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Richy
Member Elite

since 2003-05-03

Posts 3050

0 posted 2013-01-06 05:56 PM

How many times
have some of us
wondered,
how much better
life
would be

If we had never lived

I think a lot
of us
entertain that idea
when we are
young

In a way to
understand the
gift
and the
frailty of life

Often as an idle
threat,
but not always.

The majority of the
time
we already know
in the back of our
mind

That we’d never
go through with
it

But our character and
conscience
haven’t developed enough
yet
to bring it
to

The frontal
forethought
of our understanding

And also because
at the time,
especially during the
teen years

That is the only real
power
we have

Over anyone else.

They say ending
your
life

Shows a lack
of courage

And that
you,
are running away
from all your
troubles

But courage
does
exemplify power
doesn’t it

Right now I’m trying to
think
of anything more
forceful
than the
power

To take and
end,
your own life

To me,
ending my life has always,
scared me to death

And I’ve never even
thought about it,
for me

Until earlier this year
the mere thought of it
actually entered
my mind

When I was twelve years old
I saved my brother Ron’s life
from drowning

He passed away,
last year

His oldest son Danny
has a son now too

And his younger son Tony
is engaged to a wonderful
young lady to be married
this summer

We always hear about how
controlling,
some people are

So what

People are so skiddish
nowadays
of labels

Who wouldn’t want to
grab the wheel
of a world
that cant stay,
between the lines
anymore

Our own life,
is our birthright

And no one
should hold claim on it
but ourselves

It’s too bad though
that sometimes
rights

Can be so,
wrong

How ever so
lonely
that day must be
when you even
contemplate
the ultimate choice,
to be

Or to be,
not

Why does life
sometimes,
have to make us
choose

Between ever
inhaling
the sky
anymore,
or not

Or changing our blood
from blue
to red

As it finds
its
new path,
of least resistance

We weren’t supposed to
unplug
the clock

And let our
seconds,
tick away

We were always
supposed to
be greater,
than our suffering

Or so,
that story goes

How sad to die
because you’re
afraid,
of living

Instead of
living
because you’re
afraid,
of dying

The saddest part
is that
it’s never just
about themselves

More than one soul
dies,
in a suicide

Just know that when
or if,
that ever happens

I’m sorry that room
in your heart,
is now empty

I love you

And I know now
that is wasn’t the
right,
thing to do

I look down

And I see you,
with tears
in your eyes

The same eyes
that look,
just like mine

And I wish
that you,
could feel me
there

At night,
when you’re
alone

I wish that you
could hear,
my words

Inside,
your saddened
dreams

Everything
is now
okay

Please don’t
worry,
for me

I never want
for you
to blame,
yourself

For all
my
pain

That is gone,
I found
my
peace

I now

Am whole,
again

Bless you
Mommy,
I am here

And yes
we will
soon hug
again

Live your life
with love
and joy

from this day
on,
till then

For a dear sweet friend, thank you for always being there.

latearrival
Member Ascendant

since 2003-03-21

Posts 5499
Florida

1 posted 2013-01-06 06:40 PM

Dear Richy,Thank you so much for this. Copied and saved.I think you have been doing some pondering. It is all right. A person has the right to make a choice. Sometimes it is the right one and sometimes not,especially,for those left behind. But in thinking it over for many many years sometimes I can understand the person had to be super strong to be able to follow through.It is those left behind who have to learn,understand and make peace with it, My best to you . jo

OwlSA
Member Rara Avis

since 2005-11-07

Posts 9347
Durban, South Africa

2 posted 2013-01-06 07:19 PM

Oh my goodness, Martyjo, thank you for directing me here. What a lovely poem Richy wrote for you about your daughter! This is very kind and compassionate and beautiful, Richy, and you couldn't have done this for a sweeter person. Hugs, Martyjo. I am sharing your pain.

Owl

Richy
Member Elite

since 2003-05-03

Posts 3050

3 posted 2013-01-06 07:20 PM

yes Jo, life can just get so complicated sometimes. Like i told you earlier, it was written for both me and you, and im glad you and your son we're able to share it together. Bless you sweetie friend.. life is all about getting through those darker days, together..

Richy
Member Elite

since 2003-05-03

Posts 3050

4 posted 2013-01-06 07:24 PM

thanks so much Diana, i'm glad you're here with us.. it brings that added warmth to the glow

thanks as well for always being such a caring and compassionate friend.

this place wouldnt be what it is, without your endearing presence.

(((Hugs to you)))

Marchmadness
Member Rara Avis

since 2007-09-16

Posts 9271
So. El Monte, California

5 posted 2013-01-09 04:51 AM

Hugs to you both, Rich and Jo.
Ida

Amaryllis
Senior Member

since 2010-05-20

Posts 1306
Mi now

6 posted 2013-01-09 09:38 AM

Very touching and important... I have a daughter that should read this, too. When she's ready. Thanks for sharing it..

Best,
Amaryllis

Richy
Member Elite

since 2003-05-03

Posts 3050

7 posted 2013-01-09 05:46 PM

I thank you for both us Ida, thank you soo much!

Richy
Member Elite

since 2003-05-03

Posts 3050

8 posted 2013-01-09 05:47 PM

anytime Amaryllis.. im glad it might be helpful to someone else..

thanks so much

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