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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738
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I tried to make myself noticed. I wore a santa hat with braids. and a long red ruffled coat over my black jeans and prayed she noticed I wore Santa boots. I took them off, so she would see that I wore faces on the toes and jingled bells as I would walk and that my cheeks were painted, "rose". But she looked right through me as she asked me drugs? I did last night and did I sleep at all? I died. I showed her my feet and I laughed as if that hadn't hurt. Again. I told her simply, "I can't win." Cathy's socks, and Cathy's hat on the wrong person and that was what I got for Christmas, proved... I was not the person, true the stones of my mother she watched us all like we were ghosts. I was never good enough. Even my kicks in the womb were answered with a punch. I've been crying for three weeks whimpered Daddy in my sleep: tell me what to do... She never wanted me at all. I was "the thing" that made her stall in her quest for her career she never even felt me near when I was inside of her. Mother? I am sorry I wore the clothes and that I tried to be the one I never could wear her shoes and be that good. And now that I am thinking, I think that she could not, as well. But I swear I'll try like hell to make you see me once again. Even if you still want me stillborn like you dreamed and grieve every time you look at me and I am not there... My mother? Were you stoned? Oh, yes. I'm betting that you were. |
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1slick_lady Member Ascendant
since 2000-12-22
Posts 6088standing on a shadow's lace |
"I've been crying for three weeks whimpered Daddy in my sleep: tell me what to do..." your ache vibrates my skin muchmuchlovetoyoutoo |
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brian sites Senior Member
since 2002-06-25
Posts 1475usa |
this holiday.... has sharp edges for both sides sigh hugggggggg luwowaiwe |
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vlraynes Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-25
Posts 8229Somewhere... out there... |
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Marc-Andre Senior Member
since 2008-12-07
Posts 501 |
A powerful poem. Mark |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
As a perpetual distant second, I know this bone-deep ache. Well written! |
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