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Spine Grinder
Senior Member

since 2000-10-28

Posts 1127
Standing In Silence...

0 posted 2007-07-02 10:38 PM

When the light fades,
I draw my last breath,
And exhale the sweet freedom,
That was given to me all my life.

         But it means nothing now.
         Nor shall it ever again.

My world has changed,
I'm damaged past repair.
This rift, this tear,
Ripped straight through my soul-
Rendering me helpless, and full of despair.

         All I feel is PAIN.
         All I feel is REGRET.
         All I feel is SHAME.
But ultimately,
         All I feel is SADNESS.

Sadness that dwells so deeply inside me,
it's locked in my heart,
Forever to be a part,
Of this never-ending cycle.

This cycle of self-accusation,
self-examination,
and this ever-growing madness,
that I call my thoughts.

Such self-deprecation,
I would've never guessed.
If it wasn't for this addiction,
I wouldn't have been stressed.

'Cuz once that seed was planted,
The war was already won.
You took me for granted,
And you just didn't care-
How much damage was done.

         But it means nothing now.

         Nor shall it..ever again.

"The more you suffer, the more it shows you really care.." ~ The Offspring

"Oh every time I close my eyes...I lock it down..oh.." ~ Nelly & Tim Mcg

Dominique-Simone
Senior Member

since 2005-11-12

Posts 643

1 posted 2007-07-02 11:03 PM

How very sad. One day it will all make sense, just not today.

dgvarner
Member Elite

since 2000-05-13

Posts 3552
High Springs, Florida

2 posted 2007-07-02 11:43 PM

well written lines here...

hope this sadness scrubs off sooner than later friend poet...

hugs, g

"...Never regret anything that made you smile..."

Gentle Spirit
Member Patricius

since 2000-10-09

Posts 13989

3 posted 2007-07-03 03:30 PM

oh neice of mine, I feel this and you KNOW I do and the only thing I can tell you is the darkness comes to visit, just keep looking towards the light and remember this also...depression may try to come and visit, and bring with it Ms. Misery but? Kick both of the lil rips out, they aint welcome round these parts!! you know I know this Stac...and you know where I'm at if you need...now and always...and? strength girl........I see much strength in your words...

No more hangin' on to the past
No more filling up my tomorrows
With yesterday's sorrows
No more lookin' over my shoulder {T.Tritt}

Gifted
Member

since 2007-06-26

Posts 140
Caribbean

4 posted 2007-07-03 03:50 PM

WHOA.  Very nice.  I could really feel the emotion in this.  You had many powerful lines, but this one stood out to me the most:

"My world has changed,
I'm damaged past repair.
This rift, this tear,
Ripped straight through my soul-
Rendering me helpless, and full of despair."

That was so nice.  The whole poem flowed very nicely.  However, some of the rhymes seemed a little forced for me, but it was still good.

Don't worry though these feelings are only temporary, but they feel like they last a lifetime.  Just don't let it take over you.

Just take out your mouth gard, swirl some water in your mouth and spit it out, loosen up your neck, put back in your mouth guard, and get ready for round two.  DING DING!!

Peace. Love. Forgiveness.
Blessings and Guidance

Sunshine

Administrator

Member Empyrean

since 1999-06-25

Posts 63354
Listening to every heart

5 posted 2007-07-04 03:19 PM

Staci,

You certainly have a way of bringing one's painful memories back to them.  Of course, the good news is, for all the rain of tears, we are slowly, but certainly, washed clean, and believe it or not, renewed.

I know you will weather this growth...and one day someone will come in that will never go out.

They're known as :keepers:.

God bless, little one.  You did a very good job in expressing the pain.

Kudos!

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