Flat lands of Kansas
I too know the feeling and heartache of this. I took the physical and mental abuse for 9 years from my Husband. (not really sure why either) After finally leaving him and struggling with life on my own while raising 2 beautiful daughters, I found myself again. I found the inner happiness once again. Now after almost 4 years of being divorced.... I found the man of my dreams. He is good to my kids and to me also. (and with all his little hints... I beleive he is going to ask me to marry him) So my words to you are ... keep your chin up. Over time, you shall heal and move on with a smile on your face as you once did. Trust me, its a step that you shall never regret.
A friend, like a candle, is most needed in the darkness.