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Never To End? |
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Adamly Junior Member
since 2001-04-05
Posts 11Canada |
Never to End? By: Adam Vanderven© 01/11/01 Closing my eyes and looking back, To a time that seemed like forever, But was really not all that long ago, I remember our first kiss, One of the most magnificent moments of my life, As our lips touched...the warmth surrounding my body Passing through me like a bullet It was then I realized I was in LOVE. As the sun shined upon her face, After the night spent in each other’s company, She looked like an angel as she smiled at me, I remember, dreaming that this moment would go on forever, But even dreamers know dreams can crumble. As the time spent with her increases I am happy, nothing could go wrong, Hours and then days seem to fly by, While I learn new things about her and share new feelings, I never want this to end. We shared a night together, A night so special my blood ran through me, Like a flood after a torrential rain, When our bodies made first contact, It felt so right, our bodies were meant to be together I never want this to end I kissed the back of her neck And whisper sweet words of incense Words like “I love you...You’re beautiful” She then turned around and said those words back I LOVE YOU That sound put me in a place of nirvana As my heart, soul and the very essence of my being joined with hers I never want this to end Waking up next to her, I feel I am dreaming A fantasy come to life in all its splendour Something that was hidden deep inside of me Arises and I am for the first time in my life whole I feel safe, wanted, special, LOVED I never want this to end Walking towards the door dreading the moment I must leave, she runs her fingers through my hair And kisses me goodbye saying I love you Again I am lost in a place of complete peace Believing this is a start of a wondrous future The dream still stirring inside of me I never want this to end The voyage home is painful without her, a wreck, I feel like a ship lost at sea, Sitting there thinking...of nothing in particular I’m actually thinking of the night we spent together I imagine myself in a pasture The sun shinning upon me Warming my body and my thoughts Staring up into the clouds I close my eyes And I feel her surround me in every direction I never want this to end Remembering her smell her magical touch, And her presence when she laid beside me I felt a love so pure, so strong, so perfect I knew this had to be it What I was looking for my entire life But now...now I must prepare myself For the most exquisite torture As I hear the words sorry from my machine “Sorry I do not love you, the way I think you love me” A whip lash that tore my soul apart with such force My body felt like an empty core And left me not knowing what to do. She said she regretted what had happened I witnessed her hurting inside and knew the cause of the harshness I suddenly see myself looking into the sky This time with a pain in my heart Looking down I see the emotions pouring out The feelings that had finally arisen only the night before I think to myself..Am I to drown in this sorrow? I believe it would be better if I were. I let out a silent cry As I can no longer feel her around me The sky turns black, the air moist From my tears of utter heartbreak I feel like a fool, believing in her lies Returning to the real world I feel a pain A real pain as if something was burrowing to get out Those were the feeling I still felt for her Mine would not go away so easily From what seemed like heaven turned to hell So quickly it was as if it happened between breathes I ask myself “Why has God done this to me?” She was...is my other half to existence I need her to live..to go on living I want this to end. In life things come and go. Live and die. Prosper and fall. But our love and poetry will always carry on. |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Very sad...and yet how does anyone really know until they experience the feelings...how do you know if you will enjoy a kiss until you take that kiss? James |
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Severn Member Rara Avis
since 1999-07-17
Posts 7704 |
I've understood your pain before..unrequited love... sigh - it's hard isn't it? That word doesn't encompass it - but you do survive and other love is there - it really is... Welcome to passions Adam...it's great to have you here... please check your email for a special welcome.  KAll obscurity starts with a danger: Your dangers are many. I Cannot look much but your form suffers Some strange injury Sylvia Plath [This message has been edited by Severn (edited 04-05-2001).] |
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coyote Senior Member
since 2001-03-17
Posts 1077 |
Very powerful expressions here, Adamly. I like the way the piece flows as a continuous painful human thought, from the feelings of the heart, through the bewilderment of the mind, and back through again. A fine first post.  "I hate quotes, they suck!" |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
Adamly, Welcome to passions. I enjoyed the pendulum swing of this write. You expressed the changing emotions so well. Write on Kethry Those of us who refuse to risk and grow get swallowed up by life. Patty Hansen. |
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kitkat Senior Member
since 2000-01-11
Posts 878Nova Scotia |
Welecom to Passions Adam. I smiled when you smiled and my heart hurt with yours. A nice piece of poetry (of your heart) you have written here. In time the pain will end and you will kiss another and I hope it will be the kiss that last forever for you. |
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svandersaar Junior Member
since 2001-01-15
Posts 40 |
I wonder if whatever else you write will quite have the imapct of this piece, which was written so obviously as a catharsis... The emotions writhing throughout this are so real, so powerful... Adam I am SO SORRY. I can't believe she told you this over an ANSWERING MACHINE. God... Good luck to you. Things will get better. *hugs* Stacey |
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Fading Away
since 2001-03-14
Posts 3131Lynchburg, Virginia |
Welcome, Adamly. This is a wonderful first post. Very filled with emotion. Nice job. I cant wait to read more. --Marie It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. |
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