Teen Poetry #9 |
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The Feelings I Have Toward My Forever Mommy |
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precious pearls Member
since 2009-07-24
Posts 110NJ; United States |
The Feelings I Have Toward My Forever Mommy I wrapped my arms around my knees As the tears started to fall You see what you want to see When you hear the doubt in my voice You blow it off and then have the gall To come in at the wee hours of the morning And act like everything’s good and dazzling... I don’t even bother to say That you promised to be right back I don’t even bother to say How much it hurts when you want to do crack Instead of being home I don’t even bother to say How it makes me feel spasms of alone... They wash over me And then I feel stupid Because I know it’s irrational- I know I have other family Who can make the hurt under control and stable And I know that it has nothing to do with me I know that you can’t help it But it doesn’t stop the hurt and pain in my heart Like I’ve just been hit In the chest with a five-hundred pound rock Nobody gets why that is Why I know that it’s not my fault But it still throws salt On my injured heart When she says she’ll be right back And then the tears start They think I should be used to it by now That I should just accept it and move on But it still hurts and it leaves me scarred somehow People say you just have to pick yourself up And move on with your life But how do you move on When you feel like you’ve been stabbed by a knife Every couple of days When you’re scared that your supposed-to-be icon Is the one that makes your heart weigh Five-hundred pounds It’s easier said than done to just pick yourself up And keep on moving Let’s just say it’s not as easy as watching the sun rising And so I cried a lot But most of it I did inside For now I’m stronger to hold them in Until she’s hurt me one time too many And I know that a part of me Will always be hurting Because she will forever be my mommy |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
despite the hurt and sadness which comes through your words, this is a beautifully loving poem~~ If true, you do the best you can and if need be write it out and seek some help although I can tell from your words that you don't take any blame~~ a good sign. ![]() M |
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Alison![]() ![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2008-01-27
Posts 9318Lumpy oatmeal makes me crazy! |
I think this poem showcases your compassion and incredible strength. You appear to have a very realistic view and you write about your reality well. I am seeking out your poems now because you touch me. Alison |
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precious pearls Member
since 2009-07-24
Posts 110NJ; United States |
Thank you allison.... I'm on the verge of tears, because 4 u 2 say that..... It just means so much more than i can say.... truly and from the bottom of my heart, thank you 4 those simple words.... because i believe every writer/poet wants 2 hear those words that u wrote, whether on paper or in person ![]() Always, |
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