Open Poetry #50 |
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Buffet of Bad Feelings |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere ![]() |
Clearing the clutter from my mind and thoughts scatter like billiards on a break. I try to follow one and I feel like a dog chasing its tail. Eventually the dust settles on a piece of my mind caught between a rock and a hard place. It’s a jagged memory from it’s not important anymore but it feels just like then. And just like that I’m belly up at the buffet of bad feelings. Next thing I know I got a heaping helping of hurt and humiliation. Anger and embarrassment were what I got the last time I was there. Enough already with the random recollecting. I don’t know why I put myself through such misery, and I’m not willing to hang around those thoughts long enough to analyze them. I think I’ll think somewhere else. I shut my eyes and focus. I’m looking for a pleasant thought. Possibly something Winstonian, will come to mind. Instead my nose takes the lead. I begin to remember yesterday morning and how it smelled after the rain. And I remember how that smell made me feel; clean and refreshed, happy and lighthearted. And that was all it took to put the buffet of bad feelings in my rearview. This time… However, there have been times when stronger measures were put into play, seeking comfort after the buffet. Never mind finding sweet thoughts to put in my head. Put sweet things in my mouth instead. A doughnut never fails to falsely fill a painful hollow. If it’s a painful hollow you’re trying to fill I’ve a temporary fix better than any pill. I just sleep. And if sleep can’t do it, nothing will. |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Made me think of my son who is going through some bad times right now...I told him when he goes into that room of remembrance he is setting himself up for pain and suffering...Stay out of that room! Of course its not easy, I know as I try to shut my own door of bad memories, and leave it shut...james |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
Thanks James for your thoughtful reply. Bad memories are hard enough as is, nobody likes them sneaking up out of nowhere. ~L |
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jjote Senior Member
since 2002-12-25
Posts 1088Ontario, Canada |
I just went with friends on a food buffet binge. Look where it got me - a very very high bp..I thought I'd collapse. Never again! So with bad memories, let no one binge on them --shut the door to that room very very fast and never open. Thanks for the reminder |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
JJ, You are welcome. Thank you for commenting. ~L |
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Poet In Pink Senior Member Posts 1066 MI |
I can relate with you Lori Belle ~ Zackly why I try to stay away from a buffet!! To many choices and most of them bad for you ~ Loved the way you wrote this ~ You have a unique way of jotting down your thoughts ![]() |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
Pinkyminky, Thank you for pointing out my uniqueness, I just love it when that happens! ~L |
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