Complacent (numb was my cocoon)

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Open Poetry #45

Complacent (numb was my cocoon)

jennirey
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since 2002-01-24

Posts 198
North Richland HillsTx

0 posted 2009-09-06 04:37 PM

Complacent (numb was my cocoon)

I became stagnant
I had allowed myself to accept rejection on a daily basis as a normal way of life.
I cannot sit still beside myself watching all life go on around me any longer
I am changing from the outside in, because from the inside out is too painful.
Maybe If I change how I look and feel maybe it will change the way I know how to be
I understand that you are in pain, but I cannot fix you.
I am tired of being depressed by your depression.
I cannot heal you and cannot bring you back if you do not want to be here.
I cannot make you well if you do not care for yourself.
Yet we stay and the wait begins again
Anger turns to pain, pain turns to numb and I have yet to begin again.
I have lost all knowledge of compassion, how to show it and how to be it.
I have gained impatience and now a longing to persevere
I will mourn the old rag doll I called myself
I will embrace the emergent me
I now know that the numb was my cocoon
I only have to wait for my wings to dry.
Then I am free to sail up high again once more.

Jennirey 2009

Artic Wind
Member Rara Avis

since 2007-09-16

Posts 8080
Realm of Supernatural

1 posted 2009-09-06 04:41 PM

That's good. Always think positive and know that time will pass and you will be able to spread your wings.

ARCTIC WIND

BluesSerenade
Member Patricius

since 2001-10-23

Posts 10549
By the Seaside

2 posted 2009-09-07 12:04 PM

Such a poignant poem, full of mixed emotions and sadness, stuck between a rock and hard place, watching someone you care for fall into a dark place.

You expressed so many feelings, so well.

Take good care, jennirey~

brneyedgrly
Senior Member

since 2009-06-08

Posts 1125
nowhere and everywhere

3 posted 2009-09-07 12:44 PM

I only have to wait for my wings to dry.
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and I hope you soar when they do..

this is honest and full of strong

enjoyed

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