Bel1e, yeah, the waking is never pretty. I find myself drawing that anemic shell around myself tighter and tighter these days... just trying to take 'em one at a time. Thank you for the in depth reply... It's nice to feel "understood."
Nicole, that's just it... Living is hard. It's easy to give up, too easy in fact... And once you're merely "existing," it's damn hard to get back to the other side. Mayhap I can meet you there someday.
JP, you give me hope that perhaps, one day, I can return to the land of the living... for now, I'll just keep trudging forward slowly.
Ruth, the day I stop hoping is the day I stop "existing" period. It's not always hope that pushes the pen, but sometimes you gotta move a little of this garbage out of the way to get to it.
JL, I will try to be patient. Are we ther yet? Are we there yet? Are we there yet? Lol thank you, my friend.
Margherita, i keep my eyes on the light, and my feet moving forward; my writing just helps me release some of the darkness that assails me along the way. your replies aren't preachy... I know they are heartfelt, and I hope you know that they are truly appreciated on my end.
Thank you all,