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Not As I Seem |
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Lone Wolf Member Ascendant
since 2000-03-16
Posts 5842Lansing, MI USA |
I sit back watching As the world passes by No one seems to notice The image I project Upon the window To my wounded heart It’s a portrait of a woman Who seems okay on the outside To all who glance as they pass Yet on the inside she feels Alone in her anguish Overwhelmed by the past At night it taunts her Haunting her dreams Tearing at her soul Until she lets out a scream When she finally awakes No one is there beside She searches the room In cold sweat and tears Her breathing shallow Somewhat labored at times Heart pounding mercilessly Like a drum in her chest She curls up tight Into a little ball Pulling the covers up Tucking them in As she makes an effort To feel safe and protected She longs for shelter Yet the tempest rages on In spite of her efforts She is caught in the middle Waves crashing upon her As her spirit cries out It begs for mercy Tenderness, compassion Courage to continue Seeking solace But most of all Aching for love For love Is perhaps The only Thing that Could soothe This pain All writing comes by the grace of God. -Ralph Waldo Emerson [This message has been edited by Lone Wolf (edited 11-21-2001).] |
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rosepetals25
since 2000-05-31
Posts 3076PA |
Jennifer, Wow.. this brought tears to my eyes. You have NO idea how well I know this.. how well I can relate to this poem. At night it taunts her Haunting her dreams Tearing at her soul Until she lets out a scream When she finally awakes No one is there beside ***************** She curls up tight Into a little ball Pulling the covers up Tucking them in As she makes an effort To feel safe and protected ****************** For love Is perhaps The only Thing that Could soothe This pain I pray for your sake this is based on your non reality.. but if it isn't.. and you are going through this.. know you aren't alone. Warm hugs to you Hugs, Tara "My heart is like an open book, for the whole world to read" |
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Sunshine
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
I've been this woman. This is a good write, Lone Wolf, it encompasses the truth, wraps reality around it, resounds with the thud that loneliness is... you took someone's emotion and put it into poetic form...not an easy thing to do... |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
Lone Wolf, A goodly write and I enjoyed the read. |
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Abigaile Member
since 2001-10-21
Posts 112San Mateo, CA |
Very very beautiful. Yes, you are right, love sometimes is the only thing that can ease the pain. Love does come to all, I truly believe this, and sometimes we let it go too easily... this is why it hurts so much. "I am nae poet, in a sense; |
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CocoBaci Member Elite
since 2000-05-06
Posts 3043 |
In spite of her efforts She is caught in the middle Waves crashing upon her As her spirit cries out LW, you've penned a gem here... Hugs2UmyPoetFriend *~coco~* |
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Carol Lina Member
since 2001-11-18
Posts 94USA |
this is honest, down home, no bull, in your face and straight up. No one is as they seem, we're all terrified (((((hug))))))) Carolina |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Very well written, drawing from the deepest wells of loneliness and pain. I do relate. Time to send out another magic flashlight to shine some LOVE in those dark corners. And the crashing waves? the ones that feel as if they are a tsunami attack? just look at them in a different light, as waves of LOVE encircling you. These are just a few of the positive affirmation images I have to keep re-visiting daily to keep my feet on steady ground. (Along with Marge's giant hugs.) |
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Startime Member Ascendant
since 2000-10-03
Posts 5918Canada |
Oh gosh, can I ever relate to this poem. You have said plainly what I have not been able to. **hug** I pray you find the love you need. Love I leave with you whether it is in your life now or yet the essense of your dreams. |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Hope you find the love and the healing you desire....James |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
Jennifer...Finally know a name...I think so. A past is seldom forgotten especially when it does hurt It lingers on till it's rotten and lying there in the dirt. It creeps into our memories It lingers in our very soul It robs away our vitality It takes such a heavy toll. We must look hard at our past and try to understand so well That only we can make it last in our own mind's internal hell. We often ask why, so many times, why did a particular thing happen...What did we do to deserve it. Doesn't it matter about how we feel. So many questions. I had to learn that my past was not caused from what I had done. It was a result of what others had learned as just a part of their personality. Their way of expressing thoughts. Most of my hurts were never intended upon me. I have had to work hard to learn to forgive, let myself go and grow...Learning to love me. For...until I learned to love myself...I could not love others... Beautiful write...Sad, very true and I pray it never happened to you personally. |
