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Tracey
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since 2001-08-29

Posts 2808
where insanity meets breeding

0 posted 2012-03-12 09:37 PM

You didn’t see the pain inside
Never saw the tears I cried
Missing you here by my side
Another perfect alibi

I hid it all so well from you
I knew that you were dying too
You never knew how much I cared
The hell I felt in my despair
The demons haunting in my lair
My inner living hell

A heart that’s slowly breaking
A helplessness that’s shaking
No sugared cup to ease the pain
Of being in this place again

And missing you won’t go away
Though I’ve told me time again
Who knew it would affect me so
Even as I let you go
And killing every fibre
Of this rotten lonely core

A bed of my own making
A missing you that’s aching
I’ll choke on my own vanity
While the pain inside is killing me
And one day will you ever see
What it is you meant to me

In misery I'll wallow
From this bitter pill I’ve swallowed
Oh yes I’ll drink my medicine
And choke on my own spit

You can never win or lose
If you don't
Run the race

Psychedelic Furs - Love My Way

[This message has been edited by Tracey (03-12-2012 11:00 PM).]

ebonygirl
Member Elite

since 2011-07-14

Posts 2000
California U.S.A

1 posted 2012-03-12 11:08 PM

Intense poem, well written.... I like the song "Love my way", by the Psy. Furs. ms. e

bel1e
Senior Member

since 2006-07-24

Posts 1631

2 posted 2012-03-13 08:53 AM

What a great poem...I could strum my guitar to this! Enjoyed it!

jwesley
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-04-30

Posts 7563
Spring, Texas

3 posted 2012-03-13 11:33 AM

Yep another wonderful piece from you my friend.

enjoyed...

j.

suthern

Member Seraphic

since 1999-07-29

Posts 20723
Louisiana

4 posted 2012-03-13 07:56 PM

A bed of my own making
A missing you that’s aching
I’ll choke on my own vanity
While the pain inside is killing me
And one day will you ever see
What it is you meant to me

In misery I'll wallow
From this bitter pill I’ve swallowed
Oh yes I’ll drink my medicine
And choke on my own spit

Been there, done that, bought the t-shirt... and wear it still, though it hangs in tatters. *S* You've written the misery so very well... Bravo to the write... hugs to the writer if this is where you are now.

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

5 posted 2012-03-13 09:39 PM

Fine writing...James

Tracey
Member Elite

since 2001-08-29

Posts 2808
where insanity meets breeding

6 posted 2012-03-13 09:44 PM

Thanks all of you for your replies...yes, it was a rough patch... but nice to have the catharsis of being able to write again, it's been a long time!!

And it's nice to see some old familiar faces!! It's been a long time... nice to be back here.

JL
Member Ascendant

since 2004-04-01

Posts 6128
Texas, USA

7 posted 2012-03-14 07:17 PM

"A bed of my own making
A missing you that’s aching
I’ll choke on my own vanity
While the pain inside is killing me
And one day will you ever see
What it is you meant to me"

Yep, I know the feeling.
A little spilled milk goes well
with crow.

JL

Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul,and with all your mind. Love your neighbor as yourself.
Maranatha!

Tracey
Member Elite

since 2001-08-29

Posts 2808
where insanity meets breeding

8 posted 2012-03-15 09:34 PM

JL... hope you don't mind... but your spilled milk and crow worked it's way into a new piece... it was just so appropriate for my feelings. Thanks for letting me borrow!

Mysteria

Member Laureate

since 2001-03-07

Posts 18328
British Columbia, Canada

9 posted 2012-03-17 01:59 AM

Better grab yourself a green ale tomorrow and have a toast to bygones. This too reads like a song Tracey. I shall have one for you.

Oklahoma Rose
Senior Member

since 2008-02-28

Posts 1586
Oklahoma USA

10 posted 2012-03-18 10:40 AM

Tracey, this is so sad. It brings back alot of memories. But, as they say, life goes on, and eventually a heart will mend. Hang in there.

Kit McCallum

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Member Laureate

since 2000-04-30

Posts 14774
Ontario, Canada

11 posted 2012-03-18 01:43 PM

Your words come through powerfully Tracy. I enjoyed the rawness and feeling you evoked, really well done.

Best wishes,
Kit

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