The Lover That I Left Behind

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passing shadows
Member Empyrean

since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
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0 posted 2009-03-04 11:18 PM

He had dreams of life with me,
even after I left the state,
he didn't want to believe that we
would never be, it was too late.

He tried to save his money
to move up here and get a place,
insisting he call me honey,
said he couldn't wait to see my face.

Then I told him I got married
and I found out from a friend
all his dreams then miscarried
and he brought his life to end.

So here I sit in this guilt,
feels like a bullet in my mind
after crumbling the dreams he built
I may as well just be confined

the heart I broke, life up in smoke,
the lover that I left behind.

ethome
Member Patricius

since 2000-05-14

Posts 11858
New Brunswick Canada

1 posted 2009-03-05 03:45 AM

Hey PS
You have no reason to feel guilty.
He obviously wasn't mentally able to handle losing you.
You didn't give birth to his mental defects. He was simply a product of this life where things go wrong sometimes.
Yes, it's sad, of course it's sad just like this poem.
However, it's not your fault.

Hey, that's only if this is a true story/poem.....(smile)...

Good write.

Eric

Roniece Dawson-Bruce
Member Ascendant

since 2000-01-29

Posts 5689
Sydney, Australia

2 posted 2009-03-05 05:49 AM

Dixie.. your poems always touch me... this one is a sad one.. I'm sorry for your loss.

RDB

Be kind at heart....for everyone you meet has their own battle to fight.........

Pilgrimage
Member Elite

since 2001-12-04

Posts 3945
Texas, USA

3 posted 2009-03-05 09:56 AM

You can't be responsible for the fragility of another. But it would be a real shock for something like that to happen, I fully understand that. The poem shows his instability, and your feelings, well.

Nan (Pilgrim variety)

Juju
Member Elite

since 2003-12-29

Posts 3429
In your dreams

4 posted 2009-03-05 10:22 AM

Sad

-Juju

-"So you found a girl
Who thinks really deep thoughts
What's so amazing about really deep thoughts " Silent all these Years, Tori Amos

SEA

Moderator

Member Seraphic

since 2000-01-18

Posts 22676
with you

5 posted 2009-03-05 01:31 PM

no..this isn't on you Angel...not in the least.

Please don't let this weigh so heavy on your heart.

Dark Stranger
Member Patricius

since 2001-03-19

Posts 13631
West Coast

6 posted 2009-03-05 02:38 PM

ms Dixie..for every one we love there are a few we don't make the meld with...it is like the days of the year, some rain and some are sunny...but we can't blame the sky.

enjoyed your words

Rick
Member Elite

since 2001-06-21

Posts 2903
Victoria, Australia

7 posted 2009-03-05 11:16 PM

This is so sad Dixie, you can not blame yourself though, you were not happy, if you were you would have stayed, we can not see into other peoples minds or do for them everything that they want, days are lived and choices are make. Live each day the best that you can my friend, I hope that fate brings good things to you now.

Rick

HopeS
Member Elite

since 2000-12-22

Posts 4596
Perth Western Australia

8 posted 2009-03-06 03:25 AM

Dixie my friend , you did what you had to do , don't go blaming you

Hope

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