I found it dufficult to go on
far too young to die.
Dear God How I cried.

Only 43.
Dear God, let mommas cousin be set free.
I know you are in Heaven now.
and To Jesus and His Angels you do bow.


set free from your pain,
and yrou woe and you shame.
Look down cousin on me.
From Heaven where thou art free.


Dedicated to my mothers COusin, Janice Hendrix

1945-1989

who died of mysterious circumstances.
for the PIP talk record. there is one here who knows there, well maybe more,

One I can confirm who knows EXACTLY who I am

Passing Shadows, we met at another website.

and yes another also I can confirm who has been with a friend at that particualr website

consoling her concerning her children.

I believe HopeS is aware of Who I am

"Janice Hendrix" gave it away.


Janice Hendrix was my mothers first cousin.

She and I both have the same condition.

we are both bipolar.


Janice, I miss you, and I love you so much.

and as God is my witness, I would surrendr both my legs and my left arms if it would bring you back to me
to see yrou beautiful face one more time i this lifetime

you are a major inspiration I am a writer today.

and if my surrendering my career as a writer would bring you back to me in this lifetime
Perhaps I would even do that.

May you find comfort i nthe arms of Gods Angels
I miss and love you so much.

and I tell you right now. a lot of people saw me at my higher and prouder moments,



Perhaps they were under the impression that I was somehow immune from my weak and vulnerable moments


http://youtube.com/watch?v=HU1OaCglgw0

but I guarantee you this is ABSOLUTELY NOT the case

for when my daddy died of cancer a year ago. and my grandmother died 3 years ago of alzheimers, that hurt too.

I am jsut thankful to my God that there were somebody there when i needed somebody.