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There Were No Tears
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There Were No Tears |
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Mysteria 
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada 
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Sometimes when family members die, "Sorry for your loss" may not apply as the person left behind may be feeling anything but sorry for the loss. For one reason or another the relationship with a parent or sibling was strained and unreconcilable. However, no matter how bad it was there will always be a strange feeling of "bittersweet love" as they were still part of our "family", even if not the way we wished it to be.  There were no tears, should there have been? All that resided within her was a dark, hollow void. She couldn’t put her finger on it to even name it. Was it that she was grieving what could or should have been? It all felt so ethereal more like standing back admiring a long overdue but now finished project. That sense of satisfaction you get when fitting in that final piece to complete a huge jigsaw puzzle. Usually within her resided such love and warmth but not today. She felt as cold as ice. She had never once told him that she loved him. She had tried to but couldn't. The residual of the day was just overwhelming relief. How sad that was all there was. Relief. No tears. It was finally over. Silently she whispered, “I loved you Dad, did you ever love me?” [This message has been edited by Mysteria (12-17-2002 03:57 PM).] |
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Gentle Spirit Member Patricius
since 2000-10-09
Posts 13989 |
Sharon........  Hugs sweetie. Very nice way to put it into words. |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (big hugggssssss) Oh Sharon, this is so very heartaching, sweet friend, my heart goes out to all the children of the world who feel neglected and can't help but wonder what their parents think of them as they need all the love and attention they deserve and thinking of a father who doesn't think of his child breaks my heart! (sad sigh) God Bless You, sweet friend, this is very heartfelt, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Sharon, thank you for sharing! May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton "Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
 In understanding, I will just stand beside you, quietly. |
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Nan
Administrator
Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-20
Posts 21191Cape Cod Massachusetts USA |
And I'm on the other side - We'll hold you up together... He loved you - He just didn't know how to say it.  |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
In silence, just here feeling this one. |
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Martie
Moderator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Sharon Such an honest expression from the heart is a the right thing...hugging you too.  |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
Sharon A 360 degree answer. There are as many anwers as there are childen, Enjoyed. |
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Mysteria
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
Thank each of you for reading this one, and Happy Holidays. |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
some turn the "bitter" into something positive that they can use to overcome and in doing so set an example for others trying to rise above..... Ive seen you turn bitter in to better....and learned from your example. TY for that. Heart-hugs poetess girlie |
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vlraynes Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-25
Posts 8229Somewhere... out there... |
Sharon~ Just lots of BIG hugs to you, my friend. Agreeing with Nan here...he loved you. "...until you have read the verse on his heart, |
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Wind
since 2002-10-12
Posts 2981 |
Ahh Mysteria, you reflect these feelings so well. You are veery heartwarming. I would burst into tears if anyone I knew died, even if I can't stand them. But I know so many people who did not cry. Never be normal! |
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garysgirl
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
This is blood and bone poetry Sharon. I applaud the courageous honesty here. Love you lady. |
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Poet deVine
Administrator
Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-26
Posts 22612Hurricane Alley |
We are a product of our environment and our heritage. His shaped him..as yours shaped you. You turned out GREAT. And I feel sorry that he didn't have a closer relationship with the wonderful Mysteria! |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
Whew! I need a moment to compose myself... I don't know if this was a personal experience for you or not, but my heart is bleeding at this moment. This was certainly expressed well...almost too well!--I really felt this one! ~ Let the healing continue... hugs, Linda |
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CocoBaci Member Elite
since 2000-05-06
Posts 3043 |
SweetMysteria... There are no words that I can put down to convey to you just how special I found your poem to be... HugsNsmiles2Ualways PoetFriend *~coco~* |
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Mysteria
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
I thank you all for your comments and yes this is about my Dad who died on the 11th of December but I did not find out until yesterday. I am now faced with managing his affairs and wishes after more years than I care to say that we had not spoken. I feel sorry for what he missed in not knowing the love I feel from my wonderful family. |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
(big hugggsssssss) Oh Sharon, I'm so sorry that I took this poem the wrong way, I thought of this at first as the vision of a boy or girl who is being neglected by their dad! (wipes tears) But I know with all my heart your dad loves you so much and always will, as we all send angel hugs out to you and your whole family! God Bless You All, I hope you can forgive me! Love, Noah Eaton "Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." |
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vandana
since 1999-10-22
Posts 10463USA |
enjoyed  |
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Mysteria
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
Noah you didn't take it wrong at all, thank you for your gentle heart. As a matter of fact you couldn't have been more perceptive. Vandana - thank you. |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
oh my, I came too late on this one, everyone said what I thought of saying. Well, I was here, I read, and I felt. |
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RSWells Member Elite
since 2001-06-17
Posts 2533 |
You know I know. We go on. |
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Gemini Senior Member
since 1999-12-15
Posts 1203Wisconsin, USA |
You'll be in my thoughts and prayers. To say I understand and appreciate what you wrote just doesn't seem to do justice, yet I've had these mixed feelings about when my own father died 26 years ago. You've written a very compelling and heartfelt piece here. Hugs. |
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GOlDsparklESS Member
since 2001-12-13
Posts 428central nj |
oh wow~ compelling. i also know grief very well, even though my mother and i had a very loving relationship. god bless you, as i KNOW your father loves you...for surely his soul is at peace. light and love, manisha |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
I've read many wonderful poems from your pen... but this one leaves the hairs on my arms standing upright and chills running down my spine... it's incredible. And there are times when tears fall as much for what should have been as for what was... mine fall now for you. |
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Salty Senior Member
since 2002-11-23
Posts 669Texas |
Oh this is most heartwrenching, so sad, so real. I am thinking you touched many people with this write. Those that have shared it, and those you just shared it with. I know it touched me. ~Salty In the Midst of movement and chaos, keep stillness inside of you. |
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gemjop Member Elite
since 2002-11-18
Posts 2587Pencilveinia, USA |
he's looking down upon you now,looking after you, he knows, and he still loves you. my thoughts are with you. lots of love, gemma xxxxxxxx learning each day, for you and i, our paths have met, i've already learnt that you are love. |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
I had to come back to this one, after it settled down into my own heart and memory banks. Thank you. I am still struggling with similar feelings, mostly about my mother. |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
... Sharon, I'm sorry, I cannot find the words to express what I am feeling just now... Heart-hugs, Nancy. |
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Mysteria
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
Thank you all so much for your supportive remarks, I do appreciate them. Happy Holidays to you all as well. |
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SmartChick Member Rara Avis
since 2001-09-23
Posts 7081On A Journey To The Unknown |
Oh Sharon, this is so sad. I send you lots of hugs. |
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Laney Member
since 2002-12-18
Posts 85Illinois |
Mysteria--I enjoy your writings very much! You have also been a good friend on PIP...thank you for all your warm welcomes! This poem was very beautiful, and also a tear-jerker. Merry Christmas!! --Alana |
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Honeybee Member Ascendant
since 1999-12-26
Posts 5372Ontario, CANADA |
As always Sharon, you are in my thoughts and prayers and I offer you a simple and heartfelt Take care and you know where to reach me if ever you need anything! Melissa~ "Poetry is not an opinion expressed... |
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SEA
Moderator
Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
this tore at my heart....it's so painful, so sad.... hugs for you |
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