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Rambling (can confuse)
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Rambling (can confuse) |
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themute Member
since 2006-05-08
Posts 469Maryland 
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Questions do bother me Why did I have to be born inquisitive about what I see and feel? It is the inconsistencies that I despise To see with both my senses and mind That the world I see is merely a memory And from time to time I worry of this To see such a world were nothing makes sense Confusion makes the questions fly I look at myself in the mirror How did I get here? In love with a girl, How did I get here? Growing up too fast How did I get here? Running away from these problems How did I get there? Even as I type it bothers me how I’m typing Looking at specific letters and I die in my thoughts Look another of myself it’s just pouring out so fast Clicking and clanking without a care in the world Is there nothing I’m afraid of now but to say what I really feel? Haha look at this now it’s just too priceless Loosing control of that which I feel in my wonderful writing Lose it please lose it I want you to cry just lose it please Patrick I love you you’re my baby come here I’ll never stop loving you, never; you’re my baby I don’t ever want to grow up I want to always be a little boy And I want everything to be like it was when I was only 12 or so And live with everything being and not wonder why I want nothing but to live like a child As free and as regret free as life should be You can come with me and we can live like this forever Jump Patrick come on and jump and we’ll live forever You and me we can learn to fly and live our past Time will stop and we wont let it go by so fast Like how it always has before when we were young And its only getting faster as time goes by I remember when our elementary had its play days And I saw the girl I loved running Jordan, she was such a girl, but now she isn’t as special I have a new girl that is probably the same as she was to me then But it’s more concentrated than then and more mature if that’s what you’d call it She has a boyfriend who she says she loves though So it hurts me deep inside Were we going, is it deeper inside? Mmhmm were going to see how it all began Is it soar still? I think so actually She doesn’t love me for all I do love her for She just puts me away after all we did I should have never loved her I guess The sadness pushes me so far from them all How can I be so sad and so funny to all of them? You can do that instead of hurt people Right But it hurts me more than anyone really They will never know who I am, ever The child is crying in the corner of the darker room He cries himself to sleep one night because he loved her He just wants someone to love him with the love that he can give Maybe someday someone will Maybe |
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Kristabell Senior Member
since 2003-11-29
Posts 678Portland, OR |
ah, you should never punish yourself for loving another. Those feelings cannot be helped. You are a child at heart and at heart is where it matters. The only thing that is different now is how you view the world. Hugs, Kristabell |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
a good heartfelt ramble and I am old  but have similar thoughts sometimes so hang onto your child dreams they can nourish you far into the future |
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themute Member
since 2006-05-08
Posts 469Maryland |
sometimes i just wish things were as simple as they used to be, and to be as carefree as i once was, but i know it only gets farther and farther away and thats alright with me. |
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