continued heart-warming comments and prayers that I truly believe are being sent out. I'll keep you posted on the outcome. Right now, counseling and therapy are being discussed. Thank you all again, ever so much!

Sunshine

Emmy
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since 1999-06-29

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18 posted 1999-09-17 07:49 PM

Heart-wrenching poem... moved me to tears, I have to admit. My prayers go out for you and yours. Know that God will work things out for the best in the end. *HUGS*!!!

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19 posted 1999-09-17 11:25 PM

Well, i hate analyzing other peoples work because i feel self righteous, but i admire youir strength for going on, if my boyfriend ever left me, my life would be over...but i guess if you have children theres not much of a choice.......

"The sun is gone,
But i have a light"
-Kurt Cobain-

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