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freckles Member
since 2000-02-12
Posts 160Virginia USA |
I suffer in silence and nobody knows how the pain overtakes me; it grows and it grows. Darkness surrounds me, I live in the night; long ago I gave up on seeing the light. But nobody sees this, I'm happy and gay; a veritable clown, as it were, on display. I feel like a puppet suspended by strings; when the puppeteer pulls, I dance and I sing. I've grown tired of singing, and I don't want to dance; I'd walk away from it all if I had half a chance. For now the clown-white covers my desolate face and conceals my desire to leave this place. I grow evermore weary and am in much need of rest and keep thinking that leaving this world would be best....but have decided not to make that quest. (Thanks Gene.)< !signature--> "Unto thine own self be true, and it must follow as the night, the day; thou cans't not be false to any man."---Shakespeare [This message has been edited by freckles (edited 03-17-2000).] |
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childomine Senior Member
since 2000-01-25
Posts 818st. petersburg, FL |
Freckles, I feel like you've touched my very soul with this poem. Having stuggled with depression all of my life I can say that you have hit the proverbial nail on the head. You obviously know of what you speak. It is quite tiresome but I have learned that there is strength within each of us that we sometimes are not aware exists. I pray that you find your strength. |
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just_another_fe Member
since 2000-02-05
Posts 483MICHIGAN |
THIS WAS A GREAT POEM SORRY BOUT WHATS BEHIND IT. I HAVE BEEN THERE A FEW TIMES MYSELF. NOTHING IS WORTH ENDING EVERYTHING  |
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freckles Member
since 2000-02-12
Posts 160Virginia USA |
Thank you for reading and for the kind words. childomine---I'm glad somebody understands the feelings wrapped up in this poem; I was hoping I wouldn't just scare everyone away. I know there is an inner strength; I've been tapping into it for some time now. God, I pray the well doesn't run dry....... just_another_fe---Thank you for your very kind words about my poem and for the support you show for what caused me to write it. "Unto thine own self be true, and it must follow as the night, the day; thou cans't not be false to any man."---Shakespeare |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
This poem also touched me completely! Very few poems do I feel with my heart and soul as I did in this one. I have felt this way a few times during my life too, especially after my Mom died. The only advice I can impart is believe in yourself and the Lord. He will show you the way, but you have the strength to make it in your heart. You will be in my prayers. Take care. Amy ~Live today as though it were your last but prepare for tomorrow as though it were here~ |
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WhisperingWind Junior Member
since 2000-03-02
Posts 28Ontario, Canada |
I understood that poem to well. Each day is a struggle for me also. I feel like the world is against my happiness. To many people feel this way and I apologize for everyone who feels this. I wish i could make things better for you. There is alot of pain and suffering, no one should have to feel. *hugs* Things will be ok. Just have love in your heart and things will be ok. There will always be someone there for you. i honestly believe that. One day it will stop. |
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Gene Senior Member
since 2000-01-23
Posts 935Colorado, USA |
freckles, Wonderful poem, but I think you need to add 8 little words the last line: "but have decided not to make that quest." I know it may not mean much to here me say, "I've been there," but believe me, I know where you're coming from. All too often, it happens to me, just when everything seems so swell, I get thrown back down into the well, but even so, I have to climb back out just to see what life is all about. Take care, and remember you have friends here who care. (HUGS) ~Gene |
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Denise
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-08-22
Posts 22648 |
Very painful, well written piece. It is best to take off the mask and talk to somebody to prevent the pain from building with no release. The pain does subside when talking and dealing with it instead of burying it. If this is a personal poem I hope you talk to somebody about your pain. Keep writing too, that helps tremendously, I have found. Denise |
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Merlynne Junior Member
since 2000-03-17
Posts 16 |
I have noticed a great deal of talent in those who write from deep in their souls to releive their pain. This is a very well written poem expressing the pains with very interesting images. My prayers are also with you as you work your way towards peace. |
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kaile
since 2000-02-06
Posts 5146singapore |
