I would like to start off by first saying that this probably would go better under the feelings forum, however, I'm old school passions and I just feel better about posting it in the Alley. Sorry guys.
Ok. So, this is my second year in college, and I have to say that although I'm experiencing some of the best times of my life, I'm also experiencing some of the worst.
First off, I'm in some pretty big finacial battles. School is expensive, especially when you are trying to pay for it yourself. My Dad, I love him so much, works as hard as he can so my Mom doesn't have to, and he simply can't afford to help me out. I've been drawing out loans left and right, and the newest problem is that my school has decided to put a hold on my college account, which I use to purchase books for classes. So, I have no funds whatsoever, and I just started a new semester with five new classes. They told me, well, you can use a credit card or cash to purchase your books. I said, if I had that kind of money, I wouldn't owe you people anything. I didn't get much of a response past it's your problem. It's so hard to handle this. By myself, I mean. If I told my Dad, he would do everything he could to send me the money. However, I know that he almost went bankrupt last month, and can't afford it. I...just don't know what to do. My parents are so proud of me...I want to do everything I can. I have to get these books in order to pass my classes. It's like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.
Next, my Mother ... is having emotional problems. It could be Bi-polar disorder, it could be menopause...it could be a lot of things. But my Dad is depressed about it, My sister just got a new house, and then her husband was in a near fatal car accident and they are in the middle of a court battle...and to top it all off, over the summer I was told that I most likey wouldn't be able to have children, and I have to take medications for some rare disorder that onle ten percent of women have. It really never ends...no one is there for me or able to help me. And I know that none of you can take my problems away...but I just need someone to lend a shoulder, say, I'm praying for you, I'm thinking about you, don't give up. Thats all I have to say, I guess.
"Glory remains unaware of my neglected dwelling where alone
I sing my tearful song which has charms only for me."