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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa 
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PERHAPS THE ANSWER 11 October 2007 Perhaps the answer to the question of fearing not fearing is to question its validity and more so its necessity and even its protection but I do and I don’t know the answers only (I think) – or at least, mainly because I don’t know the minds of past and potential intruders so I question the questions and I continue to fear not fearing. Perhaps the answer is to find another question or perhaps the answer is to fear fearing. - Owl |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa |
The irony is that hours after I wrote this I had another attempted break-in and a huge shatterproof picture window was broken in my lounge. It has been fixed now (about 30 minutes ago), but I am so nervous now, that although it is broad daylight (4.30pm) I have to get off my laptop and hide it away, especially as I can't afford to pay its insurance and it is now currently not insured. I feel that I am back to Square 1. I had a break-in to my bedroom on 29 March and 5 July, both of this year and now again, but this time into my lounge. The 2nd and 3rd time, they didn't get anything, but it costs me a lot even though insurance pays because of the excess I have to pay. Must get off the computer now. - Owl |
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TinaTrivett Senior Member
since 2006-07-15
Posts 569 |
Oh Owl, how awful. Please be careful. ((hugs)) |
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Margherita Member Seraphic
since 2003-02-08
Posts 22236Eternity |
I am so sorry to hear this dear Diana! I went through such a frightful experience too, but I now got my fear under control, I call upon the Angels and ask for their assistance. (besides installing an alarm system too ...) May they calm you and assist you too, dear Diana. Love and hugs. Margherita |
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The Lady Member Rara Avis
since 2005-12-26
Posts 7634The Southwest |
oh Diana not again I pray you and the fur babies are will be safe |
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LindsayP Member Elite
since 2007-07-28
Posts 3410Australia, Victoria |
Diana, I'm so sorry to hear of your trauma and I certainly wish you well my dear, keep the chin up and good luck. Lindsay |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa |
Thank you, Tina, and for the hugs and the good wishes. I am careful, but somehow that doesn't seem to help. Thanks, Margherita. Before August 2005 (I bought this house in 1983) I have regular break-ins and burglaries, and 3 attacks, and (not quite) each time, I increased the security alarm system inside the house. In August 2005, I put up a palisade fence on the outside boundary of my property and spikes on the walls between me and my neighbours and razor wire on top of the spikes on almost all of the walls between me and my neighbours and sensor lights all around the house. I thought I was safe (well, relatively, because we all know that intruders can get in anywhere if they really want to) and I didn't have any incidents between then and March 2007. Then I had a burglary in my bedroom (while I as in it) on 29 March 2007 and I put up an additional light that shone all night down to the bottom corner of my front garden, but then had another break-in and burglary in my bedroom (again while I was in it) on 5 July 2007, but they didn't take anything of value - just an old cell phone that hadn't been working for years and a very cheap plastic tinny-sounding radio that didn't really work and I never used. I then had extremely good burglar guards put up on all the windows I could almost afford. Then now again on 11 October 2007 they broke the big shatterproof picture window (no burglar guards), but they didn't have time to finish the job and get a hole big enough to get in and take anything. Each time it has cost me the excess on the insurance of the window and an awful lot of trauma. What I need to do, is to make some sales, as well as getting another temp job as a second job and earn enough to pay what I owe and complete the excellent burglar guards. However, I don't think any of that is likely to happen very soon, and my finances are terrorising me more than the crime! However, yesterday I was on my computer in fear and trembling. Today, it is just in fear, so perhaps that is a start! Hee hee! Yep, Kate, again! For now the fur babies and I are safe. However, they are a little traumatised, Tigger more than Daisy, as she has only been here for the last 2 years when my break-ins and burglaries have been much fewer. Thanks, Lindsay, for the good wishes. I am trying to keep my chin up (sometimes I have to hold it up with my hands), but it tends to keep dropping. Last night was I was really terrified and had a double 180 degree turning point. I nearly decided to sell my house, then discovered that there isn't anywhere that I would feel safe - I think I am being targeted mainly because I am living alone and I decided for now, that I must simply make some sales - easier said than done in our current property market situation - I am an estate agent - and get a second (temp) job - easier said than done seeing that I am nearly 62 (although blessed with the most incredible health and energy, whether I eat or not). I pray an awful lot, but perhaps God is blessing me with the tests that he put Job through. - Owl |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa |
Just to finish what I was saying to Lindsay (so that it makes sense - I can't edit it because my post isn't showing for me yet) - I meant make some sales and put up good burglar guards on the windows that don't have it yet. I am working myself inside out but the sales and second jobs just aren't materialising. However, I won't give up trying. - Owl |
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Marchmadness Member Rara Avis
since 2007-09-16
Posts 9271So. El Monte, California |
Oh. Owl, I don't know how you can write anything under such stress. I am 63 and I live alone too.(in a suberb of Los Angeles no less) and no one has ever broken into my house, pray they never do. I don't know where you live but I think there has to be somewhere safer than that. I would seriously consider finding it. Wishing you peace and safety. Ida |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa |
Ida, when I saw the email that you had replied, I thought I had missed your post and went back in to read and reply. I found that I can't see your reply in the ordinary way yet, but could on "Print". The writing of the poem wasn't under stress, but my reply/explanation was, and that was very scary. I just wanted to be off my laptop and get it hidden so that I could watch in case the intruders tried to come back for the sack of somebody else's clothes they left at the bottom of my garden! Yes, last night, for the first time in all these years of people telling me to sell my house, I considered selling my house (a corner house where neighbours can't see my house from inside theirs - across the road from a Scout Hall - so nobody there most of the time) and near a railway line across which intruders can run and be safe from vehicles following them. However, as I said earlier in the thread, I discovered that I wouldn't feel safe anywhere, and just need to increase the security here - what I have is very good, just can be improved on. Thank you for the concern. I certainly hope that you will never experience even an attempted break-in, let alone a burglary or an attack. Thank you so much for the good wishes for my peace and safety. This poem is based on my wondering about the 4 possibilities: a) the perceived danger alone b) the actual danger alone c) both combined d) if both, should they be combined or kept separate? - Owl |
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