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lilibeelee
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since 2001-07-12

Posts 143

0 posted 2001-07-31 10:10 PM

This depression is pulling me down
into a pool of ampitamy, Im starting to drownd

Frustration tears is all i know
So angry at me, more then words can show

Always been told I wouldnt be there
Screaming out loud, life is empty and bare

Frustrations with myself contiune to stay
I don't know how I make it from day to day

So many things, so out of my control
feelings of sadness within my soul
My happiness my smile someone stole

Words want to be spoken, but nothing comes out
This is the result of you and your doubts

Anger seems to be my personality
I just want to be alone, let me be

I can't describe at times how angry I get
I can't belive all these feelings,so hard when they hit

I don't know who Iam anymore, it's like i've turned different, someone Im not
Depression is a battle I have always faught

Never fit in just like a regular kid
Always wanting a friend, and wishing i did

Watching everyone else around me
watching everyone else around happy

Watching them pass me like noone is there
Watching them step all over me, they didn't care

Being made fun of, exepted as a freak
Being made fun of, nothing more then a geek

I want to prove them all wrong
I want to be strong

It's hard to pull out when your already in
Iam sick of these ongoing stugles of depresion

I want to snap out of it wake up, be told its not real
It's hard to let go of reality and how you feel

Depresed little noone forever I'll stay
"who's that nothing girl?" is all they'd say

The saying sticks and stones my break my bones but words will never hurt me
That saying is wrong,its not real its not reality

what people say doesnt matter right?
it doesnt matter what they think, or see in there sight

It's been my whole life hearing these names
Iam sick of people and there games

It's been my whole life I have heard you say
"Don't worry about that nothing girl, its okay."

After so long it tears and pulls on my heart
It rips it, shatters it breaks it apart

Till all theres left is peices imposible to mend
I dont want to go another day and just pretend

anonymous albert ?

Member Elite

since 2001-03-23

Posts 2979

1 posted 2001-07-31 10:14 PM

"This depression is pulling me down
into a pool of ampitamy, Im starting to drownd...So many things, so out of my control
feelings of sadness within my soul
My happiness my smile someone stole...I can't describe at times how angry I get
I can't belive all these feelings,so hard when they hit...Till all theres left is peices imposible to mend
I dont want to go another day and just pretend"

*sighs*...i relate.

if i die before i wake...i pray the Lord my soul to take

Alysia182
Junior Member

since 2001-06-22

Posts 19
CT

2 posted 2001-07-31 10:17 PM

I can relate to this poem so much. I know how you feel. I hate being depressed. Nothing can fix it!! Oh well... nothing I can do about it. Awesome poem!

Some day, you will ache like I ache! ~Hole

Spice
Senior Member

since 2001-04-13

Posts 1266
Resting in my cardboard box.

3 posted 2001-07-31 11:36 PM

I liked this alot.
I'm beginning to become a huge fan of you writing.
The emotion is always so raw and deep. this is written so well. Don't refer to yourself as the "nothing girl" though... You are so much more than that.

Another great post.
Till your next one... Off I go.

Low Man's Lyric
Member

since 2001-04-03

Posts 236
In a dream

4 posted 2001-08-01 12:46 PM

Wow, I really enjoyed this poem. Been there done that, I can relate to your poem very much so.

"Right now I'm having amnesia and deja vu at the same time. I think I've forgotten this before."
~Steven Wright

Jessica

Member

since 2001-06-28

Posts 350
South AL

5 posted 2001-08-01 02:17 AM

Words want to be spoken, but nothing comes out
This is the result of you and your doubts

^ my favorite lines... This was great. I know exactly how you feel...

Dopey Dope

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Member Patricius

since 2000-08-30

Posts 11132
San Juan, Puerto Rico

6 posted 2001-08-02 06:27 PM

I enjoyed this much. I hope to read more from you soon.

I was born myself, raised myself, and will continue to be myself. The world will just have to adjust.

Somewhere out there a cow is laughing at you

Ina
Senior Member

since 2000-10-09

Posts 1236
Quebec, Canada

7 posted 2001-08-02 07:16 PM

your poem was extermly sad. as a friend has told me more than once, try to keep your head up.

Regina

Fading Away

Member Elite

since 2001-03-14

Posts 3131
Lynchburg, Virginia

8 posted 2001-08-04 04:46 PM

wow.. very sad. This really touched me... I really connected with this. *hus* I hope all is well.

--Marie

You think yourself a failure, but perhaps the biggest loss is winning.

bOoGaSuGa
Member

since 2001-08-03

Posts 54

9 posted 2001-08-04 04:49 PM

depression is not fun this was a good poem

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