The Hague, The Netherlands
Please listen to Nan and take care of your health first and everything else will fall into place...
I have been diagnosed diabetic myself 2 years ago. Unfortunately another doctor completely missed the high blood sugar level in my blood result 2 years earlier. Now that I get proper medical treatment I feel much better and - looking back - understand why I felt so terrible before. Diabetes does not only have physical effects, but also causes a change in your moods if not controlled. I remember I couldn't cope with stress situations like I could before and it seemed everything in my life went wrong. Before I could deal with one situation, something else already happend and at long last it felt as if I was carrying the world upon my shoulders. What I didn't know of course is that the high blood sugars caused a change in my emotions, but then the stress caused high blood sugars, so you see, I got locked up in a circle I could not explain and started every day extrememly tired, wondering why everything and everybody was ganging up on me. Also it worried me I had turned into this person who wasn't really me. Who was this woman going out of her mind only because the kids argued over something stupid? Who was it crying over little things I normally wouldn't give a second thought? Now that I keep a diet and get medication I feel much better. The best part is I recognize myself again and can handle life - with all its ups and downs - as I always could. It may sound silly, but by getting the proper medical treatment, I got my life back!
What I'm going to say next may sound very harsh and I pray I'm not offending - or scaring - you. You're body is showing some serious effects and your doctor may be right you'll lose that toe, but please, please, do seek - even insist - on proper medical treatment! You may lose a toe, but you'll get back your life and all the beauty with it. I have no idea about the medical system in the U.S.A., but I'm sure it will be expensive, but ... you're worth it! YOU are important!
Nan is right you know... Please take care of yourself?... Please?... Everything else will fall into place...