Open Poetry #40 |
sitting on the backdeck at midnite |
outlawthunder Member
since 2007-04-10
Posts 67 |
sitting on the backdeck at midnite i touched the moon tonight sat out on the backdeck at midnite i always sit here at midnite i've touched moons snows rains light heavy thunders so loud make you deaf i always sit here at midnite longtime ago she was six a beautiful daughter loved all of life she spread it out that way gave us all such reason for being she our sun moon and stars all wrapped in one bundle of innocence'n'love did i forget to mention? i always sit here at midnite my job my wife's job seemed it all fit made sense had just the right amount of balance it all fit like a glove family an absolutely priceless natural way about it God she was it the core of all of us till he came along he happened by on the inter state and saw her playing a little girl in her fenced-in back yard having fun with her day every day was her day which made it our day every day oh how everyday was our day so while we went about our business carrying on this evil monster called male human being pulled off the highway to start his plans to take the road, HIS road, to hell only he was going to take her with him on the day in question our little one was out playing on the swingset in the backyard i had gone inside to answer the phone my wife had gone to the store for groceries the routine of it would bore you if you had no family but this was just plain wonderful a weekend with everything and everyone so normal all was so really simple normal and i made a mistake a mistake that would murder my soul blow my heart's flame out never to be relit not now not ever never two minutes all it took over the fence raced in behind her grabbed her over the fence a perfect snatch'n' grab car waiting missing gone i walked outside so full of normal and wanting to start the week end barbecue all for a beautiful day with family i saw an empty swing barely moving in the back and forth i saw the gate shut i saw the grass picture routine but the picture was missing someone she was gone i was calling her name my wife got home had the groceries and forget them so fast when she saw my face the panic the fright long and short of it many days and nights of searching volunteers police a local state fbi there was no letup and she was gone my heart turned to granite to cold brick to broken shambles to shattered nerves to raging blood flow with nowhere to go with it no one to aim for to grab it was at this point my wife snapped broken of spirit and life she took her life on the backdeck one shot to the side of her beautiful head now so full of grief and guilt gone mad been a long time a nightmare never to end and i come out on this deck every nite at midnite to peer into the dark the eternal dark the black of death crying exploding with grief for both of them to walk out of the dark back into my light a fading light but she would need to know i was here no matter what i would be here waiting for her when she got home can't look at the inter state anymore won't touch the swingset but i always find my way to the backdeck at midnite waiting for who will never come never come back again to call me daddy to love me wife to laugh giggle share all days all ways kind no way this could but it did all i have now is sitting on the backdeck at a midnite eternal as black as black can and will ever be... OUTLAWTHUNDER |
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Drauntz Member Elite
since 2007-03-16
Posts 2905Los Angeles California |
What a beautiful poem and what a sad story. cried with you. |
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Margherita Member Seraphic
since 2003-02-08
Posts 22236Eternity |
Welcome to Pip! Your heartwrenching, well written first poem shortened my breath. This is really too much to bear even for the strongest hearts! Love, Margherita |
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outlawthunder Member
since 2007-04-10
Posts 67 |
thank you, Drauntz best to you always, OUTLAWTHUNDER |
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outlawthunder Member
since 2007-04-10
Posts 67 |
Margherita, there is a LOT more where this came from. our kids need our help to be safer now more than ever, not just from terrorists who fly jets into tall buildings but from the terrorists in our own communities: drug-dealers sex-offenders gangs child abductors thank you for your response, OUTLAWTHUNDER |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Nice writing...James |
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outlawthunder Member
since 2007-04-10
Posts 67 |
thank you, James OUTLAWTHUNDER |
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Startime55 Member Elite
since 2003-04-05
Posts 2148Alberta, Canada |
My soul cried out as tears flowed down my face....why is it the innocent pay such a heavy price....My heart goes out to you....and all who suffer so much pain in a world gone mad....*Big Hugs* |
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MGROVES
since 2004-02-01
Posts 3802california |
nice, memories My spirit will rise |
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outlawthunder Member
since 2007-04-10
Posts 67 |
thank you, Startime55 your comments hit a nerve with me. the innocents pay such a high price because the majority is either too apathetic to the terrorism our children face or simply don't care about anyone but themselves. throwing innocent kids to the vultures'n'vipers is far more than a felony. thank you for your compassion and caring. OUTLAWTHUNDER |
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outlawthunder Member
since 2007-04-10
Posts 67 |
thanks,MGROVES OUTLAWTHUNDER |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
sad write...I read this yesterday and want to welcome you to PIP |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
Hello. I'm trembling so much from reading your gut-wrenching tale, that I can barely key a reply. Is this your story? ~ or is it just a compassionate piece of writing about the plight of innocent children? Your first post certainly packed a punch! You are quite the raconteur! Totally engaging and vividly descriptive. Giving you a warm, welcoming hug, Earth Angel |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
I found your first post to be written in such a way that I could not leave it. Where line breaks were set, where the arrow of pain began, all of it worked for me. Welcome to Passions. And while you got the story straight out, I certainly hope it was not the actual case of your own family. Because we do read it in the news far too often, and your insight on the personal side was far too painful... well done. Please, check your email for a very Special Greeting. " It matters not this distance now " Excerpt, Yesterday's Love |
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A Romantic Heart Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-03
Posts 5496Forever In Your Heart |
Welcome to PIP, what a great entrance, pulling our heartstrings. A voice for the innocent children! ~ARH J. M. Barrie, the playwright, may have said it best when he wrote, “God gave us memories so that we might have roses in December.” |
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outlawthunder Member
since 2007-04-10
Posts 67 |
thank you, passing shadows best to you always, OUTLAWTHUNDER |
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outlawthunder Member
since 2007-04-10
Posts 67 |
Earth Angel, in my work i have worked with families who have lost their kids to abduction/murder and abduction never finding them. there is nothing more to say except, Lord, please embrace them all with something called peace and love eternal. thank you for reading and commenting, OUTLAWTHUNDER |
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outlawthunder Member
since 2007-04-10
Posts 67 |
Sunshine,I am deeply honored by your e-mail and thank you so much for your comments. funny, a person of words now speechless... thank you, and best to you always OUTLAWTHUNDER |
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outlawthunder Member
since 2007-04-10
Posts 67 |
thank you, ~ARH best to you always, OUTLAWTHUNDER |
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