"and then a hero comes along...with the strength to carry on...and you cast your fears aside...and you know you can survive..." i love this song"hero" by mariah carey....it suggests that each and every of us have that inner stength within us and summon it to good use ") |
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freckles Member
since 2000-02-12
Posts 160Virginia USA |
Wow.......tonight when I logged onto Passions, I was reminded why I chose The Corner Pub as my home. There are terrific people out there in all forums on this site, but you all are the cat's meow. Thank you so much for your kind words and support; as you can tell, I am struggling through a very tough time right now, and I will take all of the support I can get. Amy---Thank you for your prayers, and I am sorry that you have felt the struggle through your mother's death. WhisperingWind---Thank you too for your kind words and support. I know all too well that I don't suffer alone, but it is hard to keep that in mind sometimes. Thanks for the hugs. Gene---It is always wonderful to hear from you. Thank you for your support (I loved the poem in your reply). May I have another please? Tighter...... Denise---Thank you for the words of encouragement. I am trying to keep communication open, but, understandably, this can be difficult to deal with even for one's best friend. I am using any means at my disposal to try to vent the frustrations constructively (and possibly even creatively); yes, the writing does seem to help. Merlynne---Thank you for the kind words about my work. I also thank you for the prayers and support. kaile---Thanks for reading, responding, and offering the input. I'll have to give that song a listen.< !signature--> "Unto thine own self be true, and it must follow as the night, the day; thou cans't not be false to any man."---Shakespeare [This message has been edited by freckles (edited 03-17-2000).] |
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Gene Senior Member
since 2000-01-23
Posts 935Colorado, USA |
freckles, I got your e-mail. That's the way--now you've got! Tighter? Well, o.k.  In the style of William Blake: Tighter, tighter, burning bright, In thy darkest or lonely night, What immortal flame or light Could extinguish from thy sight? So deep it bruns, The more thine yearns. For, the flame does ignite, Burnt the fire of thine heart, Thy heart's desire is for life. ~Gene [This message has been edited by u_gene (edited 03-18-2000).] |
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KimW Member
since 2000-03-04
Posts 268Medford, Oregon, USA |
Oh! This hit me like a brick! Sometimes it is Incredible how low things in life seem to be... and then WHAM! there comes a breath of fresh air and a new view on everything surrounding us. It is wonderful to see that there are people here in this Forum that have made you feel warm and at peace. The last line of your poem sums it all up greatly!~~ Gene.. I really love the replies you have given to this one and the warmth behind them! |
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Munda Member Elite
since 1999-10-08
Posts 3544The Hague, The Netherlands |
I'm glad to see you could translate your most inner feelings so well with this great poem. If you need an ear, or if I can help you in any other way, please feel free to contact me. (And thank you Gene, for those last 8 words) |
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wonderous Member
since 2000-02-29
Posts 75 |
hi i think it takes great courage to write all that you feel at the moment. i cant really say i have been there si ihave no words if wisdom to offer. what does come to mind though is the sernity prayer that always has a calming effect in me and i hope it helps you too god give me the serenity to accept the thing i cannot change courage to change the things i can and wisdom to know the difference. life will get better ..it always does some day some time |
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twinsgd Member
since 2000-02-13
Posts 416Ontario,Canada |
Thank you Gene Thank you Freckles |
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freckles Member
since 2000-02-12
Posts 160Virginia USA |
Gene---Thanks again! KimW---Thanks for reading and responding; I feel lucky to have found "The Corner Pub" (thanks to my best friend). Munda---Thank you so much. They say "necessity is the mother of invention;" I'm beginning to wonder if necessity might also be the mother of creativity. I needed to vent, and it felt good to get the frustration out. Mind you, the poetry hasn't alleviated all of my grief, but it has been great therapy. Thanks for the offer, also. wonderous---Thank you for your response. It was not exactly easy to admit to these feelings enough to put them into poetic form (or any other form for that matter); they have not been the easiest reality for me to swallow. I love the Serenity Prayer; I will try to keep it in mind. twinsgd---As always, thank you; you epitomize the difference between a "mere" friend and a "true" friend. "Unto thine own self be true, and it must follow as the night, the day; thou cans't not be false to any man."---Shakespeare |
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