Open Poetry #47 |
All of My Worldly Goods Gone Bad |
serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Not so neatly packed--this box. My minimal belongings cost a tear for all I throw away. I cannot leave. I cannot stay. Booties, cards, and dog collars with memories of loyalty. I had such a following then I got lost in wallowing. History is such a test. A curse, to live with what is left. I feel no love and no respect. I weep for lack of touch--caress. This is the day that I foresaw, thinking that someone might grieve. I didn't know it would be me facing fact reality that I had successfully prepared them all for absentee while hiding in my room. Not quite what I used to be-- I've never been myself and soon another day will come, foreseen-- a thrift store will display my dreams-- all garbage without memories and no one old to tell the tales, will make a bentwood rock. [This message has been edited by serenity blaze (10-16-2011 03:07 AM).] |
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Richy Member Elite
since 2003-05-03
Posts 3050 |
Oh gosh.. as usual the writing is meaningful and superbly written, but, it is causing me some concern my dear friend.. let us know if there is anything we can do okay.. we are family yes, and always will be.. Richard xx |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
I'm just downsizing... mid life crisis and all that. And it's amazing how much crap a person can acquire in twenty years. *kisses* sweet friend. No worries. What I suspect you fear is something that the family and I made as pact long ago. We just won't do ...that. Damned near everything else is understood, if not acceptable though. |
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Richy Member Elite
since 2003-05-03
Posts 3050 |
ahh well that puts my heart at ease... I like, no worries.. oh and hey, thanks for the smooch dearheart... I needed that too! |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Fine writing...cleaning out your closet...as Eminim would say...James |
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latearrival Member Ascendant
since 2003-03-21
Posts 5499Florida |
I have been watching for you to write.Did your missing dog come home? I understand about packing things and getting rid of things.I have been trying for two years and it just seems to be adding up. I hate to run tag sales so some things will be trashed and some for AMVETS others repacked for another read or touch. Touching you tonight with fondness.((((hugs))))jo |
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icebox Member Elite
since 2003-05-03
Posts 4383in the shadows |
Aw gee, I like the images of dog collars...and this: "Not quite what I used to be-- I've never been myself..." |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Karen...I sure know the down side of getting rid of stuff...and I was so good at keeping it. Hugs!! |
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JL Member Ascendant
since 2004-04-01
Posts 6128Texas, USA |
Ooooo, yep... Downsizing is sometimes a pain in the lower lumbar region… But as you are doing, it is necessary, as we get older. JL Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul,and with all your mind. Love your neighbor as yourself. |
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Marchmadness Member Rara Avis
since 2007-09-16
Posts 9271So. El Monte, California |
When my daughter passed away I learned how hard it is to deal with material things that no longer have a person. Since then it has been easier for me to get rid of things as I think of those who will eventually have to deal with my personal belongings. Hugs, Ida |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
History is such a test. A curse, to live with what is left. It can definitely be that! And when you finish at your place... I could use some help? *S* (((HUGS))) |
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secondhanddreampoet Member Ascendant
since 2006-11-07
Posts 6394a 'Universalist' ! |
fine "slice of life's realities" write ... As a magnificent 'life and love' failure ... and having lost 'all that really matters' ... I KNOW many of these feelings all too well! ... even my 'downsizing' has been multiply downsized... |
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EmmaRose Senior Member
since 2011-03-02
Posts 1376Midwest |
I hate parting with 'things' I do try to hold onto a few real special ones too. Memories hard to hold to, and hard to let go Ah..........Life |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
My husband woke up with natural light in his bedroom for the first time since Hurricane Katrina. He thought he was dying. Then he saw ME in natural light and thought I was dying. For the first time in years I just kept my mouth shut. It's hard enough to process stuff just as it is, without anticipating the inevitable. I simply say that we've been trying for too long to make things add up in our life. We probably should have started subtracting a long time ago. My love to you all. And smile. And note to the kids, if we should die before we wake? Throw my stuff away and sell his on E BAY. mercy... |
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Sunshine
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
The intrical part to any serenity poem is to read the responses before replying. And then to say, as we are fraught to do... that this poem [and so many, many of the others] resonates within, sounding bells, sometimes alarms, as fact and reality rears its head and behind, and we should never not take a moment to slap one or the other silly, just to wake up smell the coffee, and hug serenity. |
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Michael
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-08-13
Posts 7666California |
There is a life attached to many inanimate objects we possess… through memory and emotion. Letting go of such can be devastating to say the least. To think of them in the hands of someone else… someone whom they could never mean as much to as they do to you. I know and understand this pain. I have a (hug) for you if you want it. Michael |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
All hugs are greatly appreciated. I just might fall into them, though. Now. Off for a bath! And every mother reading this knows I'll have to clean the bathroom first. Love to all. More hugs. |
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latearrival Member Ascendant
since 2003-03-21
Posts 5499Florida |
By now you are al bathed and sweet smelling. Have a good night Karen.You are so special.I wish you were able to see what others see. My daughter told me the other day what I say said nice about her, did not count, bcause mothers say nice things all the time. But if she had known how much her brothers thought of her before she grew older, she wondered if she would have tried too hard to live up to their expectations or would it have helped her to fulfil them. a question no one can answer I guess.love to you. jo |
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Krawdad Member Elite
since 2001-01-03
Posts 2597 |
Enjoyed your treatment of this dilemma, K. And when did we fall into this trap? A long time ago, me thinks - when we started to plant seeds and stuck around for the fruits. Then we lost all sense of proportion . . . |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
Been there! Done that! ~ and gosh, Serene One, as per usual, you nailed it. You draw your readers in and make us feel every blessed mot! Either we can identify with the subject of your fine writing, or you make us feel as though we have lived the experience! Giving you a big, comforting hug, All is well! ~ or at least it will be! Linda |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Earth Angel--it does my heart and soul so much good to see you here. (Not to dismiss anyone else, but I'm lacking focus today.) I should have slept well, but I did not. *smile* My daughter and her s/o just left to go protest at the voting precinct... I smiled and told her to keep a smile on her face, and don't succumb to the Idiots trying to organize the Idiots. "If you let someone else organize you, you're just going to lose the smile on your face and end up more confused than ever, not knowing where someone else placed your values..." More winks, more hugs. OH. myyyy.... Even on days when I vow to keep my mouth shut, my thoughts slip outta my fingahs. |
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