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rebelangelv
Senior Member

since 2007-05-28

Posts 538
usa

0 posted 2007-12-04 11:01 PM

This feelings is overwhelming
This feeling of size
Always looking in the mirror
Always ready to criticize

I feel the bulge
And want it to come back out my throat
But purging hurts so much
And my parents are home

Dieting doesn’t seem to work
It only causes stress
Why does it not work?
This whole thing is such a mess

Exercise only makes more muscle
And that just makes me look larger
I like to be fit
But I don't need to be any stronger

People tell me that it’s just unhealthy
To take those many pills
But if nothing else works
Maybe these will

The thing I want the most
Is to get that surgery
But I’m only a teenager
They won’t let me

The only thing that seems to help
Is a little thing I call starvation
It really actually works
But I’m chained by determination

This kind of diet
Always leaves me in chains
I know that it’s not good
But I don’t want to change

Id like to not battle with this
But I don’t like to eat
It’s better to be thin
So this disease I'll keep

I honestly am fat
I know I’m not crazy
These girls are already thin
They don’t have a reason to starve like me

The only catch to this
Is that people always keep an careful eye
On all that I eat
And everything I intake

If it seems like I’m trying not to
They all start to worry
Its my life let me live it
Just let me be

Maybe one day ill finally be satisfied
When I’m as thin as I want to be
Then I can have a normal diet
and can say that beauty describes me

december 2007

If i had to choose between you and breathing, id use my last breath to say "I love you"

buttercupbaby
Member

since 2006-05-03

Posts 400
outside in the rain

1 posted 2007-12-04 11:36 PM

you're gorgeous already, an your many wonderful poems express how beautiful your personality is. :]

we all struggle with self appearance, but i hope you don't struggle too long, cause as long as you have a kind heart, it truly is all that matters.

this poem was magnif in describing something so many go through. good job. :-)

rebelangelv
Senior Member

since 2007-05-28

Posts 538
usa

2 posted 2007-12-04 11:37 PM

thanx butterbup

its really sweet

If i had to choose between you and breathing, id use my last breath to say "I love you"

Assassin_of_Verse
Member

since 2007-10-23

Posts 330
that So Cal

3 posted 2007-12-05 03:33 AM

The beauty of writing is that you tend to compare the writer to their work.

Judging by your poetry, I say you're beautiful.
-Andrew

P.S. I think this applies to art, music, and other forms of expression.

We are each of us angels with only one wing. And we can only fly by embracing each other.
-Luciano De Creshenzo

An assassin-in-training shouldn't.

surf_painter
Member

since 2007-04-10

Posts 434
Canada

4 posted 2007-12-05 03:45 PM

my what a powerful poem

rebelangelv
Senior Member

since 2007-05-28

Posts 538
usa

5 posted 2007-12-05 07:31 PM

thanks u guys :}

If i had to choose between you and breathing, id use my last breath to say "I love you"

hunnie_girl

Member Elite

since 2006-06-18

Posts 2567
Canada

6 posted 2007-12-06 01:03 AM

O hunn this is amazing... It was so powerful I know kinda how you feel... sorta but well I hope things go well 4 u starving yourself is not healthy and you know what crash diets dont work... Be who you want to be hunn not who you think other ppl want you to be... plus you're my gorgeous friend

love ya
Krysti

jbal892
Member

since 2007-11-25

Posts 58

7 posted 2007-12-06 06:19 PM

i really like this poem! i dont know if you are going through that or not but if you are go ahead and read on, i thought i might give you a little advice from a guy to a girl, otherwise dont even bother with this unless if you just want to read lol.

I've talked to alot of girls who have dealt with "oh my god I'm too fat..i gotta lose weight" and all that drama before. Honestly, to me, from a guy's perspective, a girl that is THAT unhealthily skinny isn't attractive. While I've never seen a picture of you or even met you before, I'm sure you are beautiful. If someone is telling you to lose weight because you're "too fat" and "out of shape" don't pay any attention to them, just blow them off. They aren't worth the trouble they are causing you.

rebelangelv
Senior Member

since 2007-05-28

Posts 538
usa

8 posted 2007-12-08 01:35 AM

thanx u guys....and dont worry im no where near unhealthy skinny. its still hard a lot of times tho u know. and its like once u get into it...its practically impossible to get out...even if u stop u still remember...and it never really goes away....but u guys r so sweet. i lov eu all :]

If i had to choose between you and breathing, id use my last breath to say "I love you"

Artic Wind
Member Rara Avis

since 2007-09-16

Posts 8080
Realm of Supernatural

9 posted 2007-12-12 09:30 PM

Enjoyed ALOT!

ARCTIC WIND

rebelangelv
Senior Member

since 2007-05-28

Posts 538
usa

10 posted 2007-12-12 09:39 PM

thanx!

If i had to choose between you and breathing, id use my last breath to say "I love you"

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