Dark Poetry #5 |
My reoccuring nightmare |
voice2bheard Senior Member
since 2007-10-19
Posts 591New York |
I can remember that day as if it happend today Something that I never expected I'd go through Of course it started out as any oher day Going out and then coming home very late I wanted to relax and shower then go to bed But he had a different idea in mind To do something he knew I never liked that he did He was addicted and he never admitted that he was So he left while I was still in the shower I heard him go down the atairs and out the door I then got very afraid to leave, never happened before But I felt that Ihad to go, make sure he was ok Little did I know it wouldnt end that way So I walked twelve blocks in the darkest night I ever witnessed in all my life When I arrived I assumed he was there yet nowhere to be found Several minutes later was when I witnessed and experienced so much fear I never had before It happend so quickly I couldn't believe that it did I'm still not sure if anyone will ever believe this A door being slammed open, then being dragged out by my hair Someone else fighting for my defense, then I suddenly didn't know why it happend or even why I was there I was told to stay inside as I started to cry The next thing I knew I heard someone scream Yet in that moment I finally realized it was them I ran out so quickly and coulldnt believe The things that I saw, I could hardly breathe He was laying on the ground and I didn't know what to do For several minutes he didn't move or even say a word Then when he finally got up, he said we had to go He said I was to be taken back home That everything was my fault Maybe it was I really still dont know We walked what seemed like forever Stopped at a store bought something Then not even 5 minutes later it was poured all down on me We continued to walk until police got involved We were sent to the hospital because of the things they had seen So many cuts and bruises all the pain on him It seemed like forever before we were allowed to leave There were no charges against anyone yet thats only the beginning The next few days had seemed like my last Yet the words I'm about to say were in the past I was forced to him when I didnt want to at all What seemed like forever until he was finally done I thought it was over that he won I tried to shower and erase the pain Yet by only making things worse, not even the same Even the simplest thing as taking a shower are no longer safe for me He would invade my privacy force me on the floor Several times when I was even slammed to the door He broke my belongings inluding my laptop How could I forget he was always on top The tears that fell from my eyes meant nothing to him Just more satisfaction because he would always win As a shade of pink would turn to black Shattered glass that you would think hit the floor But it was broken by hands and forced into another Over and over hit even after crying You would think it would stop, that I'm dying There were so many it always seemed to last I couldn't go out, because someone would see I was so ashamed, because it wasn't me As I told myself that things would get better I was proved wrong, this was no ever after A simple walk and for someone to look Turned into sharp agonizing pain, that was all it took I'm not allowed, You belong to me Those were his words, I was never free A shiner on my eye was the result of one wrong word Food poured into my hair for misreading a direction Clearly this was no love or affection An object that was held so sharp with a point Things didn't seem to matter, I had no voice No phone to make a call, no way out of the house I was trapped and afraid, still dont know what it was all about The days seemed to be longer as my nights were shorter It was only a matter of time before someone would see All the pain I had go through, everything inflicted on me I would wear jeans & hoodies to hide the marks I'm sure they would see them because they were so dark The blood that was shed noone else ever saw But I was there, I witnessed it all Over and over another breath that I had loss I didn't know how much time I had left, so I fought Reaching for a way out, but he was always there Blocking me from life, from anything with light Another day has come, but how many more would I see As I was now black and blue, so much I even bleed So many scars and marks that had been laid upon me But the worst one of all is this memory I always see I was told that I would be able to move on That one day all these memories would be gone Those are the lies that I had to hear Because the memories still remain Memories so bad, they still bring me to tears The nightmares that haunt me still Knowing that he had the power and will My life has been affected in so many ways However this is one memory I wish that would fade How come when its over it never truely is How can a human being even do something like this? This is my reoccuring nightmare that never goes away I'm hoping that one day I won't have to relive it ever again But until that day comes, I'm stuck with my reoccuring nightmare Kate_Mcfee (Lily's Mom) |
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LaGraceLa Member
since 2011-01-30
Posts 243Minnesota, USA |
Despite the length of this poem, I was still captivated. It held my attention and played with my emotions. An extremely difficult situation was revealed in this story, and it happens all too often. Congratulations on being able to write such a horrible, disgusting event so beautifully, it is not an easy task. At some points I was a little confused as to what was happening, but that is easily worked on. All in all, wonderful job |
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voice2bheard Senior Member
since 2007-10-19
Posts 591New York |
thank you I'm glad you liked it, I've actually been writing since I was 14 & I haven't written in a while and that was actually one of the hardest poems for me to right being an actual event in my life Kate |
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