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voice2bheard
Senior Member

since 2007-10-19

Posts 591
New York

0 posted 2010-06-10 01:50 AM

I'm scared of heaights

Yet I sit 50 feet above the ground

Below me is nothing but rocks and water

One wrong move and everythings gone

Theres nothing new though

Its just like everyone else in my life

I don't want to deal with the pain anymore

Just please take everything away from me

Why do I always have suck horrid thoughts?

Obviously there has to be something wrong with me

Yet as I try to face my fears

Noone listens, noones here

Therefore that is my advantage

To be able to do this on my own

To not have anyone tell me what to do

Or where to go so noone knows

Poeple come in and out of my life

So why let them in when they'll just leave?

I don't want anyone else in my life

I'm sick of getting hurt

I'm sick of being lied to

Why don't you people do what you do best

Leave me alone and not care at all

Never care until somethings "wrong"

I won't throw myself out there

I won't get let down again

If anyone is going to hurt me, it'll be myself

You say you care about me, but really don't

There's things you'll say you'll do, then you won't

I can't stand dealing with the pain anymore

Nothing to do, noone to see

Why stay when theres nothing to live for?

I'm not sure what else to say?

I don't want to be here anymore

I'm not okay

Just let me go, say goodbye

Noone cares, I'm done

There's no point, I don't want the pain

It all needs to be over with now

These are my last words, or are they somehow?

Kate

voice2bheard
Senior Member

since 2007-10-19

Posts 591
New York

1 posted 2010-06-10 01:52 AM

Not really wanting to be here in this world anymore, trying to figure out what the point of being here is ?

Kate

easy1
Senior Member

since 2010-05-22

Posts 1209
Southeastern USA

2 posted 2010-06-10 12:38 PM

I chose Icon 54 for this posted reply because "Why does Icon Bambi live?"

Manic-Depression really is a frustratng mess, but, have hope, things will get better. It takes serious intelligence to write like you do.

voice2bheard
Senior Member

since 2007-10-19

Posts 591
New York

3 posted 2010-06-10 11:18 PM

thanks but its more like I've been dealing with it for years but thats not the reason why I write, I write because I enjoy it and I know its something I'm good at. It helps me express myself and to keep me from doing "things I shouldn't be doing" I've been writing since I was 11, but I know my hard thing is being able to open myself up, without shutting down, but I believe that I've gotten better over the years, but however theres still things that need to be improved I know that but thank youI'm glad you enjoyed!

Kate

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