Open Poetry #40 |
stubborn (just like you) |
serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
a great big hand I thought was "puce" as if I had a palette, that had mixed the browns of her with pink and there were times I saw her think: yellowing beneath her brow and I just knew I shouldn't ask about the shades her tears had plowed hollows, all around her eyes and *blink* "You, you are my good luck child" and now she won't she don't know me and I am oh so slippery afraid my mama's gonna die and nothing will be light again the sun is gonna freaking fry and kill my family...as I shake my head in disbelief it wasn't scheduled 'till July as if I had a hand in it as if I had one damned good eye in the middle of the two both of them in paint of blue as my third one cried the truth wishing it were not so crude and maybe not so brown and round in the middle of the blues praying to be blind and you not so eager for the rude awakenings of me and crude sharpenings of teeth in tweed as viewed upon the evening news afraid my mama's gonna die as if I had a hand in it... I forgot to bring chapstick your lips were dry and broken bits as I watched a sandy tongue try to fix what can't be fixed. (I winced.) I pray I have another chance and this time I can love you more not as good but better than it never ever was before-- awakenings of you of me and all the similarities and differences of inbetween-- I want to tell you "I love you" and pray you will not laugh at me or cringe or shiver inbetween my lips upon your head as if I were a bad, bad, dream haunting you with memory of congratulations of this child that you had misconceived-- stubborn, just like you. * * * * * With a wide smile of gratitude, I'd like to report that my mother's release from the hospital is being negotiated as I speak. She is semi-ambulatory, but lucid (well, as lucid I am--grin) and although she will still need assistance with oxygen, she should be spending the night in her own bed tonight. We are still cautious, as we know full well that this is an earlier release than would normally be the case--due to the shortage of beds and space in medically depleted New Orleans. I wrote this poem during one of my sleepless nights--can't say when, as I just found it on my notepad. But thank you all for your prayers. My family is exceeding grateful for your love and thoughtfulness. And yes, this time, we get a little more time. Love and Blessings to you all. |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Oh dear Karen~ I am so pleased your mom is coming home. Just remember.. the prayers and positive thoughts shall continue. ~ Time has cast a spell on you, |
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1slick_lady Member Ascendant
since 2000-12-22
Posts 6088standing on a shadow's lace |
"I pray I have another chance and this time I can love you more not as good but better than it never ever was before-- awakenings of you of me and all the similarities and differences of inbetween-- I want to tell you "I love you" " i write this in joytears of all the verse i have read of yours this to me is the purest and MOST beautiful it is a creed a creed of life and of love that we should live by daily i shall copy this part (ifin' ya dont mind) to keep for myself to keep to remind me that this this is the way to love helen |
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The Lady Member Rara Avis
since 2005-12-26
Posts 7634The Southwest |
"my lips upon your head as if I were a bad, bad, dream haunting you with memory of congratulations of this child that you had misconceived-- stubborn, just like you." oh Karen this love between mother and daughter such a fragile frightening thing you speak it well I'm glad she's coming home |
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aziza Member Elite
since 2006-07-09
Posts 2995Lumpy Oatmeal makes me Crazy! |
I have been walking this road in some ways, but my Mother is home and so much better. I am lucky to have her in my life You expressed so many things that I have no words for. This is an amazingly beautiful poem Thank you. A |
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Allysa
since 1999-11-09
Posts 1952In an upside-down garden |
This was wonderful, lady. I am glad she is coming home. |
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latearrival Member Ascendant
since 2003-03-21
Posts 5499Florida |
beautiful words,I would be proud to read them if they were from one of mine.. Prayers still going forth. martyjo |
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iliana Member Patricius
since 2003-12-05
Posts 13434USA |
Dear Ser, this is very good news. I'm so glad for both of you. Wishing her continued speedy recovery and improved health....and wishing both of you the best of second chances. My prayers will continue. ....jo |
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icequeen Senior Member
since 2001-12-09
Posts 633FL USA |
"this child that you had misconceived-- stubborn, just like you." Oh my Blazey friend... your mama.... my mama and my daddy .... your fears, twin to mine. I am so glad that you get to bring your mama home. We know, don't we. We know that it will somehow be ok because we are too stubborn to believe otherwise. You've got my love and prayers to share with your mama~~~ check your email soon... Caroline |
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Sphinxen Junior Member
since 2007-03-03
Posts 38U.S. |
Oh my, that was a very sad piece. Im glad your mother is being released soon. May little bits of light shine in until there is a glow. "No one now dies of fatal truths, there are to many antidotes to them."- Nietzche |
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Honeybunch Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-29
Posts 7115South Africa |
A beautifully heartfelt poem although sad as well. My best for your mother's recovery. |
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Marge Tindal
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
K~ The mantra worked !!! Yes ? YES !! Love ya' ...~ Momma .... stay well !!! YES !!! *Huglets* ~*Me ~*The sound of a kiss is not as strong as that of a cannon, but it's echo endures much longer*~ |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
and my Mother wonders why I call her every night...I tell her do I have to have a reason? I am happy you have more time to share with yours, wishing mine was close. M |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
While my mother was waiting for her papers on Friday, I stood at the foot of her bed and I told her-- "I thought you were dying." My sister confessed: "I told her you were! I told everybody you were!" My mom just grumpily observed: "No wonder everybody was kissin' me!" *glare* (at one point during her stay, my sis had just kissed her and my mother commented, "ya'll are driving me nuts with that shtuff." grin Thanks all. Sometimes I think the Beatles stole lyrics from my mom, 'cause if you tell her you love her? She says "yeah, yeah, yeah" It's very good to have her back, and she won't say so, but she is grateful for the prayers as well. |
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Gentle Spirit Member Patricius
since 2000-10-09
Posts 13989 |
I am glad to hear this news Seren, and I am glad to see that beautiful smile on you. Check your e when you get time, ok K? |
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Nightshade
since 2001-08-31
Posts 13962just out of reach |
(((((( hugs )))))) |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
It's wonderful you've both been given more time together, to share Love's gifts. Hugs to you Karen, and all who live and breathe within your heart's domain. |
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Janette
since 2001-07-20
Posts 2843Chicagoland for now |
A daughter's love expressed in your own unique way ... a wonderful read here Karen. Best wishes for the additional time you get to share with your Mother, those moments are indeed precious, savor them. I am envious for my Mother had a sudden heart attack and then was gone, no time left. always seeking joy, adventure and romance and wishing you find the same |
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Stephanos
since 2000-07-31
Posts 3618Statesboro, GA, USA |
Karen, A very thoughtful poem, (with a slight that is actually endearing). I always enjoy your style. Stephen. |
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LeeJ Member Patricius
since 2003-06-19
Posts 13296 |
Karen very very sorry to hear of the trials and tribulations...but so happy she is coming home...bless you all and the poem, I think you should read it to her...she should know of her daughters talent, poignancy and love. Hugs |
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