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Open Poetry #50

We Aren't Ever Going Home

icebox
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since 2003-05-03

Posts 4383
in the shadows

0 posted 2020-11-11 03:30 PM

We Aren't Ever Going Home
(A repost for all who should remember and all who can forget)

It is cold here
in an endless night,
empty
easy to forget
a jungle is a desert with too much rain;

lonely now
too much awareness
from inner plains of memory,
too little pain
for all that happened,
it could be said it should hurt more
to be dead so far from home;

fear too is cold,
and in passing from all needs of life
I thought we would leave fear,
crushing weight of knowing
we weren't leaving here in any way that could be understood;

quiet now,
not like endless tearing moments of fire and steel,
I remember
how what I thought was real became a child's dream;

running,
thinking I could hide anywhere inside this shadowed valley
where we died as we were busy killing for no reason
but for rage at being killed,
at least no reason that survived;

we are waiting,
friends and enemies,
each quiet with our own separate agenda,
some around me I have recognized across what must be years
since the jungle has returned,
and there are trees again where I once stood
on blasted ruined ground
mixed out of ashes,
mud,
debris and blood,
shadow memories of fire's licking tongues without heat,
soft recall of madness
in this waking dream through which I pass
awaiting understanding that may take me out of here,
at last;

cold,
so very cold,
sun's heat passes through me without stopping.

I believe
one day I will leave behind this place of green horror
forgotten honor fertilized with death,
where nothing was resolved,
nothing lasting was attained,
where our blood is slowly washed away
every time it rains.

© 2019, 2020 by icebox

Marchmadness
Member Rara Avis

since 2007-09-16

Posts 9271
So. El Monte, California

1 posted 2020-11-11 05:37 PM

Only someone who has experienced this could write it and it takes a reader with great heart to feel it.

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