Open Poetry #48 |
oh-the-pain-of-loving-me |
serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
As tiny as my mother's tear the answer was a tiny seed that had to grow inside of me for one half of a century my pain no fault of hers but she was staggered by the guilt of me inconsolable till now...and we are fortunate to be at peace freed from fault and history-- I pray it's not too late as we celebrate my tottering baby steps at last... |
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JerryPat2 Member Laureate
since 2011-02-06
Posts 16975South Louisiana |
This is beautiful, Karen, would this could this have happened to me and my mother and my father. |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
an understandable confusion of perceptions as reality...and yes, Jerry, I do feel very fortunate. As a mother, I can't imagine the pain my mother felt with me being such a fussy and chronically ill baby, and as a mother I know how hard it would be to not take that personally. She loved me anyway. Thanks for reading. *hugs* |
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BrendaH New Member
since 2012-05-21
Posts 5 |
Sernit blaze, This is my first time posting to this site and I enjoy your poem, specially the words "As tiny as my mother tear the answer was a tiny seed that had to grow a tiny seed inside of me, I am also a mother of a twenty-two year who I try to tell her thing before she make a mistake before it to late. I know she have to learn from her mistake |
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BrendaH New Member
since 2012-05-21
Posts 5 |
Sernit blaze, This is my first time posting to this site and I enjoy your poem, specially the words "As tiny as my mother tear the answer was a tiny seed that had to grow inside of me, I am also a mother of a twenty-two year who I try to tell her thing before she make a mistake before it to late. I know she have to learn from her mistake |
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Startime1955 Senior Member
since 2012-04-22
Posts 1072Alberta, Canada |
Karen this poem is so very touching...you are so very blessed to be able to have your mother...to know that she loves you is a priceless gift...I felt this poem very deeply...*BIG HUGS* *may our dreams ever be magical* |
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JL Member Ascendant
since 2004-04-01
Posts 6128Texas, USA |
Blessings in recovery. JL Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul,and with all your mind. Love your neighbor as yourself. |
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latearrival Member Ascendant
since 2003-03-21
Posts 5499Florida |
my hand reaching out to sooth your brow and maybe wipe away a tear. This is growth. jo |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
jo? It's for my Mom. With all the tests being done on me, among the things that were discovered was a very simple and common congenital birth defect--a transitional disc--an extra vertabra at the end of my spine. Normally this would fuse--mine didn't. But I was told by the doc it's no big deal for an adult--it can pop in and out of place--I was told that most of the pain is felt by infants and their mothers. My mother always felt like she wasn't adequate because she couldn't comfort me. Even had there been a way to diagnose this sort of thing, it's still considered inconsequential, although it's painful. Little babies have literal growing pains, which are usually self-corrected when they learn to walk. So there ya go--two poems explained in one "thank you". (And btw? I found it very amusing to discover that this 'defect' is also very common in German Shepherd dogs...) I knew I put the "itch" in something--I just didn't know it started with a "B"! |
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ethome Member Patricius
since 2000-05-14
Posts 11858New Brunswick Canada |
Never too late! Love the honesty of this. Eric true love never looks after it's own interests |
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icebox Member Elite
since 2003-05-03
Posts 4383in the shadows |
Well...as I tell myself when I get up most mornings, "What the hell, it's only pain." |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
I've only been screaming my whole life. Still...that is fifty years too much. And really, it's fine, but for my Mom to think it was her fault? I can't have that. I won't have that. |
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Marchmadness Member Rara Avis
since 2007-09-16
Posts 9271So. El Monte, California |
Love your comments as well as the poem, Karen. Ida |
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ebonygirl Member Elite
since 2011-07-14
Posts 2000California U.S.A |
Yes! Time for celebration! Smiles, ms. e |
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