Growing Up and Breaking Down

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keoni
Senior Member

since 2000-10-16

Posts 850
Up in the mountains in the NFC

0 posted 2002-03-24 12:50 PM

A child attempting to fill a man's shoes
I paid the price but had no dues
Feeling the pressure of adult responsibility
Before I had the ability to create my own identity
Had to deal with too much at an early age
Pissed away childhood by feeding on rage
I seen too much, done too much
Left me with instinct as my only crutch
Too damn young to have a messed up life
13 years old, contemplating the knife

Confused and complacent
Victim of misplacement
Wrong place at the wrong time
Sentenced but no crime
A young mind born of the emotions it knows
Felt hate, anger, pain, as it grows and grows and grows
A prime example of a lost cause
Being eaten by depression as it closes its jaws
So I locked myself away in a state of dillusion
13 years old and already abusin'

I could use some help but I don't know how to ask
No one sees my disentigration hidden behind this mask
A fall from grace is something I would never taste
I never got high enough to reach that place
More like a loss of bliss
Carefree childhood is something I missed
Now I'm stuck seeing life always from the downside
I'm stuck hating myself, a mental suicide
Afraid of life, let me be sent to the grave
13 years old, and too late to be saved

Hey guys, just wanted to let you know that I kinda looked back a few years to write this one. I am completely fine. I just fed off the emotions I remembered feeling to write this.

[This message has been edited by keoni (03-24-2002 04:51 PM).]

Spine Grinder
Senior Member

since 2000-10-28

Posts 1127
Standing In Silence...

1 posted 2002-03-24 02:41 PM

wow, i liked this, i dunno wut else 2 say.

~If u luv something, let it go,if it comes back 2 u, its urs, if it doesnt, it never wuz..~DMX

quietlydying

Senior Member

since 2001-06-10

Posts 935
the wonderful land of oz

2 posted 2002-03-24 04:05 PM

i really enjoyed this piece.

probably because i spent the majority of my adolescence [starting at thirteen] fighting a major recurring depression [as well as other things].

thanks for writing it.

/jen/

so foul and fair a day i have not seen. - macbeth act 1, scene 3

LCBS
Senior Member

since 2001-11-29

Posts 532
Connecticut

3 posted 2002-03-24 09:19 PM

I have this feeling that you are reading my mind...Sometimes i feel this way too, unfortunatly, you may have gotten out a few years ago, but I am in this adolesence right now, and it sucks..

Awesome right!
~Lisa

xShUgArHiGhx

Member Elite

since 2000-09-26

Posts 3150
tRyIn tO fIt iN2 mY oWn ShoEs

4 posted 2002-03-26 02:16 PM

A VERY strong a emotional piece. You wrote this with a lot of feeling and you did a great job. Wonderful poem and i hope that things get better for you

iTs bEeN 1 Of ThOsE dAyZ 4 2 MaNY dAyZ nOw..I jUst NeEd a DaY whErE tHe WOrLd cAn tAkE cArE of ItsElf..

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