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Mistletoe Angel 
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
(This is a new song I wrote which is based on my recent struggles with Orthorexia nervosa, an eating disorder based on eating purely, and how such decisions, as admirable as they can be, can also lead to self-injury if not controlled, as I have been struggling to do recently, which in extreme cases could affect other interests and parts of your lifestyle as well, and even impair relationships. Although thankfully my case hasn't gotten that critical, my weight has plunged sharply since I moved to Portland three years ago (I used to weigh about 160 then, now I weigh 124, which is within the 5% group for someone of my age and height) and sometimes I've went two days without eating even when I'm aware it's unhealthy because I'm always active, so I've been seeking the advice of others to adjust more pragmatically to this life decision and to seek balance. This song touches on more of the emotional and personal side to the struggle, that one is truly wearing thin in the process, not just physically but rationally and emotionally as well, and I truly hope out of this I don't set a bad example for other young readers in encouraging others to eat and live in a limiting and discriminating manner, but rather I strongly urge more than anything for balance to be achieved in lifestyle in general, as I am making an effort at doing recently. ) *  Wearing Thin By: Noah Eaton 4/25/07 I’ve been told, it’s always better to live with reality, or the tables will turn, and reality will come to live with you eventually, I can stand in a crowd, no one notices the price that I have paid, Splendor has never touched my tongue, but insecurity stings with aspartame, fixating too long on the righteous everyday… Standing there, no one can see I’m inside-out, but every time you turn around, I’m only wearing thin… …everywhere, you can see the traffic pour, while I place my feet carefully on the floor, constantly wearing thin… I heard a friend, say "You have so many things yet to do in life, and you need the health, strength and vitality to do it!", or I might be tangled like a kite out of flight, I was long worried about cyclamates and synthetics, that I began forgetting what it means to live, don’t want to become someone counting their bones, just to confirm I’m still myself under my skin, when our choices are skeletal thick and thin, our choices are skeletal thick and thin… Standing there, no one can see I’m inside-out, but every time you turn around, I’m only wearing thin… …everywhere, you can see the traffic pour, while I place my feet carefully on the floor, constantly wearing thin… You remind me I never come back, no, you don’t come back all the way, one foot is always partially in the mirror, that’s just the chance we’re left to take, you remind me there’s always some distance, between you and others that can’t be described, the real test is keeping your head out of the reflection, and realize there’s a better way of getting by. Standing there, no one can see I’m inside-out, but every time you turn around, I’m only wearing thin… …everywhere, you can see the traffic pour, while I place my feet carefully on the floor, constantly wearing thin… …our choices are skeletal thick and thin, our choices are skeletal thick and thin, our choices are skeletal thick and thin… "If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other" Mother Teresa |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
This condition is far more prevalent than most people know. I understand how this condition can come about. I became rather neurotic about what I put into my mouth. The more I read about how our bodies were being adversely affected by the hormones, pesticides, antibiotics, herbicides and other such chemicals, the less I wanted to eat. ~ Mind you, my stomach usually over-ruled my thoughts and I ate the food anyway! ~ in moderation. I am more of a middle of the road eater who makes healthy choices without driving myself ~ or my loved ones ~ crazy!  I have compassion for what you have been going through. Noah, if you keep losing weight like that, all that will be left will be you halo, wings, and some mistletoe. Moderation in all things is the way I try to live my life. Balance is key to a happy life. You song from the heart ~ touched my own.  Love you, Angel Boy! Linda |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Nice Noah...James |
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Margherita Member Seraphic
since 2003-02-08
Posts 22236Eternity |
Dear Noah, I am impressed by this write and sorry for this experience you are having. May you find your balance. After all, you need your energy for the Dance Dance Revolution! Your considerations may help others to avoid such eating disorder. This need for purity can become too extreme, our body can adjust to and elaborate more things than we could guess... May you find the golden middle way. Love and light. Margherita  |
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Paul Wilson
since 2002-07-07
Posts 4711United States |
Noah...I pray you will get control of this terrible problem and continue writting your songs and poems for a long time...Paul ~~To share my poems with you is to share my heart with you~~ |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
It is indicative of your powers as a poet that this touches me so when I'm on the other side of the weight fight... for you're so right... it is a balance. Some find that balance easily... others lose everything as they seek... others never even get it within their sights. *S* Excellent, thought-provoking write, my friend... please take care of you!! |
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