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Anvrill
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0 posted 2002-06-22 01:21 PM


I work graveyard shift at a Tim Horton's. For those not Canadian (which I would guess is most reading this), that's our country's favorite coffee/donut shop. So rich that they can offer their part time help a whole 35 cents more than min. wage/hour. And only making $1.35 more than min wage/hour, I'm one of the richest workers there. Sad, no? I mean, I serve customers AND I bake the muffins (and no, I have no pride; university students needing money never do). But anyway, something happens to your mind when you work without the sun for days and days and days (we're in the middle of a staffing crisis; there's barely any end in sight!).


There's a rumored state;

not a place or a mindset,

but the thing that happens

when the sun falls from the sky.


Now, some would call this night,

while others would just roll their eyes

before rolling over in bed.

Until you have worked

those hours of darkness

standing at a counter

in the same monotonous pattern,

this non-state cannot exist to your mind.


In the first hour,

things are always too busy

for you to notice what's going on.

So the sun creeps down

closer to the horizon,

and with the last customer of the rush,

the darkness has come.

It sits off in its corner,

held back by storelights and streetlights

and houselights and carlights,

growling every once in a while.


Just blink your eyes and find a new task;

looking out the window

isn't required in this job.


Not much of anything

is required in this job,

save the ability to

let your mind go blank.

Drift away and wander

and find sunlit patches

in the dreams and fantasies

on the outskirts of your thoughts.


Add maybe a bit of patience

with the myriad

(yes, thousands)

of drunks and stoned kids

you get in only a month.

Admittedly, they tip well,

but the one who leave behind

their puke and even blood

aren't going to be welcomed back warmly

any time soon.


Even in the back,

a mindless automaton

that scoops muffin batter

and scrapes donuts through icing

and icing off donuts,

who never gets to see a window anyway;

even this poor creature

is caught in this special

in between place.

Bleary-eyed

and only grunting when addressed,

no longer understanding

why people ingest

what this creature creates.


The world and its contents

skip by in a haze;

nothing is real

in this lack of light.

Eight hours dissolve

and you stumble home,

unable to after that

even imagine sleep.



So yeh, I think it's safe to say that I'm sortakindaabit spacy right now. Wheeeee. I just spent FOUR nights serving drunks (which I hate, hate, HATE), and finished up my first of three in the back. Then three days off (deep breath, sigh of relief), then at least four more back on again, then we'll see... Those three days off are Tara's last days on the job. When she's gone, there are only two graveyard shifters. We need a minimum of three, preferably four, or we'll be worked to death. Help!


© Copyright 2002 LL Hager - All Rights Reserved
bsquirrel
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1 posted 2002-06-22 01:27 PM


Baby, that is without a doubt the best poem ever written on the subject of soul-sucking jobs. I love how you describe the sun sorta seeming to move on its own will ... very surreal. Having done a few all-nighters in the past, I know exactly what you mean.

She said burn ... together.
-TON

Seymour Tabin
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Tamarac Fla
2 posted 2002-06-22 01:51 PM


Anvrill
A good write enjoyed the read.

Gentle Spirit
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since 2000-10-09
Posts 13989

3 posted 2002-06-22 02:03 PM


yep, understaffing is really so uncool.  Been there, doing that now.  You really captured the dilema well.  Here's hoping you get some time off soon.  

I could have missed the pain, but I'd have had to miss the dance~~(Garth)


Madame Chipmunk
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since 2001-12-05
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Michigan
4 posted 2002-06-22 02:09 PM


Oh and yes...Anvrill, I have got to agree with your bushy tailed boyfriend....

The world and its contents

skip by in a haze;

nothing is real

in this lack of light.


its an incredible description of retail without windows....and I don't mean the Microsoft kind either...
I used to own a small retail shop located in a mall....and I just hated it because there were no windows, and I couldn't see what was going on outside....Day and night slide into one, in circumstances such as these.
I think all humans...even rodent people, have some inner connection to the outside air.  If we don't at least SEE it through a window or something...it can be very depressing.

~ day/night hugs

Lyra

copyright2002 Lyra Nesius

"poetry is life distilled"  Gwendolyn Brooks

Mistletoe Angel
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5 posted 2002-06-22 02:30 PM




(big hugggsssssss) Oh Anvrill, this is so very sad, sweet friend, I believe should have their place in the sun, I too find it depressing being barricaded from windows and natural light, I feel it is not ourlaziness compared to other nations that slows us but rather the obligations and overscheduling that harms us! (sigh) My heart goes out to you and I hope something gets resolved soon, keep your chin up, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Anvrill, thank you for sharing!



May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

"Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..."

Shakira

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