the tears shed
come back in memories
ringing in my head
falling to mmy pillow
as i lie in my bed
remembering the past and
everything she said
killing my joy
and the life i led

nothing's real
i hope or i got a bad deal
on my life
couldn't get through a meal
without the pain or
how bad i feel
ruining it all while
the happiness she'd steal


-written on 7-9-09-