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JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

0 posted 2011-12-11 09:34 PM

Every so often it all comes rushing back.
Tonight is one of those times . . .

I laughed a lot as a small child,
And if I didn't laugh I smiled.

Little did I know what I knew.

My father worked long and hard days,
Day in and day out for his pay.

We couldn't communicate; no.

Mother ruled the house with iron will,
Like Bunker Hill, like Bunker Hill.

I wore bruises to school each day.

When I turned sixteen I found out,
What my life had been all about.

I asked for truth and they both lied.

My nightmares found me all alone,
Beneath covers I cried and groaned.

A youthful mind is easy ripped.

Grownup people spoke to me lies,
They left me standing high and dry.

I hate those people yet and still.

The past was there inside my head,
And that is why I up and fled.

Get away, get away; just go.

Those days are gone and now I'm here,
Nothing's changed I still see their stares.

Little did I know what I knew.

©December 11, 2011 / Jerry Pat Bolton

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

Lori Grosser Rhoden
Member Patricius

since 2009-10-10

Posts 10202
Fair to middlin' of nowhere

1 posted 2011-12-12 06:29 AM

I hurt for you my friend.

Lori

JerryPat2
Member Laureate

since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

2 posted 2011-12-12 06:34 AM

Ah, it was just one of those moments last night. I'm okay.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

Honeybunch
Member Rara Avis

since 2001-12-29

Posts 7115
South Africa

3 posted 2011-12-12 12:42 PM

We're always okay, aren't we, Jerry? Why is it that we actually can't write all those moments out permanently?

Helen

JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

4 posted 2011-12-12 12:59 PM

I just don't know why we can't write the moments out permanently, Helen. One would think we could after so long a time, but no, they are there, not to be denied. Thank you for being here.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

EmmaRose
Senior Member

since 2011-03-02

Posts 1376
Midwest

5 posted 2011-12-12 01:44 PM

some things can never be sugar coated or glazed over only written out in the pen of the truth
Again your words are hard hitting and ring
right through to the marrow.

JerryPat2
Member Laureate

since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

6 posted 2011-12-12 01:51 PM

Thank you for your understanding of the poem, EmmaRose. It is based on lies about my birth mother and I will die never knowing.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

EmmaRose
Senior Member

since 2011-03-02

Posts 1376
Midwest

7 posted 2011-12-12 02:00 PM

I am saddened when someone must write a sad poem and I thank you for shedding light on this for me.

JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

8 posted 2011-12-12 02:03 PM

You are welcomed, EmmaRose. Thank you again.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

JL
Member Ascendant

since 2004-04-01

Posts 6128
Texas, USA

9 posted 2011-12-14 04:20 PM

"My nightmares found me all alone,
Beneath covers I cried and groaned."

Man, this hurts. Very sad.

JL

Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul,and with all your mind. Love your neighbor as yourself.
Maranatha!

JerryPat2
Member Laureate

since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

10 posted 2011-12-14 05:03 PM

I live with it even today, JL. Thank you for being here.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

Marchmadness
Member Rara Avis

since 2007-09-16

Posts 9271
So. El Monte, California

11 posted 2011-12-14 05:26 PM

It is so sad to think about how many people are dealing with demons their parents unleashed on them.
Ida

JerryPat2
Member Laureate

since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

12 posted 2011-12-14 05:53 PM

I hope they are dealing with their demons better than I did mine, Ida. Thank you so much for being here.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

bel1e
Senior Member

since 2006-07-24

Posts 1631

13 posted 2011-12-30 11:51 AM

Haunting stuff my dear poet...

JerryPat2
Member Laureate

since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

14 posted 2011-12-30 11:59 AM

Baby Girl, every so often I have to regurgitate it all back up again.

Thank you . .

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

nakdthoughts
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since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

15 posted 2011-12-31 11:48 AM

sending holiday hugs to you...and know we all love you here where you can be safe with your thoughts!

M

JerryPat2
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since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

16 posted 2011-12-31 11:51 AM

Thanks, "M." And thank goodness for PiP and wonderful people such as yourself.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

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