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MyEnchanted_Melody Senior Member
since 2001-05-30
Posts 1106across the land of dreams. In your heart, I'd always be. |
God....Such an aching sad and heartfelt write. It was about to put me into tears. I'm sure many can relate to such feelings. I only hope that none would suffer from them for long. Thank you ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ |
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walker Member Elite
since 2001-02-11
Posts 2240Florida |
Great expression. |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
Had I wrote like this, freely, when I was your age, instead of well....when I did  I would have had 20 more years of being free. Don't stop now.  Kathleen |
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catalinamoon
since 2000-06-03
Posts 9543The Shores of Alone |
What a heartwrenching write, you did a very good job of describing this feelng Sandra |
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Lone Wolf Member Ascendant
since 2000-03-16
Posts 5842Lansing, MI USA |
Tara: Thank you much. I'm sorry you relate. I guess it's just a feeling I get every now and then, but I am fine. No worry there. Sunshine: I think we've all been her at one time. The words kind of took over my pen and spilled over the page. Not sure how, but I am happy to share them. Seymour: Thank you, glad you enjoyed. Abigaile: Love does come to all and I believe is worth fighting for. Thank you much. I enjoy your work very much. Coco: Thanks, PoetFriend. Hugs back to you! Carolina: You got it right on. What you see is what you get. ((((hug)))) Midnitesun: Sorry you relate to this one. Love does abound in the darkness, just not where we expect to find it. Thank you for sharing your viewpoint. I like it. Karen: I'm not sure where the words came from, but I am glad they found my muse. Thank you much. **hug** James: The healing is coming alone, thank you. The love? Well, some things just can't be rushed. Magnus: Yes, you know a name now. I appreciate you sharing your verse with me here. I've often wondered why things happened as they did. But I've come to see that I really had no control over them. I was only the victim of circumstance. You are right. It's not what we've done at all. I don't believe the hurt was intentional, but it did happen. Forgiveness is very hard work, but I am getting there. Thank you for your thoughts. MyEnchanted_Melody: First, have a tissue. My only intent in posting this was to let others know they are far from alone in their feelings. We've all felt this way at some time. The suffering I believe only lasts as long as we allow it and I for one have had enough! Thank you for reading. walker: Kathleen: I won't be stopping anytime soon. Once you get a taste of freedom, you never want to let it go. Loved the pic, by the way! Sandra: Thank you, I've been very familiar with it in the past. All writing comes |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
No, you are not as you seem. You're more special than most know. I am proud to be your friend...I'm so glad I had the chance to meet you and thank you for all of your love and understanding through this entire year, I love you hon Kathleen "When red-haired girls scamper like roses over the rain-green grass, and the sun drips honey." Laurie Lee [This message has been edited by Irish Rose (edited 11-25-2001).] |
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peaches73533 Senior Member
since 2001-11-04
Posts 981OK, USA |
Thus made my heart ache.The love you see you shall find. Peaches |
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Lone Wolf Member Ascendant
since 2000-03-16
Posts 5842Lansing, MI USA |
Kathleen: You have had the chance to get to know the me that few seldom see. The real woman behind the poetry and words. I am still amazed by the woman you see at times, but I thank you for reminding me of the good and for all you've done for me this past year. I'm proud to be your friend too, hon. The time we spent together was wonderful and I'm glad we had the chance to meet also. We'll do it again real soon, I promise. I love you too, hon. Very much. peaches: Thank you much. You shall also. All writing comes |
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vandana
since 1999-10-22
Posts 10463USA |
enjoy |
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Temptress
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-06-15
Posts 7136Mobile, AL |
You know, I've read this several times, and even written a poem from the inspiration (in my notebook) I got from it. *sigh* Sometimes we think no one understands and that no one else can see us...but there is always someone else who sees us..even when we don't acknowledge their sight. just coming back to let you know I enjoyed this.Your storm of assumption feeds anger I am calm enough to hold inside. Don't pretend to know me if you've never put stretched out your heart with since |
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Greeneyes 
since 2000-09-09
Posts 9903In Your Poetic Mind |
Lone Wolf~ I know this feeling all too well.....sometimes love can bring you right out of it....I hope it will....Peace my friend....try and keep a smile....your words are very touching... Lauren~ [This message has been edited by Greeneyes (edited 12-02-2001).] |
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