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jwesley
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0 posted 2013-04-10 09:45 PM




Crucified Reality




When God asked - are you ready?
I said - no, I've things to do.

He sent me you.
And later he sent kids:
three,

the third one died
in a day, and an hour.

- Saw an eagle fly
unlike I've ever seen one before.
Powerful stokes of awesome wings
took him higher and higher and higher.
He climbed straight and true,
became a speck ,
flew out of sight,
left me standing humble,
consumed by the wonder of such a feat,
yet weakened in heart. . .
another child of God
had gone home.

Look up, Oh ye of the world,
and feel the breeze from his wings . . .


When God asked - are you ready?
I said - no, their pain is too great.

We aged,
way before our years,
when the war took our twins.

You withered
and I begged God to take me:
and he answered by letting me
bury you . . .

Death in small doses
is still dying,

And I see the end of everything,
the beginning no longer there:
my words so long ago . . .

No . . .
haunting my soul.



When God asked - are you ready?
I said - no.

I've yet to give away,
the words
although thou has given life to dreams,
thou has given wings
to this heart,
and let it grow over time:
and thou has taught - humility.


When God asked - are you ready?
I still said - no.

No.  Because I fear
you really aren't there . . .


© wesley james beard, jr.
april 6, 2013

© Copyright 2013 Wesley James Beard, Jr. - All Rights Reserved
Lighthousebob
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1 posted 2013-04-10 11:40 PM


What visuals and rarely shared truth and both heart-felt emotion and expression...

quote:
I've yet to give away,
the words
although thou has given life to dreams,
thou has given wings
to this heart,
and let it grow over time:
and thou has taught - humility.


So you know, you did that right here and right now! Enjoyed!  

OwlSA
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2 posted 2013-04-11 02:01 AM


Beautiful, Jimmy.

My tears and my reassurance that He really was, is and always will be, there, for all who open the door to His knocking.

Owl

JerryPat2
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3 posted 2013-04-11 07:08 AM


I agree with the ending.

~*~ Jokes about German sausages are the wurst~*~

jwesley
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4 posted 2013-04-11 08:49 AM


Thanks for the good words LHB. It's a world away from the world isn't it ... driven my one's inner self.


j.

jwesley
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5 posted 2013-04-11 08:52 AM


Thank you too Owl --- as, if man had nothing to hang onto, something stable to attach to, then man would have driven itself nuts (and not sure some of thats not happening regardless)nuts a long time ago!!

j.

jwesley
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6 posted 2013-04-11 08:54 AM


Jerry ...  sort of like a horse-race isn't it, just don't know until the bell rings!!!

j.

Lighthousebob
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7 posted 2013-04-11 11:54 AM


Jimmy...

In response, Yes, yes it is a world away, but the word that comes to mind right now is "Honesty", and, Yes, yes it's a visual, it's truth, it's heart-felt emotion, and more and more that's driven by inner self. Yes! You've got to have it within in order to express it out as you've done here and that's what I think I most appreciate about your poem-- The humility, yes, but also the Honesty! Anyways, sorry to ramble on and on! Again, Enjoyed!    

Angel4aKing
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8 posted 2013-04-11 02:33 PM


I've been here so many times ... there is light though ... I am finding it in small doses more and more every day....peace to you...

"Death in small doses
is still dying,

And I see the end of everything,
the beginning no longer there:
my words so long ago . . .

No . . .
haunting my soul."

~~~kingsangel~~~

Michael
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9 posted 2013-04-14 02:25 AM


omg, James, this broke my heart.  The pain of living, while watching everything you've ever loved die would be unbearable for most... and yet you stunned me with your ending, where you're still not ready to go for fearing the aloneness would continue on the other side.  Poignant, gripping and painful to no end.  I felt this one deep in my heart.

Michael

ebonygirl
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10 posted 2013-04-15 01:42 AM


J, heartbreaking, and yet a great ending!
With so much to grief, why wouldn't that question
be asked.
Ms. E

Marchmadness
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11 posted 2013-04-22 03:45 PM


Great writing, Jimmy, filled with questions and fears that we all share whether we admit it or not.
                          Ida

MGROVES
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12 posted 2013-04-25 02:04 PM


wow, this was awesome!

My spirit will rise
above the sea~
There will be no drowning
of my soul or me~

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