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icebox
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since 2003-05-03

Posts 4383
in the shadows

0 posted 2008-05-26 02:46 PM

It is cold here
in an endless night
easy to forget,
a jungle is a desert with too much rain,
lonely now
too much awareness
from inner plains of memory,
too little pain
for all that happened,
it could be said it should hurt more
to be dead so far from home;
fear too is cold,
and in passing from all needs of life
I thought we would leave fear,
the crushing weight of knowing
we weren't leaving here in any way that could be understood;
quiet now,
not like endless tearing moments of fire and steel,
I remember
how what I thought was real became a child's dream;
running,
thinking I could hide anywhere inside this shadowed valley
where we died as we were busy killing for no reason
but for the rage at being killed,
at least no reason that survived;
we are waiting,
friends and enemies,
each quiet with our own separate agenda,
some around me I have recognized across what must be years
since the jungle has returned,
and there are trees where I once stood
on blasted ruined ground
mixed out of ashes,
mud,
debris and blood,
shadow memories of fire's
licking tongues without heat,
soft recall of madness
in this waking dream through which I pass
awaiting understanding that may finally take me out of here,
at last;
cold,
so very cold,
sun's heat passes through me without stopping.
I believe
one day I will leave behind this place of green horror
forgotten honor fertilized with death,
where nothing was resolved,
nothing lasting was attained,
where our blood is slowly washed away
every time it rains.

©2004, revised 2008 by icebox

Margherita
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since 2003-02-08

Posts 22236
Eternity

1 posted 2008-05-26 05:08 PM

Oh, dear Charlie, I shiver and I am speechless for the powerful impact of this poem. For how many you speak who can't express what they experienced! You have written an outstanding piece about the horror of war.

I hope this write is published.

Love,
Margherita

steavenr
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since 2003-11-17

Posts 4058

2 posted 2008-05-26 08:05 PM

powerful, poignant write...you words moved me through so many levels...found this one phrase so captivating..."forgotten honor fertilized with death"...felt as though I was right there with you...excellent

Martie

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since 1999-09-21

Posts 28049
California

3 posted 2008-05-26 08:48 PM

where nothing was resolved,
nothing lasting was attained,
where our blood is slowly washed away
every time it rains.

unboundpoetess
Member

since 2008-05-24

Posts 477

4 posted 2008-05-27 06:43 PM

Powerful. Each syllable struck like a fist in the gut. You took me somewhere I never wanted to be and made me look.

~H

Midnitesun

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since 2001-05-18

Posts 28647
Gaia

5 posted 2008-05-27 08:24 PM

Thank you, dearest C, for this. I am struggling to get beyond the lump in my throat to utter something, but must leave it to a whispered thank you, dearest man.

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