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Apachecat906 Member
since 2001-09-04
Posts 217Michigan, USA |
Does anyone ever just want to die? Have you ever hoped that you could just wake up in a different world, and then realize you'd probably be miserable there too? And if you have, how the heck do you keep moving? I've tried and tried and everything I do leads me back to this one relationship, and jeez you think I wouldn't be so sad cuz I'm the reason it's over, but I can't stop. I dream about him with his new family. I cry when any song comes on the radio. I cry when I drive past a Ponderosa cuz we used to eat there. I cry when I look at my baby and think about the one on the way cuz they wont grow up with their daddy. I wish I could just shrivel up and blow away, and I want to move on but I am just hurting so much for my mistake. And I can't even hate him for hurting me. He didn't do anything wrong. Anyway, how do I stop and just accept the way things are? Go ahead, push your luck; find out how much love the world can hold |
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doreen peri Member Elite
since 1999-05-25
Posts 3812Virginia |
for the sake of your children and for your own stability, you must move on. believe me, i totally understand how you're feeling. I'm struggling with the same issue myself. For both of us, I suggest counseling. i'm lucky enough to have insurance through the company i work, so will look into what's covered. if you have insurance, check to see if the insurance company has a plan for this and if not, check your local resources such as community services. the fact that you recognize there is a problem is a big step and you've taken an even bigger step by reaching out here to ask advice because that shows that you know something must be done. please don't hesitate. You will feel better once you start talking to a professional counselor well versed in giving advice for these kind of matters. While you're feeling this need to do something to make things better, do it! pick up the phone.... i gaurantee you'll feel like you're moving forward once you take that first step. also, remember, well meaning friends and a support group are wonderful things to have, but cannot replace professionals who can help guide you toward healing with practical resources and advice. one more thing.... i really think it's important that you stop blaming yourself. That only makes things more difficult. In life, and especially in relationships, it is never one person's "fault". Sure, take responsibility for your mistakes, but accept that you are not entirely responsible for the demise of the relationship. It takes 2. i hope this helped even in some small way... i send you my prayers and support... |
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xShUgArHiGhx 
since 2000-09-26
Posts 3150tRyIn tO fIt iN2 mY oWn ShoEs |
I've felt the way you did for years but then again im only 16 so i dont have kids to worry about or anything besides school and family so i had less riding on my waking up in the morning..but i do know how it feels to wake up and not feel alive and to just wish that u'll be lucky enough to happen to die in your sleep that night or something morbid like that...but if you do have kids..theres more to it so i would seek out help and possible meds...they are life changers and from experience with them it does allow you to be happy again and waking up in t he morning isnt all that bad... BoOsH bOoSh nApoLE |
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Apachecat906 Member
since 2001-09-04
Posts 217Michigan, USA |
Thanks for responding you guys. It's an up and down battle and I'm finally resigned to the fact that crap happens and there is nothing you can do about it, and you just go on becuase you have no choice. So thank you sincerely for your time and advice, I know you guys have stuff on your minds as well. Maybe someday I will be in a position to help someone else in here too. For now, I'm just gonna try to chill and forget things for a while. Love, Carrie Go ahead, push your luck; find out how much love the world can hold |
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