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Agentm42
New Member

since 2010-02-19

Posts 6

0 posted 2010-02-20 12:01 PM

In the darkness that follows me in life, i hide behind the smoke and mirrors. i reflect my own self pity onto the humor of life. i find little holes to poke my head into and say something witty. but what you don't see is hidden deep within, i hold it under so well. when you look, i take another mirror and place in where you look. i feel it inside, i don't say anything. i feel it bursting, deep within my soul. i wonder deeper into life as these explosions happen within, every time the shadow engulfs m, i put up more mirrors and release more smoke. i become a maze of glass and reflections. i fall deeper and deeper into this hole i dig, with every comment and joke i make. The shadow seems darker than usual on this day, its colder, its larger, its even more terrifying than ever. i feel somewhat to blame for this, like i could have flipped the light switch, like i could have filled the hole. but its not my fault. The voices that are a big part of my life, tell me this, i trust them and want to listen to them.I just can't bring myself to this. i could have prevented this. but i guess i must put on a jacket and learn to see in the dark.

ThisDiamond
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-02-22

Posts 9353
Michigan, USA

1 posted 2010-02-20 12:48 PM

Welcome to Passions. We all have our smoke and mirrors. This was insightful. Great metaphor

GBride
Senior Member

since 2009-07-02

Posts 538

2 posted 2010-02-21 03:48 PM

Yes, I know the feeling well.
I used to crawl into this hole with a bottle of vadka. These two were the only things that comforted me then.
But eventually I crawled out and through away the bottle of vodka.
Today, there are many people who don't approve of me. But now I could care less what they think. What other people think of me is none of my business.
I just enjoying the sunshine on my face.
I can't experience love, joy, and compassion unless I give it.
What a great poem!

Agentm42
New Member

since 2010-02-19

Posts 6

3 posted 2010-02-21 07:25 PM

Thanks

latearrival
Member Ascendant

since 2003-03-21

Posts 5499
Florida

4 posted 2010-02-21 09:02 PM

I read this with saddend heart. I wish I could toss you a few smiles. latearrival

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