Welcome to Passions! Sea is right. Not too many that write by proxy here and besides only you can say what you mean. It's a good start just keep going. But must confess the situation sounds a little messy. Good luck.

If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane,
I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

We have a number of areas for help here, poet.  You can start in Teen, or go ahead and post in Open...or work in the various classes or advance straight ahead to Critical Analysis.

Q&A is mostly for questions about the site, or things questionable that most cannot find another place to post their question.

Albeit, what I'm seeing here is talent that is questioning its worthiness, and that's a good thing.  Go ahead and adapt your profile to asking for critiques, and it doesn't matter if your muse only visits you now and then.  We will enjoy any moment of their visit through you.  

Now, write on, and should you have any questions, please, do not hesitate to contact a moderator.

" It matters not this distance now  " Excerpt, Yesterday's Love
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KRJ